They say you don't know what you have til it's gone Can only see it after you have moved on Find the truth a millisecond too late Realizing love you let go was already great Just by looking at the past it's clear we were meant to be But your curiosity and doubt caused you to set me free You put on your shoes and walked out the door Now you waltz back in expecting things to be like before I've always felt the same about you and I will until I die But that doesn't mean I should let your behavior make me cry I need to respect myself enough to finally walk away Because my heart is not a deck of cards or an instrument to play Nobody else will ever be able to make my eyes light up like you But I am sick of being taken for granted and that's what you consistently do I am drawn to your presence worse than a moth to flame But if I go running back to you I have no one but myself to blame
But you are an electric bug zapper and I am about to get electrocuted
Catch me like snowflakes on the tip of your tongue Take me way back to they days we were young Flickering waves of nostalgia crash on shores of my mind Regret rolls in then right back out much like the oceans tide Melding seamlesslessly into these rivers composed of tears The horizontal sea is darker and deeper than it appears Where your memories have drowned inside a wet washed up grave Staring back at photographs documenting love we couldn't save Your unconcious eyes have no longing for my smile Seeking to be with someone else for awhile Catch me My wings are too broken to fly Too late I find out when I am falling from the sky For I always seem to jump the gun before being fully prepared Which wouldn't be a problem if you had genuinely cared For just a few years ago your affection was solely mine to keep How could I not have noticed we were getting in too deep? Priorities out of order I guess we ran out of time And you stopped idolizing the person once considered so sublime And in your haste to discover something shiny and new You overlooked the treasure you had right in front of you
Appreciate what you have already. One day you might wake up and find out that you missed out on diamonds while you were mining for gold.
If life was simple you'd still be right here In a parallel universe I'm holding you near Black and white would be so much easier to understand Than the shades of grey blurring distance between where we stand My world used to be colorful and bright Since you left I'm surrounded by darkness of constant night You made things easier with just one caring touch In your absence I find my problems are too much Clearly you love me or my messages you'd ignore But lately I wonder what you take the risk for You are currently involved in a blooming romance That's why I am reluctant to give you another chance You've made each moment together feel better than heaven above There is nothing on this planet as unique and strong as our love We express our emotions in our own individual way Believe we are meant to be at the end of the day I wonder why fate has forced our fingers far apart Maybe I need to accept that your presence can only exist in my heart We are bad for eachother As toxic as cyanide We were made for chemical reactions building up inside As soon as your kiss is deposited onto my lips The scale balancing our desires suddenly sags and then tips Yet we are drawn in hopelessly despite inevitable explosion Our world only shaped by resulting corrosion I look forward to the damage you inflict without second thought I'd choose to live without you if I could but I cannot The beauty in the chaos created is something no one can deny I embrace not just sunshine but the storms that grace our cloudy sky Because I've learned that the intense highs come with equally low lows It's a fair exchange and it's just the way it goes But the ecstasy delivered makes it worth the disappointment and heartache I'd go to hell and back for you as many times as it takes
I ache, I scream, But never shall you see nor hear. Voices in my head crack and break, But you will never hear me stutter when i speak. Its a cures to be able to remember the past, To remember the thoughts. The details of those night alone. The wall felling like they are closing in ready to crush what little strength i held close. A life time i thought the voices would take, claming it as there own, never to let me or anyone else forget. Almost I handed it to them on a platter made of fear and tears. Almost did walk to the place where i would never be found again. Almost... That life time is still going strong. Those voice tho still present, not as loud. And the aches and the screams are still felt and heard, But... Washed away by the light, the little strength that was left. Slowly... finding peace in life.