Why the mockery ?
The insults ?

am i not enough ?

Why the shaming ?
The teasing ?

am i too different?

Why the abuse ?
The harassment ?

Why me ???
Scold me now !!
And be done with me...
Please...i beg of you...
no mas ...
Sand 2d
I wish life would embrace me,
The way I'm learning to embrace all of her flaws.
She kicks me down, but I have to keep holding on to her.
She exhausts me and drives me insane, but I'm forced to tighten my grip on her.
She pushes me closer and closer to the edge, but I have no choice but pull her back to safety.
For once, I wish she'd make this easy for me.
I wish she'd return my embrace instead of pushing me away.
I wish she was easier to love.

Life, why are you so hard to love?
My life is hard to love. Period.
Sand 2d
When you're in pain they say
This too shall pass
Well I'm in pain
And I too shall pass
I want to die ;
Sand 2d
Am I so bad
That I'm robbed of your voice
Your smile
Your outfit of the day
Your laughter
Your tears
Your melancholy

Am I so bad?
Sand 2d
I stretched out my arms to you
Don't turn me away
I gave you my heart
Please don't destroy it
My head craves your shoulder
Please don't turn away
My ears yearn your voice
Don't stop talking to me
Please
Don't shunt me aside
Please
Unrequited love fucks me over
Sand 2d
I'm hurting
Dear God
I'm in pain

Help me
Please!
Someone!
Anyone!

My heart is screaming
My brain is thumping
My hands itch to scratch
My mouth yearns to overdose

Someone hold me until this pain goes away
I beg you
Hug me
Please
I'm hurting .  What more can I say besides I wish I'd rather be dead than experience this
What we dearly need most
we need not strive after:
life on its own
laces heavy tears with laughter.

It is only in pursuit
of what was never truly ours
that we waste countless hours
chasing shadows of the Absolute.
My two best friends,
They've changed so much
Since we first met.
We once were close,  
Though really,
Who isn't?
These are my
Two best friends.

I still see them often,
Each morning
Or evening.
When I drive home.
They always stand
On the same corner.
Not quite dead,
But not alive.
These are my
Two best friends.
Too sad to even describe,  really.
Sand 2d
Hundreds of years ago
You died
Hundreds of years later
I love you
I want you
I yearn for you
The most beautiful, purest kind of love
I want to give to you
I want to taste you
Inhale you
Embrace you

But time;
Time is in the way
Time does not permit me to love Vincent Van Gogh the way I want to, the way that I do.
Sand 2d
I roam this world,
With shackles of love on my hands and feet
Like Jacob Marley
Out to warn others to keep believing in love
Because my true love died before my great grandfather was conceived.
I wail into the night;
A reverse-ghost
I love you Vincent!
I feel like I was born in the wrong Era as my soul mate,  Vincent Van Gogh
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