She watched a silhouette disappear
Beyond the cold misty mountain
There was no turning back for him.
He said to himself
'I have my freedom,
but I don't have much time'
I have burned
all the boats
to reach to your shore
so my dear!
You can either
take me with you
Or leave me drowned...
I know I have been distant for some time.
Not aware or presents in our lives,
but to be forgotten was unexpected.
I want to go back and change the past.
To be present at the time I needed to be,
to be part of my family once more.
But is it too late now to go back?
Since I have I been gone for so long
I can't seem to find my way back.
I did not think this day would come
The love in your eyes fades away
Would do anything to fix us
To make you stay
I wonder what you are thinking about
How you actually feel about me
I want the most to know the truth
Parts you don't let me see
I am not sure what's real or not
You are so good at telling lies
Pointless yet I am determined
To break your disguise
I love you unconditionally
Always and forever will
If you no longer feel the same
Why continue to say you do still?
If it's because you are scared of being alone
Can tell you right now you'll be fine
Many girls are just waiting for their chance
The moment you are no longer mine
And you deserve the best
The happiness you desire
Should have known that eventually
Of my foolishness you'd tire
You do more than I could ever deserve
From the start I knew
You were far too good for me
Was lucky just to be with you
I know good things never last
So I do not know why I'm surprised
Guess I was naive to believe
Feelings would never be compromised
Our love for eachother so strong
Was all I could be sure about
Despite ****** up things we endured
Connection remained free from doubt
We went through worst together
Lived to experience the best
It wasn't always easy
Relationship passed each test
Now out of nowhere **** starts to change
No reason I can find
Are you growing apart from me?
Scared I'll be left behind
I am desperate for a solution
Be what you need once more
It seems like you're ready to end it
Halfway out the front door
I love more than I ever have
The harder I try the more we fight
Can tell you're getting sick of me
I can't stop holding you tight
I wish I could behave more like her
Down to have fun
Used to have such good times together
Seems like those days are done
Stressed under heavy pressure
Both work to lift the weight
Do my best to lighten the load
My worry makes it inflate
She may not nag
***** at you
I bet if you put her in my place
Years of games and illusions
Would not be as eager to replace
History between us hard
It's filled with so much hurt
I understand why it's nice to escape
Hang out with her and flirt
But you do not know eachother well
Hasn't seen your darker side
I'm sure she has her fair share as well
Secrets and flaws kept inside
You know inside and out
My absolute worst
Can be a lot to handle at times
I will never quit putting you first
I support whatever you pick
You want a break to see how it goes
However long you need
Trying people like shoes or clothes
I do not want anyone else
For your sake I will pretend
Don't want concern to hold you back
You are scared my heart won't mend
I deserve to be permanently broken
All the mistakes I have made
Perhaps the suffering would be gone
If only then I would have stayed
I will forever call you my soulmate
If you leave and never return
No one else could ever replace
Your touch I'll always yearn
Hopefully find your way back to my arms
The happiness you couldn't find with me
Even if I give somebody else my heart
You will always have the key
If it's me
That you don't need
Then when your eyes light up the sky tonight I know you're gonna find your way back to me
Just take me back to the good days.
No monster to watch out for,
or problems or worries for miles.
To those days where I used to smile.
O how I wish we could go back,
to those days of blissful ignorance.
Anxious and in a panic, everyone is staring at me.
I ask a question and next thing I know you’re yelling at me.
The room is spinning and I need to escape.
Tears flowing, heartbreak showing.
Insult after insult, and five minutes later you’re trying to have a normal conversation with me as if it never happened.
What happened to my mind?
Maybe it’s floating somewhere where I feel safe.
i just wanted to write
but something got in the way
you were trying to send morse code
i was just trying to get lost
i know we weren't good enough
to survive the storms
but I'm back now...
this time without you
im back for good
When i was about 10...
I was boy pretending to be a man...
Always around my brothers...
But they never wanted me to hang around...
But i grew...
Lookin up to them...
Cause i was down...
Dumb and young...
Wanted to know the street code...
Cause thats the way to break success codes..
That...was wrong mission..
I was aiming at...
I just got told by a wise kid...
He was just eight...
To follow my dreams..
Thats only gold...
My parents...said school...
12 years...as a slave
Lose some my friends..
We dig graves...
I wish to see them...
When am back then...
At my raising grounds
There is a forest,
Under the sea,
To which I desperately
Long to see.
I’m back :) been ages
be astonished by the capable, healthy eyes looking at you
stop hiding behind the facts
facts, that caring is crucial for survival
we must find a way back to caring and supportive actions
what happened to us....?
Brian Hill - 2020 # 255