Trying to suppress the hurricane
That expands inside
It rises and plummets without notice,
Nips me in the ear and pushes me sideways.
My guard slowly loosens its chain, opens it pores and slowly filters and trickles through.
This leads to a ball of excitement, a fiery mass that ignites a smile
It darts into my subconscious and when I am low it strikes fear
When I am weakened it rises doubt -
and disguises itself as a problem
Not a celebration.
The past has sharpened its edges and draped it in animosity
No need for confusion or destruction.
It is good, it is real.
Allow it, allow.
I retract like a mollusk receding into it’s shell.
I think of the way I could simply just tilt my head back out of the passenger seat window
moving through songs that meant the same to us.
I tickle the sand between my toes
slowly into the water while it wades around my knees,
how I could wrap my hands around his neck
just stand there while the world moved around us.
I find the trajectory of the mania, the nights where I just tried to lay as still as possible, not breathing too heavy or looking him in the eyes. How triggering it could have become if I would have
crossed my arms, sat up, or spoke.
I think of how the smoke enveloped most of our time together
blurring our vision
clouding our minds
I didn’t need to see much further than his skin
I didn’t need to look over his shoulder
Just closed my eyes and soaked it all in.
Find yourself a love that
Makes waking up and smelling
The crisp morning air
Find a love that
Makes faking in love
A lot less painful
A love that makes you
Feel like you're in a fairytale
Instead of a nightmare
Love is supposed to be magical
Find yourself a love that
The makes the sun shine
Brighter on gloomy days
And one the doesn't make
The night seem so dark
Find that love
And keep it
For now a days
A love like that
Our short human lives
Compared to the Earth’s, are but ‘a blink of the eye’
At least that’s the saying
We’re nothing compared to this planet’s rotating
Do we keep the earth on orbit, constantly alive?
Will the planet care if any of us die?
No, I don’t think it needs us to survive
Can you say I’m needed if I keep someone sane?
Is that really a purpose, if it’s not hundreds who change?
And does it even matter if human lives aren’t needed anyways?
I’m not sure, and I’d really like an answer
Compared to our planet
Our lives are short, are meaningless
Compared to a star
Our planet is so small, isn’t it?
And stars burn bright, yeah
But they die too
And stars help no one
If they’re too far away from you
A star, in infinite space
Only can so long secure a place
And then something happens, and they have to go
Perhaps they destroyed themselves, just died, or were swallowed by a black hole
Despite how different we seemingly are
Us humans aren’t too different from stars
Killing ourselves, simply fading out, or letting that black hole swallow our heart
I’ve let a black hole drag me into the dark
I call myself a wanderer of the heavens
And if I’m a star girl
Surely I should burn in
an attempt to change this world
But I don’t think I shed enough light
I’m dying too quickly, can’t help a damn thing in sight
nothing is free
just because I
of a grip
you and I
and fall apart
of the moment
Put your lips close to mine...
Hold yourself right there.. Making sure our lips don't touch, just yet...
We're out of focus, eye to eye.
Let the intensity build..
Till the gravity's too much..
What is this magic hold you have on me.
I'll do anything you say.
Just be sure you say it with your hands.
I'd be smart to walk away,
But you're like quicksand and I'm simply sinking into you.
This path is dangerous.
This journey with you is tottaly reckless.
But I like it, and I love you.
I can't decide if it's a choice..
Getting swept away in everything that is you.
I hear the sound of my own voice
Telling me to flee, but we're like magnets you and me.
We're just skin and bone...
Trained to get along...
But you're friction...
Forget everything and let the bad fade away.
Trace my lips with your finger tips and give in, give in to me.
Don't fight this current, let yourself get swept away with me.
Let yourself get swept up in me.