I feel so alone Like I got no home I just want to roam Check out the unknown But I'm just a girl living in a semi-dangerous world Try to keep my pack Knives stuck in my back Can't trust anyone Can't love anyone Nowhere I belong Wish I could be strong All I ever am is wrong
Three days ago my brother returned from Afghanistan... And during these three days, when I was going home, brother was not there and when brother was becoming, I was not... On the third day, I went out and kept thinking about the military uniform hanging on the chair, which has traces of desert, which has my brother's name... I got a call from home in the evening... A familiar voice was heard on the phone. "Where are you, Irakli?" I'm tongue-in-cheek, quickly went home and all along the way I had so many questions to ask him. I imagined a standing ovation I imagined a picture of our loud meeting, but when I entered the door, I was frozen because I met the sleepless and battle eyes... We stood for three seconds and after three seconds we hugged each other without saying a word...
Imma white strand underneath that wide band on your round land under the heap among profound men just someone unique, identified from a mile back *** mild 'attack seeing me took a step back thinking me of a **** wack who isn't like em I've been cut I've been dyed I've died yet resurfaced just like a lie screaming at your face dare ******* deny.
sense of individuality and self-acceptance in the face of societal expectations
among the skyscrapers my mind wander how narrow my sight was to only surmise what one might feel realizing there are more to conquer so i take a step back revisiting another possible tracks i could take
i came back to the dance of a pen on a paper of fingers on keys of a mind in a moment
at first i stumbled it had been so long and then i started to dance again and out came all the feelings and the moments and the memories that i won't talk about and out came everything that won't ever come out of my mouth
i came back to the dance so i don't have to come back to the same crippling feelings anymore
i came back
so i can move on
some thoughts on beginning to write again after a while