By the time we got back to the house we were soaked…
Drenched from head to toe and laughing as we shivered from the cold.
Our heaving breaths were a beautiful rhythm.
in and out.
      in and out.
             in and out.
Your smile matched my own.
And then you leaned in and whispered:

"I can't believe we managed to find each other in all the chaos. You and I? We're best friends till the end."

That's when I knew I would never let you go.
Because where it concerns us nothing will ever compare.
When souls like ours are connected, not even death could tear us apart.

{df - 07/25/17 -}

I’m still here…

Standing under the stars.

Waiting for the clouds to drift away, so that

you can see me in the clearest skies you’ll

ever know.

(-DF-06/30/17-)

I’m sitting across from you and you’re looking everywhere but at me.

You’re apologizing for putting our love on pause while you loved​ someone else.

Your eyes are full of tears, and your mouth is full of lies.

You’re asking me to let it go… because you love me...

But if you loved me with a genuine heart…

How could you?

So yes, I’m letting it go, just like I’m letting you go too.

(-DF-03/13/17-)

You've cut my wings, but they've grown back.
They're stronger and fuller than ever.

You told me I was broken, but now my features are sharper.

You told me I'd never fly, but now I'm soaring through the sky.

(-DF-03/07/17-)

I never knew you could
feel at home with someone.
Safe in someone's embrace.
And then I met you...
You didn't give me flowers,
you planted me a garden.
You didn't just tell me you
loved me, you showed me.
You didn't hurt me,
you saved me.
I was waiting for the
emptiness to engulf me,
but you came along and gave me
a safe haven.

(-DF-03/03/17-)

Do you want to know what hurts?
It hurts that you're doing well without me,
While I'm paralyzed by your absence.

You've always been the strong one.
The one that lifted me up when I tumbled.
You were the one that helped me...

Yet it seems I was the one that held you back.
I was the one that slowed you down.

And trust me, I'm sorry, but
I'm also forever grateful for your time and patience with me.

I never meant to let you down.
I guess it's time I became the strong one.

(-DF-08/08/16-)

These last few days
have been hard.
I've come to realize
that I'm not awake.
I'm living my life half asleep.
I just let the days pass
me by, and there's nothing I can do.

I'm just sitting here looking up at the
world through a haze.
As if everyday has a forecast of high fog.
Almost as if I'm watching myself through glass.
I'm on the other side just seeing myself drift.

Everyone's dancing and laughing, and breathing.
And I'm floating.
I'm suspended in time.
I no longer feel alive.
I'm floating and yet I touch the ground every miserable day.

(-DF-05/08/16-)

Why can't
I stop
loving
you
the way
you
stopped
loving me?

(-DF-07/31/16-)

I don't see you anymore,
but I feel you in all the places I go.

I don't hear you anymore,
and I'm forgetting the sound of your voice.

And I miss you, yet I wonder how that can be, because we have yet to truly meet.

(-DF-12/18/16-)

You brought me
the galaxies
in the palms of your hands.

You lit a fire in
my heart so intense
that it burned hearing
you say we were a match.

And the words
you spoke to me,
were a melody
that my soul
danced to.

You were like no other
love I've ever known.

(-DF-11/24/16-)

In a room full of people
my eyes wander across
their faces in hopes
that I'll see you.

At night when I
crawl into bed
I'm hoping that my dreams will
lead me to you.

When I read my
favorite novels, their
lines remind me
of you.

And although I haven't
seen you in quite awhile,

And I'm sure you may not
remember me...

I still look for you.

(-DF-09/21/16-)

All I want
is to wake
next to you,
while the rain
is pouring down.

And all I ask
is to see
the sunrise
upon your face,
as you turn around
to me.

(-DF-10/10/16-)

I want to
lay next to you.

I want to
feel our hearts
beat as one.

I want to
feel your chest
rise and fall
as you breathe
me in.

I want to
feel safe
in your arms.

But I can't...
It's what I want,
not what you need.

(-DF-08/03/16-)

When did everyone grow up?
These people act like they know the secrets of the universe,
but my question is...
When did I stop knowing?

Every morning
I pretend that I'm awake,
That everything is okay.

The truth is, I no longer feel alive.

And so I thought everyone felt this way...
But they don't.
They look forward to talking to their friends.
To going on vacation.
To living their everyday.

And I?
I look forward to closing my eyes.
To hoping that today will be different.
That maybe when I wake up in the morning I'll actually be awake.

When will this unnerving sadness end?
When will I feel alive?
When?

(-DF-08/24/16-)

I'm surrounded by strangers.
Walking is so hard, everything is so slow.
When did time stop?
The chains are so
heavy...
My heart is aching,
my soul is shaking,
and my mind is breaking.
When did dreaming become a job?
I'm bounded by the unknown...
The question always lingering, like a bee hive that never sleeps.
There are silent tears that escape my soul.
When will this nightmare end?
And then morning comes,
and as I open my eyes, I become aware
that the nightmare
has only begun...

(-DF-06/21/16-)

You were
the brightest
of them all,

but you left me
darker than the
rest.

(-DF-07/31/16-)

You were
the last
person I thought
would leave...

But you've closed
the door behind
you.

And I'm left holding the key.

(-DF-07/31/16-)

There are hundreds,
Thousands,
And maybe even millions
Of people who are waiting to meet
Someone to spark within them something
Big.

Waiting to find someone to connect with.
We've lived our lives without someone to share the best and worst parts of ourselves.
We are tormented by the unknown.

Yet all we want is someone to call
our own.

(-DF-06/14/16-)

There was a moment in time
when I couldn't imagine my life
without you...

You were the air
that I breathed.

You meant so much
to me.

I would've never imagined
that your love wasn't real...

And as much as I miss the
memory of what we used to be,

without you, I finally feel free.

(-DF-06/20/16-)

I wrote you a letter.
I told you how much I cared.
How much you meant to me.
I told you I would never let go.

I wrote about my favorite memories of us.
About the way your hair falls so effortlessly to your face.
I mentioned that you made me feel happy.
That you made me feel alive.

I wrote about the ways you had changed my life.
The way we spoke to each other without pause.
How time stopped when we were together.
How the world stopped spinning for moments on end.

Except you never opened my letter...
You burned it like you burned my heart.

(-DF-06/03/16-)

Don't wait around for someone to bring you flowers.
Breathe in the air that surrounds you.
Let go of the mystery they've left behind.
Clean up the broken pieces.
Mend your heart into one.

While you lay in bed turning at the thought of them
realize that they were never part of the dream.
Stop waiting for them to call you beautiful.
You already are.
There's no need for thoughtless words.

Buy the seeds, plant your flowers.
Treat them with care.
Water them with love.
And you'll see that they'll grow.

There's no need to wait for them to bring you flowers.
Next time they stop by show them your garden.

(-DF-05/27/16-)

I have a hard time believing in love,
yet I still choose to let the thought creep in the back of my mind.

I believe love makes people act in foolish ways,
they seem to forget that the world keeps spinning.

I don't want unconditional love.

I don't want to be loved in a way that isn't fair.
I don't deserve to get away with my ruthless flaws.

I need someone to tell me when I'm wrong.
I need someone to make me see that there's more than one way.

I don't need pity where it isn't deserved.
I don't want to hurt someone who has let me into their heart.

I need raw and honest love to keep me sane.

(-DF-05/27/16-)

You made the stars shine every night.
The world revolved around you.

The birds chirped for your existence.
The flowers bloomed in your presence.

You ignited a fire with just one look.
The clocks stopped, because with you, time couldn't be measured.

Except you weren't the person I imagined.
You were just an actor performing for the crowd.

You see...

I used to think you were extraordinary,
but you're simply extra ordinary.

(-DF-04/13/16-)

I want to walk
with you.

I want our footprints
along the ocean shore.

I want you to
look at me the way I look at you.

Except that just like those footprints,
your love for me has disappeared.

(-DF-04/304/16-)

You're all I can ever think about.
Some how you made your way into my soul.
You planted in me a seed of hope.

Hope that you'd stay around.
That you would see me the way I see you.
You made me believe that happiness wan't just a myth.
That love was real.

I thought you'd never go away.
In my heart I knew you would never forget me.
In my mind I knew you would never look back.

(-DF-04/25/16-)

I've discovered
That people can slip from your grasp,
And sometimes all you can do is sit and watch.

All I wanted was to be
Your friend.
The person you'd come to.

You were supposed to be
The one.
The only one.

And yet, here we are.
Distant strangers
That never met.

(-DF-04/25/16-)

If I went back in time
and asked my younger self how I'd be in the future.
I'm sure I would have said many things,
but not in a rare state in between happiness and sadness.

How is it possible that I feel this way?
It's hard pretending like my inner world isn't dying.
The worst part is, some days when the sadness outweighs everything else,
I don't even know why.

Have I caused this on myself?
Other days I'm glad I'm like this,
How would I know happiness if I didn't know sadness?
All I know for sure is that I shouldn't give in to the desires of giving up.

So for now I'll just be in between.
(-DF-04/07/16-)

The spirit of this world is selfish.
They tell you that you're all that matters.
Only you can help yourself.
Stop for no one.
Survival of the fittest.
But haven't you stopped to think how messed up that is?
Why must we leave others behind on our endeavors?
As if we didn't have help reaching the finish line.
How stupid to rely solely on your own experience.
Haven't they told you we learn from others?
Who gave you the right to call yourself righteous?
Open your eyes and see that this world wants to destroy you thinking that 'me, myself, and I' is the only way to live.

(-DF-04/01/16-)

In my dreams I see you driven by passion.
The passion I wish I could have.
You motivate me to become something more.
I'm awoken in a way I've never been before.
Everyone else is a blur, since you are my focus.
When I'm falling you catch me.

And yet, we haven't crossed paths.

(-DF-03/30/16-)

Among all the beautiful stars and constellations,

I found you.

Among them you were the brightest,

The only one.

Among the whole universe,

I chose you.

(-DF-03/11/16-)

No one understands the pain that surges through my body.
I am engulfed in flames.
And yet they laugh at me as though it's just a quirk.
As if I want to be this way.

I'm drowning and yet they tell me to swim.
Every breath is a cry of despair.
And yet they stand there breathing without a care.
As if I'm playing a game.

I thought they loved me.
These were the people I had chosen to let in.
And yet they threw away the key.
As if it didn't cost me anything.

(-DF-03/27/16-)

I’m a planet.

I, like them, feel surrounded.

Surrounded and Isolated.

How is that even possible?

I used to think being alone was hard.

Now I realize that I feel alone in a room full of people,

and that’s even harder.

I worry my planet is missing something.

Missing the will to keep moving.

But I know that I must, for I am a planet that will not burn out.

(-DF-03/04/16-)