Tearing at my heart
Ripping me apart
The air just isn't enough
I can't breath
A hand squeezing my heart
The pains of anxiety
I don't know how to deal
Slowly my head starts to ache
All because of my mistake

To see the moon and the stars
Travel all of time and space
See the world
What a wonderful adventure
Never knowing what will take place

Something new around every turn
Always something to discover
A world made of diamonds
A world of brand new grass

Different color skys, clouds
Deep blue oceans, rivers
Each world with its own beauties
Always full of new adventures

Run, Run, Run
Run as fast as you can
You never know when this will all end

Another place, another face
It's all changing again
Try to keep up
Win the race
Don't want to end up a disgrace

Constantly fighting
No never give in
You better fight until the bitter end
Because another mystery begins

I love to watch you play
Hear the sweet notes drift out of your saxophone
A lovely melody

You don't always see me
I listen all the same
Such lovely skill
escaping in the form of sound
coming out
of that wonderful saxophone

Maybe it's not the sound
That enchants me so
But the handsome player
Whom I get to call my own

My gorgeous love  
Smart and talented to the end
<3

When you're not here to keep me warm
I'm always cold
I can't get warm
Without your touch
The feel of your arms around me
It's impossible
Impossible for me to get warm without you

You bring all the warmth and goodness to my life

I need you here
I've gotten so cold
Fill me with your warmth
You're the only thing that works

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land where dreams will never fade
A land where joy will never gray

Mysteries and dreams will never end
In this magical world in my head
The skies are so blue when the clouds are away
Sometimes it can rain for days

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a very distant land
A land where we will forever stay whole
A land where we will never grow old

Love and lust are welcome here
Care and trust is what we hold dear
Intimacy shared by us
A love that will never end
Take me to the magical world in my head

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land where we can rule our own
A land where we will forever be bold

This land holds treasures untold
The treasure is a heart of gold
Loyalty and peace reign in this land
Across the ocean it’s mighty castles stands

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land where nothing can keep us apart
A land where love is the best kind of art

My land is a very distant place
Protected by magic no one can mistake
A land where love rules us all
A land where pain has no call

Take me by the  heart
Take me by hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land that calls to both of our hearts
A land where we will never have to part

This land knows not of the cruel injustice of today
This land is innocent
Free from pain
This is the land that owns my heart
A land that only exist in the greatest of art

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land that only exist for us
A secret place
No one can touch

In this land there is only love and trust
Intimacy and lust
Loyalty and peace
Innocence nothing else
Take me to this land that knows no pain
Forever ours it will remain

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land that only we can reach
A land that knows only peace
A secret kept between us two
Take me to our magic place

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land

Somehow
I am surrounded by suns and stars
Me
A measly old lamppost that can barely stay lit
In the shadows of their bright lights
I'm barely visible
Who wants to watch a flickering lamp
When there are beautiful suns and stars all around
My heart is breaking
But they don't mean anything
It's just what happens when your a broken lamppost
Surrounded by suns and stars
No one can help me
I can't find any beauty
All I can see are suns and stars
And I feel all alone
A broken lamppost
Old and forgotten
All but abandoned
I just want to feel loved
I want someone to show this broken light
That I can be star
Or maybe even
In my dreams
I can be the moon or sun
In someone's eyes
But  tonight I'm a broken lamppost
And they are more beautiful lights to watch

Your lips on mine
The touch of your hands
I want the feel of you skin

Our mouths moving in time
No space between us
Exploring

Wanting in your mind
Knowing you are mine

Your lips on my neck
Rough
Insistent
Making me want more

All I want is you
No one else
Nothing else
I want you to merge with me
I want us to become one

But alas I'm afraid
I sense you are too
One day will be the day
We wont turn away
We won't hide from our love

More than kissing
More than feeling
Actually taking what is mine
Knowing there is no one else

You have my heart and no one else
I could never love anyone else
The way I do you

You are my world
My light
Everything

Nothing compares to you
With your sometimes tan skin
Your gorgeous blue eyes

With all your quirks
You are amazing
No one is better than you

It's hard to find the right words
The right words to describe you

Amazing
Sweet
Loving

You're all I need
You're all I want
You and your mouth
Your touch
Your warmth
your love
All your quirks
All your love

Sometimes I hate myself for loving you
I put so much of my time to you
Pour out my heart and soul to you
But do you care?
I don't think you do

Maybe I should stop trying so hard
It doesn't seem to be appreciated
But my heart just won't let me
It screams at me to try harder

But what do I get from you?
Tender moments sweetly shared
But will you always be there?

If one day I stop trying so much
Would you stay?
Sometimes I'm unsure if you would
But forever yours I'll remain

I want to go back
To when I didn't feel used
I try so hard to show my love
There once was a time when you did too

I wish for romance and flowers
Surprises around every corner
A fairytale life

I've always dreamed of magic and adventure
Always longed for something bigger

There once was a time you made me feel the magic
There was love around every corner
Hope kept knocking at my door

Nothing is the same anymore
I miss the way we used to be
but still I love the way you breathe

I will always love you the same
Don't let the spark die out
I wish you still sent me cute late night text

I dream of magic and romance
Flowers and happiness
A surprise around every corner
I dream of a fairytale life

To become one with your breath is such a freeing thing
To calm your mind..
All you think is in... and out...
Your stomach expanding, contracting
The slight stretch as you shift into the next pose
Hold...
Breathe...
In...
Out...
Be gentle
Look inside yourself
In that moment nothing else matters
Don't think think 'Am I doing this right?'
Just think of your breath
Lavender scents my room
But I'm not here
I'm my breath
The air..
The wind..
Caressing the earth somewhere miles away
And here at the same time...
I am free
And it is time to free myself
Of all the toxic things..
Breathe them out
Send them away
Invite in healing and light
Magic in your way
To cleanse the mind
To cleanse the soul
All you need to do is...
Close your eyes...
And breathe...
In...
Out...

Tears streaming from my eyes
I pray to God for relief
Clawing at my chest
Right over my heart
Repeating
"Dear God, it hurts"

The worst thing about being a poet
Is that you're drawn to pain
The pain and fear inspire
Great works and wonders
For those of us good with words

Some who are lucky
Can write well of all things happy
Those rare few

Most everyone I know
Write of pain
Pain and fear
Memories
Or we compare, criticize
This crap society of ours

Emotions fill us
We feel to the fullest
We might get scared
But it's not the pain we fear
We realize that pain leads us
Leads is to discover great rhymes
A nice flow of words
Words that help ease our minds

Is it vain
To strive for beauty?
Is it wrong to long for perfection?
Like it or not it's something we all do
Rather by your own standards or societies
We all in some form or another
Strive for perfection
Long for beauty
A curse to all people
For what is beauty?
What is perfection?
Long blonde hair, skinny waist
Good manners, emotionally happy
Brains, *****, ****
Skin, soft, kind
Everybody strives
Everybody kings
We must for the impossible to achieve
Pointless even
Cause once we succeed
Then who is good enough for you?
Is it vain
To strive for beauty?
Is it wrong
To long for perfection?
No
There is nothing wrong in trying just don't expect I succeed

Everything is going wrong
I'm not on it anymore
Nothing is working right
You won't understand my strife
We don't care about the same things
We won't understand each other's ways
Regardless if it causes pain

You're so naturally smart, talented at heart
I have to struggle and try
We're so different you and I
I try to tell you everything, I speak my mind
You hardly say a word about what's going on inside

I try so hard to quell my mind
You can't understand this strife
I hurt inside
Because your mind
Yours and mine
I wish it didn't have to be this way
I don't know how to make it change

Dear willow tree
How you enchant me
You provide a place to hide
From all inquiring eyes
You are my secret place
My great escape
Wrap me in your leafy arms
Keep me safe from harm

My mother's tree
You were thee
With all your meloncholy beauty
You mean so much to me
Your leaves hang off your limbs like vines
A perfect place to hide
I wonder if they admire hour beauty like I

Oh the things you must have seen
To make you seem so meloncholy
I want you to know with all your sorrow
You're still beautiful to me

You stand tall and proud
Away from the crowd
You are a cherished sight
Eminating might
You're so graceful as you sway
the wind begins to play
You always beg it to stay
But one day all things go away

But I want you to know
You will always be sacred to me
My dear willow tree

I love going to coffee shops alone
The chill vibes with their soothing playlist
Hot coffee and tea to warm the soul these cold winter days

Call me hipster
I say it's relaxing
Who needs stereotypes anyway

Just being here soothes my aching mind
I wish I brought my pen and spine
Instead I'm glued to my phone
To write my heart out on instead

A date with myself is just what I needed
In the stress of the holiday season
A familiar place with friendly faces
Breathe life into my mind
Fuel my creativity  

Bring me inspiration
A desire to create
Self expression
Oh what a life

Ashamed of me
You have no cause to be
Why should you care
What they say?
What they think?
Why do I care that you're ashamed?
I thought my decision was made

Whatever, I'm moving on
You don't have to worry about me
I'll be happy without you
Or maybe I'll still be me
Don't act like you care
I know you don't
You can just leave me alone
I give up

Plump, skinny, short, tall
I'm surrounded by beautiful, talented people
They shine bright
Gifted
Short blonde hair
Plump *******
Long brown hair
Long waist
Tall and thin as a stick
Don't get me started on their eyes or face
I'm surrounded by beautiful people
All of them shine brighter than me

Even with the quiet ones
I'm the quiet girl
The antisocial one
But it's not all my fault
I can't help I feel unwanted
And left out
I get tired of forcing my way inside
I just want to be included
Even if I don't always say much
I don't mind just being with you guys
When you make me feel like I'm not a ghost
But tonight
I'm a ghost
Translucent
Im not a social person
But I don't want to be lonely
Even with everyone here
I don't feel like I'm someone
I'm see through

I feel as if I might explode
Filled to the brim
Overflowing with emotion

Love, wonder, hurt, sorrow,
A lightness in my chest
A feeling in my heart
It is something I can't explain

All these emotions filling me
I feel everything
There are no words to describe
What goes on in my mind

This feeling in my heart
It fills me with want
I don't comprehend
What do I do to the end?

Is this to be my fate
Never finding the right words to say
Is this what it means
To have a poets mind?

I'm not very good
Not like the greats
Classics that eveyone knows

Or maybe
I'm just to close
To see my own greatness
For to me
These poems don't fit
I can't use symbols
Or discreetly criticize

Everything straight foreward
But is this feeling in my chest
The potential I have in me?

I'll never be the best for you
I can't love you how I want to
I'm to afraid

Afraid of what I'm not sure..
Maybe I'm scared you'll hurt me
Or maybe
Maybe it's just intimacy that terrifies me

I've never felt more vulnerable
Than when I'm in your arms

Maybe I'm scared
Scared that I'll do it wrong
Am I enough to please you?
What if I'm no good?

I want to be your first
Your last
The best you'll ever have

The new intimacy will grow on me
You've seen inside my soul
I'm more open with you than a doorframe missing it's door
I've never been like this before
If I can open up to you
Why can't I explore
Our bodies too?

What makes me afraid?
Tell me you'll always be here
Permanent and strong
Like a great oak in the green forest

Promise me I'm safe here
Under your leaves of protection
Hide me from the world

Maybe it's society that makes me so scared
The standards if the world so strict

Hide me in your forest green
Keep me safe
This intimacy is new
I'm afraid
But not of you

What if I'm no good?
Can I be enough to please you

Will you be my first?
My last
The best I'll ever have

As humans we all want to leave a mark
To be remembered
To have lived a worthy life
Change the world
Not me
I will quickly pass out of the earth's memory
My goal is only to inspire other souls
If I can only help one person on my life so be it
If I can make the world seem wonderful and grand
If I can make life worthwhile for one person
My job here is complete
I don't need my memory to go on
I'm just here to help
I'll live an ordinary life
Full of dreams I won't achieve
This world is too vast for me
No one will remember me
I won't leave a footprint
I'll be washed away with the sand
This doesn't make my existence worthless
I'm not even a ghost
The world won't miss me
The earth won't notice in gone
I'll be a gentle breeze
Quietly moving on
Keeping watch over the loved ones
Wishing them the best
The world won't know me
I'm only here to be my best
I won't be famous
Or taught about in school
But the life I change will live in to do great things
They will be great
But not me
I'll gladly fade away

Your touch makes me tremble
The feel of your skin on mine
Intimate moments
Known only by us two
No one can describe

Your hands on me
It all feels so right
I never want to leave your side
Come hold me close
Hold me tight
Kiss my lips
Tell the world you're mine

I'll always be by your side
Forever, until the end of time
My heart could never stop loving you
You're branded into my being
My soul longs for you and your love
No one else could ever be enough

Laying with you in the dark of night
Chattering quietly about whatever pops into our minds
Matching our breaths
Never have I felt so close to anyone before
You uncloth my soul
It unbears everything to you

My love is stronger  than the sea
It grows quickly like a ****
Forever I am bound to you
Always I will love you
There is nothing anyone could do to change that
This feeling is too strong

The intimacy I share with you
Forever I'll treasure
I relish being so closer to you

I love your touch, your feel, your kiss
None of it would I want to miss
I'll hold you close
Never let go
caress your soul

Your touch makes me tremble

Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes
An ornament
Stationary, at your side

One day will I see your irrational side?
The darkest, deepest part of your mind
Like you already know mine

You brought light
Where I thought there would be none
You showed me someone loved

I want to see every side of you
Every part of your mind
Lead me to your soul
My love, there is nothing I hide
I will love you for all of time

I love you with more than just my heart
I love you with my mind
I love you with my soul
I love you from my head to my toes
The very essence of me love you

Please, love, tell me
Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes?
An ornament
Stationary, by your side

Will you keep me forever
Set my love free

If one day the answer is no
Will you promise to remember me fondly?

I love you more than my heart can bare
So tell me again love

Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes?
An ornament
Stationary, by your side

Will you allow me to love you
For all of time?

How come I never feel I am enough for you?
No matter what I do
How hard I try
I feel I always bother you
How come I'm not enough for you?
Why can't I be enough
When it's all that I want...

I have to wonder why
Why I feel bad telling you what's on my mind
I can't really help what I feel
I know it's not part of my appeal
I don't like the thought of you and her
Well not just her, any her
But I have always thought she was gorgeous
More outspoken than me, but not flawless
Most hers are

I can't help I'm insecure
I know you love me
Say it more?
As much as I wish I could read your mind
I can't always see it in your eyes

Having my brother tell me sent my heart pacing
My anxiety racing
Did you feel you had something to hide?
Or was it just not on your mind?
Were you trying not to make me mad?
Because instead you just made me sad

I love you more than my heart can bear
I don't want you to feel like you can't be friends
But I'd rather it if I was there
Or maybe you could tell me she was there
Instead of me finding out through somebody else
It hurt me more than I'll ever tell

Seeing that look in your eyes
I couldn't help but apologize
I can't help the way I feel
Maybe you should tell me why I have nothing to fear
Doesn't anything bother you?
How can I help you understand
What's going on in my head
Is out of my hands

Love is everything
Hope is inspiring
Faith is more than meets the eyes
Trust is something you earn
Pixie dust is the unseen magic all around us
Hold these things close to your heart, they will bring you happiness

Peace to those who earned it
Strength to those who worked for what they believed in
Happiness is a fickle thing

Encourage
Inspire
Lift others up
Never break them down
Show them the light

Give others love, hope, faith, trust,
Show them the pixie dust
Lead their way
Light their paths
Shine bright
So that they might see...
The light

I don't want to hear the words
"You are apart of us"
Leave your lips ever again
Please just stop trying to pretend
I'll never be apart of the duo
Because this love isn't meant for a trio

Don't try not to hurt my feelings
I'm fine
Just tell me like it is
You are fond of me I know
It just won't ever be like her

Don't beat yourself up
I understand
I'm not meant to hold your hands
You have each other
It's alright
I can find my own way tonight

You tell me I'm apart of you
But everyone can see it isn't true
When the topic best friend is spotlight
She is the only highlight
I guess I'm just not made for friends these days
But I'll stick around and watch over you
As if that's what I'm meant to do

Happiness is fleeting
grasp it while you can
Hold its hand
Ask it to stay
But eventually it will fade away
Only to return
Better than before
Try not to stay down
It will all turn around

Chaos ensues
Thunder booms
Making anxious people fright
Lightening consumes the sky
The world is being judged tonight
Loud and monstrous
Poisonous belongings
Becoming homicidal
Howling, moaning, cursing this mortal world.
Angels are crying
Mercy
Orphans hide under their beds
Find solace in the night
Find peace in solitude
No one is safe tonight
Many will die
Some may live
You can taste the tension in the air
A baby sleeps safe from harm
While the mother's husband lies in another woman's arms
Still the thunder screams for all to hear
Lightening flashes angry with all
Chaos, ******, judgement
Is upon us all.

The hair on my head has never been touched by you.
Every couple years we gain new cells and skin too.
One day I will never have been touched by you.
One day you won't know me.
I'll only be a distant memory.
Let me fade into the background of your mind.
You don't need me in your life.
Please move on.
I'm not the girl you used to know,
I'm a woman now.
Full grown.
You were always full of lies.
Your butterflies have morphed into nothing more but flies.
I wish you would leave.
My eyes are dry can't you see?
When I see your face or the back of your head,
My heart starts to pound.
Not in love or excitement.
But in a nervous, anxious, fright.
Your memories are lost in the depths of my mind.
But when anyone mentions your name...
They crash forward like a tidal wave.
All the laughs and smiles...
All the lies and cries...
The hurt.
The betrayal.
One day...
You will have never touched me.
Let me fade in your memories.
I'm new.
Reborn.
I'm not the girl you used to know.
I'm a woman now.
Full grown.
No longer naive.
Or filled with silly dreams.
My hair you once touched...
Long chopped off.
And in another couple of years,
My cells and skin will be new too.
One day I will have a body you have never touched.
So let me fade in your memory.
I'm not the girl you used to know.
I'm a woman now.
Full grown.

You walk me out
Into the cold moonlight
It's time for me to leave

I dont want to go home

Your lips on mine
Your hands on me
No secrets here
Just you and me
You're all I want
You're all I need
And everything inbetween
My heart in yours
Your heart in mine
We'll never have anything to hide
All the beauty of the world doesn't compare
It doesn't come close to what we bare
This is a beauty all its own
Of its own creation
Nothing compares to the love we share
It's something special
Of its own kind
A kind of love that you would give up your life
Just to save it; keep it safe
This love is a wonderful thing

It's been too long
Too long since I've seen your face
Felt your touch
I need you here, now, forever
All I want is you
And it's been too long since I've held your hand
Too long since I've kissed your mouth
I miss having you around
It's been too long since I felt your arms around me
It's been too long since I've seen you last
I miss your warmth
Your touch
Your kiss
It's been too long since I held your face
Too long since I've been next to you
I want you here
I want your hands on my skin
It's been too long
It's been too long since I held you in my arms
I miss your smell
I miss you
It's been too long
Too long since I've seen your face

I love the night sky
The calm of the dark
Looking at the sky
Speckled with light
And the gorgeous moon
I want to lay under the stars with you
Yellow, bright and beautiful
We'll tell each other everything
We'll devour each other like our favorite books
Honey, I love to read you
You too are bright and beautiful
Like the stars
I look up and think of you
Each star a symbol for you
The moon also longs to see your face

I hope we always have things to talk about
Something more than the weather, traffic
I hope we can always look at the night sky ans be inspired
Never running out of new ideas
Looking up at the yellow, bright and beautiful wonders
Bright and beautiful, just like you
I want to tell you everything
All my darkest secrets
All of my most brilliant dreams
I want to lay with you underneath the moon

The night sky blinks, yellow, bright and beautiful
As magnificent as it all may seem
Its none near as magnificent as you
Yellow, bright and beautiful
Bright and beautiful like you

Time is moving slowly
About as fast as grass grows
The heart of love drops below the ground
Time goes slow
The feeling of fear spreads everywhere
An icy grip covering the world
Oh my sun, Come back
Spread your love and warmth on me
Don't go away
Please... Don't leave me

The icy fear slowly creeps along
Deepening the cold in that dropped heart
Oh my sun, Won't you come back to me now?
Comfort my heart
Warm my freezing faith
Replace it with love

Time is moving slow
My fear grows
Leaving everything around me frozen
Maybe time has completely stopped
But the cold grows on and on
Maybe it will never end
Unless, maybe, you, my sun will return

Liars, liars everywhere
Liars, liars no one cares
I'm dying inside, but no one sees
Oh my goodness I just want to sleep

Tears an fears
Death and dispare
All just things to keep you here
Don't go with the flow
Dying more each day
Trying to be strong
So still you move on
Suffering this pain

If you survive no one has to know
No one had to know of your fight
But if you lose
There is no where to hide
So don't even try
Be proud of the death
That sets you free
They all will feel pain
Not seeing your misery
That is there fee

The wind gently blows the trees
They sway gracefully
The sun smiles down on the world
you can hear the babble of an unseen brook
What a nice day
The bees buzz
The birds sing
The world is at peace

Relax
Breathe
Be at peace
Accept yourself and feel a weight lift
Let yourself be happy
It's all in your controll
Don't let the world dull your glow

The girl in the mirror today isn't me
The girl in the mirror is pale and pretty
I might be pale
but pretty is not a word that describes me

Who is this stranger
Staring back at me
I don't know her
but I don't know me

Maybe this is meant to be me
Am I supposed to become the girl I see?
how can I do that when I know that can't be
The girl in the mirror; she is not me

She's someone else
I can't steal her for me
It would put her in my pain
I can't do that
So here I'll stay

Maybe one day
When I look in the mirror
I'll see me

Sometimes you make me happier than anyone else
Sometimes you hurt my soul
Sometimes, sometimes.....
No, all the time I love you so much more than time
Sometimes you make me feel so loved
Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough
Sometimes, sometimes
I wonder if you'll always be mine

Sometimes I think to much about you and I
Sometimes I have to wonder why
Why this feeling in my heart
Grows with the doubts in my mind
Like weeds that destroy the flower beds

Sometimes the weeds win
Overpowering the flowers
Sometimes the flowers prove stronger
Snuffing out the weeds
Will our love be stronger than my doubts like the beautiful flowers beating the weeds?

Bright as a warm summer day
Radiant like the moon
As beautiful as the stars
This is my love for you
As strong as the mountains
Constant like trees
Forever I will be
Loyal like a dog
As wide as the sea
This is what you get from me
As sacrificing as a soldier
Protective as an army
Sometimes green with envy
Don't want to share like a child
Spoiled worse than rotten food
I give you these things too
Even if they aren't the best
All of me belongs to you
The last one for today
As vast as the universe
My love for you will never grow old
Like Peter Pan
In you I've found my Neverland.

Blood, fire, ice, wind
Love is strong
Lust is weak
Have faith you faithless one
All will be okay
For I am here for you

Lord I am weak
But you, you are strong
I ask that you fill me up
Give me purpose
Give me life
Spread the light

Watch the world
Pay close attention
And when you feel small
You will always have me to come to
Because on my eyes
It is all for you
The stars that shine
Light up the night
They shine for you
Even the sun
In all it's glory
Sets and rises for you
The very earth rotated for you
I breathe for you
My heart, which is in your hands
Beats for you
You are not small
You are everything
So watch the earth
Watch it closely
Admire its work
And remember
When I watch it too
All I see is you

While eveyone else
Waste their time
Making new year resolutions
I confess I don't have mine
But do you wan to know what?

I don't want mine
All I want
Is for this year to be full of you
That's all I need to make this year good
As long as I have you
All my years will hold happiness

I don't resolve to lose weight
To be happier than last year
All I want is you

Only God knows what this year had in store
I just pray he will never take you away
I thank him for you a lot

Of I resolve to do anything
I think I'd resolve to pray
And thank God for you everyday

Maybe new year resolutions
Aren't so stupid after all

Don't assume you know it all
You never will
Try to hear all sides
You may be surprised
By how much pain you caused

Even though you never knew
When you find out you'll blame everything on you
But you never meant to

Don't ever
Not even for a minute
Don't ever think you're alone in pain
Take time to see the other side

I'm sorry everyone I hurt
I really am a selfish, spoiled brat
I wish I could take it all back
But I can't

Please just take time
To learn from my
From my mistakes

I feel like all my time is wasted;
But I can't make my feelings turn to hatred.
For some reason I really want you by my side,
I can feel a change of tide.
There's something stirring in the wind;
Please, I'm scared, don't let it in.

The warm night breeze upon my face;
Don't lie to me, there is a better place.
Some place peaceful, free of sin;
A place where we will meet again.
Close your eyes and try to breathe;
It is as beautiful as the sea.

But first to know the truth within;
Look inside, don't give in.
Know yourself, then know me;
Then it will be new and shiny.
I won't let your feelings of me get in my way;
I will always dream of a better day.
A day when we are close at last;
A day when all of this is in the past.

And if this day will never pass;
I'll always dream my dreams.
Full of fields with the softest grass;
A ray of sunshine that forever gleams.
Yes, I will always have my dreams.

The earth has a heartbeat
It's as alive as you and me
It's alive yet holds so much life
The earth is amazing
Wise from millions of years we can't imagine
It has beauty no human could attain
God's wonderful creation
It took six days to make
And is filled with so much wonder and amazement
Earth; the first mother
The earth has a heartbeat
It breathes as do we
Provides us a house
The ungrateful humans
The selfish race
The earth is sad
It sees us drifting farther and farther from the farther
It knows disaster is coming
It offers us what it can
I see a piece of my God
When I admire the beauty of the world
The earth is alive
AND again tonight she cries

Dear dad
I'm sorry you thought I never cared
Mom and you never should have felt compared
I loved you all

Dear dad
I'm sorry I mess it all up
And always have
I never meant to

Dear dad
I know we've never been close
Not like me and mom
But I've wanted to
If you want to know the truth
I was afraid of you

Dear dad
I'm sorry again
I never though about your side
Before turning you into the bad guy

Dear dad
I know you tried

Dear dad
I wish I could take it all back
I never meant to hurt you

Dear dad
I've always loved you

Why do we keep doing this?
Thinking of the past
Only a couple of years ago...
We need to learn to let it go
But some reason it stays on my mind
But only half of the time
All the what ifs in the world
Won't make it right

We didn't do wrong
No not this time
But the thoughts were there
Trying to hide
Failing miserably to keep it inside

Every year it's the same old thing
It's not goof for us
It's not good for us

If the circumstances were different
But it's not meant to be
Maybe in abother world
You'll have me

I'm happy without you
I promise I am
My lI've lights up my world
So I don't understand
Why once a year
I think of you
And know you think of me too

Talking is to much
Next time I'll keep my mouth shut
It would be nice
To give it a try
But not in this world
Maybe just not in this life
In another time and place
We can be happy this way
But I love my love more than the chances we'd have to take

So for now I'll think
Then shut it down
Leave it alone until next year rolls around

I can't stand to see you two together, so closend
But there isn't anything I can do without seeming like a *****
I don't want to control your life
But I let you dictate mine
You never seem to care that I don't like it when she flips her hair and giggles like a school girl at everything you say
You see her 80 percent of your day
You see me maybe 10 percent if I'm lucky
And most of the time those two mix
I'm always waiting to be next

The next time you don't seem to care
I'll say **** it and never mention her again
But if things grow worse beware
I'll grow weary of saying **** it
One day I'll blow up
If you aren't careful, one day, I could say ******* and not **** it