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730 · Apr 2016
WonderLust
Oh the world I want to see
Anything and everything
All the adventures out there to be had...
The desires in my heart...
They clash
I want to travel the world
But not without you
Could we make it?
Would you try?
Help me make my dreams collide

Ireland, Italy, Spain, France
England, Australia, Austria, Japan
All over England, then wherever calls to us
So many places
Such a short life...
But...
I'd give it all up to keep you by my side
I want a family too...
Kids of our own
We can show them the world too
After we've had our fun
Oh the adventures, Oh the laughs
Places to discover, People to meet

Mountains, Oceans, Trees
So much to do...
So much to see...
I have one question ,
Will you come with me?
I make such big plans
Create enormous ideas in my mind
But I'm really bad at following through
I can't live up to my own expectations
Say? Do you think you could help me make my dreams a reality?
I want to see the world so bad
Write about all the experiences I have
In the end there is only one thing to ask,
Would you like to experience it together, cause oh won't it be better
With you by my side
My incredible lover for all of time
I would love to travel the world with my one and only love. There is nothing more I could ask for than to have him by my side for as long as I live where ever we decide to live our lives
730 · Dec 2014
His love holds me together
I don't know what was wrong
I tried to hide my face
He pulled me close and asked what was wrong
I told him it was back
He pulled me into his arms
I turned and buried my face in his chest
As traitor tears fell down my face
Forever it seemed
We laid like that
Him holding me together
While I was bursting at the seams
Panic taking over me
It became hard to breathe
Still he just held me
Asked if he could help
Rubbed my back
Planted kisses on my head
I'm so lucky
To have his help
Without his love
I wouldn't still be built
708 · Sep 2015
Over this
I thought that I was over this,
But still those evil lines I miss.
And in my head these thoughts come back
In a hungry, hateful pack.
I want to see my blood run red.
These thoughts returning of the end.

I wish, I wish, to stop for good,
Please break my heart and end the fued
And in my mind the war rages strong.
I'm still finding a way to carry on.

In my heart I know it's wrong.
It makes my lovers heart go numb.
But if I don't so something soon,
These thoughts of red will be my doom.
707 · Jan 2015
Will you try?
Will you try to take my breath away?
Show me you love me everyday
Make my heart melt
Sweep me off my feet
Prove to me how you feel
I'm tired if having to assume
It hurts my heart to have to wonder
I don't know how to explain the feeling
Just pain
I can't make it go away
Only you
I know you just aren't as outward as I
You love me I know
It'd just be nice if you let it show
Will you try to take my breath away?
Show me you love me everyday
Actions speak louder than words
You're quiet both ways
Take my pain away
Will you try?
Try I ease the pain in my heart
Be more outward
Share your thoughts
I'm sorry to ask
Will you try for me?
690 · Jan 2015
Give You the World
I want to give you the world
I think this is supposed to be the other way around
Still, I don't care
I want to give you the world

All of it's glory yours to hold
Love, I want to give you the world
Everything shall be yours
Mi think I'll start by giving you my world
My light
Maybe even my life
It's all yours now
686 · Dec 2014
Untitled
Why so you keep haunting me?
Just leave me alone
All you bring is misery
The pain can't be undone
Stop showing up
I don't want you here
The more you appear
The more my anger grows
Don't turn my friends into foes
Leave then alone
Why can't you just go?
Grow up
Stop being childish
Your maturity is low
It's time to say goodbye
Don't out up a fight
Just let me leave
While you learn the meaning of trust
673 · Jan 2015
When you aren't around
The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around
My mind thinks to much
When you aren't around
My heart aches more
When you aren't around
Worst of all
The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around

I wish I could be
Who I think you need
She just isn't me

I can leave
If you don't go with me
Everything hurts
When you aren't  around
Everything is worse
When you aren't around

The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around
670 · Jun 2015
Missing You; Wanting You
I lay awake all by myself
Wishing you where here to cast the spell
Cause being around you...
It's like magic
Instant peace and gladness

I want to feel your touch
Cuddling me up
Hold me close in your warmth
Your love will always be enough

Even as I dream I know you're not here
I'm constantly missing you even there
So hold me close
Come hold me tight
Help me make it through tonight

I want you close
I want you near
This constant space is becoming my biggest fear
A living nightmare
It's hard to talk
It's hard to breathe
But witg you there is always ease

I'm not sure of much but this I know
I love you more than days of snow
I miss you so much when you aren't near
All I want is for you to be here
667 · May 2015
Rain
Some people love the cloudy days
Rain and storms
Rain makes me sad
Storms set me on edge
The gloom outside puts gloom in my mood

Give me the sun
Warmth and comfort are these things
Rain just makes me think
I have such a tendency to over think everything

Rain brings life
Helps things to grow
So please explain
Why it depresses my soul
rain almost ruined all my plans today
661 · Jan 2015
Away...
I don't think you understand
My time is running up
I want to spread my wings and fly like a dove
I don't love this place
I want to get away
But I want to get away with you
I know this dream won't come true

I'll do anything to be with you
I'll even stay in this miserable place
But only out if love for you

I must say
I can't promise to like it here
But I'll always be happy with you

Don't tease me
About moving away
Farther away then I've dared to dream
I'll only want that reality

But the truth of the matter is
I think you wish to stay
Therefore I can't move away
I want you to know
This price I pay
For falling in love with you who wants to stay
656 · Feb 2015
Real Love
If you really love someone
A love true all the way through
Love will never die
It doesn't fade away
If it's a real love
You will love them for all of time
Long after you die
Your love will live on

Love is a mystery
Hard to hold
Sometimes you think its love
When really it's a joke
You'll know when it's real love
Because it makes your past love look like an elementary school crush

Love isn't about words
It's actions
If you love someone
Show them

Love will last through all the ages
You can't get rid of love
Emotions make us who we are
Embrace your love
And who you love
Your love will last for all of time
**Because love will never die
inspired by love don't die- The Fray
653 · Jun 2015
Sleepless thoughts
I lay in bed late at night
Wishing you were there to hold me tight
Of all the thoughts that are in my head
You're the one with the most stead
I lay awake and think of you
While sleep evades and leaves me with nothing else to do
But even so your always on my mind
Your the perfect waste of time
I'd lose sleep and time for you
Give up my pride and ego too
So just know before the night
You will always be my light
I love you more than the sun and the moon
I hope I will get to be with you soon
651 · Feb 2015
To All My "Friends"
To all my "friends"
I want you to know
I want you to know that from now on You're alone.
Don't cry to me for help
Don't **** up to my face
I know to you I'm just a mark you'll erase

To all my "friends"
I want you to know
I'm not a toy you can use
You can't pick me as you please
Just because you're favorite toy is missing
I'm no one's second choice

I gave you guys my all
You just let me fall
There is no trust here
Just rotting walls
What do you say behind my back
On second thought, I don't give a crap.

To all my "friends"
I figured out you're game
And guess what?
I'm done playing

To all my "friends"
I want you to know
I used to live you so much
But people change
Time moves on
Its time for us to go our separate ways
tired of being used by the ones I love
645 · Dec 2014
Around you
I've opened up so easily
A blooming flower
Willingly, I tell you everything
I'm a field
Not a building in the way to end my reign
I'm not this for anyone else
It's just you love

You fill me with sweet emotions untouched
Awakened me to the deepest form of trust
All these feeling new
Or to new extremes

Around you I can feel free to bloom
Release the me I've been hiding
Hide me in your trees
Protect me in your forest
I don't want the world to see me and you
For fear
They'd fall inlove with you too

Cause with you there are no lies
I can take off my mask
And be who I am
Isn't that what the world dreams of?

I'm not ashamed
Don't get the wrong idea
I just want you for myself
You're mine now
And nothing can take that away

Before you I wouldn't have the courage
To speak these words
I can write freely
Speak freely
Thanks to you, love
627 · Dec 2016
Warrior
I really want to be strong,
                                                           A warrior.
No fight or flight,
                                                          Just fight.
I want to be tough and wise,
                              A survivor and a fighter.
I WILL become more than these things,
                           I will emerge their leader.
621 · Apr 2016
Friends gone
I can't stop crying.
It's stupid I know.
I knew we would have to end.
But why did we have to end like this?

Are you hurt too?
I know how well you mask your emotions..
You're my oldest friend..
This loss cuts my soul so deep.

Why did you have to lie?
I can't handle that.
Here comes the tears again.
Staining my face with a trail of salt.
My eyes are red, puffy, bad.

I don't know what to do.
This poem is awful.
I feel like ****.
Oh and did I mention my period yet?
Just. *******. Great.

Today couldn't get any worse.
I lost you
It hurts so much
But I don't want you back.
I don't want a friend I can't trust
You'll probably see this but I hope you don't... God this hurts.
618 · Jan 2015
I'm sorry
My pillow is wet
You'll never know how many tears
How many tears I've cried for you
But regardless of the pain
I will always love you

Tonight I want to cave
It would come back worse than before
The sobs come so hard
If not you
What do I live for?

Everything I have become revolves around you
I gave you everything I have
When we disagree like this
I feel I'll lose my mind
I feel like less than nothing

I'm sorry I can't just be happy with you
But I only want to talk
That's all
I'm not asking you to change
Or leave someone behind
I'm not even being jealous

I only want to have meaningful words come out your mouth
I'm sorry
618 · Mar 2015
I want.
I want the taste of your lips in my mouth.
I want to feel every last part of you.
I want you here with me.
In my bed.
Or maybe I should be there with you.
In your bed.
It doesn’t matter.
I just want you.
I want all of you.
I want you know.
I long for the day when you’ll be inside me.

Explore my skin with your lips.
Make me tremble in pleasure.
I’ll return the favor.
I want all of you.
I want you now.
I want you forever.

Come kiss me.
Leave your mark.
Hold me close.
Never let the fire run out.
Come love me with all your soul.
Tell me “I’m yours.”
Don’t ever let my insecurities grow stronger than you.
And love me with all your soul.

I want your touch.
I want it now.
I want the feel of your skin on my skin.
I want to love you with all that I have.
I want to feel you in the most intimate of ways.

I want you in bed with me.
Your place or mine, It doesn’t matter.
I want to lay there.
Your arms around me.
Holding me close.
I can see our life.
Together.
I want know one else.
There is only room in my heart for you.
I want you.
Only you.
For eternity.
613 · Feb 2015
Laying with Him
Laying with him
His skin on my skin
I pictured us older, living together
I can see it clearly
While laying with him
I envision our life
How we'll act
Who we'll be
The house sometimes change
We're always the same

Dancing and cleaning
Laughing and smiles
Lazy movie nights
Occasional dates and making love
I see it all while laying with him

I like to think of of living together
No boundaries to hold us apart
One of my biggest dreams
Is sleeping in his arms

I see us making plans
Compromising what we want
I see us together clearly
Forget the rest of the lot
I can see our future
while laying with him
598 · Jan 2015
Forever I'll be Yours
All I want is you
No words can describe
How you make me feel inside
I'll love you till my heart will burst
Ending this wonderful curse
Never will I leave your side
Loyal till the end of time
Forever yours I'll remain
Even after the world turns grey
And when I'm feeling lonely late at night
I'll think of you and your eyes
Wishing you could hold me tight
There is nothing I could want more
Than to be yours forevermore
590 · Oct 2017
Sinking in
Sweet things
Memories
Peace and hope
In the future
Adventures
Renewed love
And faith
Continue
Strength is in her
Courage is her name
Trouble means little
To one of the faith
Refine me
Try me
I'm yours
Guide me
Use me
Help me
To walk with the Father
Is to walk like a princess
583 · Jun 2015
Show me
I try to hard
My expectations are too high
No one feels the same as me
I have to accept some people love in a different way
But still....
Sometimes I want someone to love me the way I love them
Try just as hard
I'm tired of feeling I try at a 100 only to be met with 50
I want your love
I won't your affection
I don't doubt ita there
Just learn to show it more

I know it's in you
I know you care
But I can't help feeling like we're in different books
I love you more than my heart can bare
you just have to show me it's there..
I feel like my efforts to show him my love arent  recognized.. I feel like we really are on two different level; in two different books
576 · Apr 2017
Worship in Love
I lift up my arms just to praise you
I close my eyes so I can feel you
Let your beauty sink in
Surrounded by your love
Your presence...
Here in your creation
I see you in everything
How could I ever doubt you?
When you are clearly everywhere.
Breathe you in
Oh lord your live is surrounding
So perfect and whole
I lift my arms just to praise you
I close my eyes so I can feel you
Let your beauty sink on
Surrounded by your love
Your presence...
I lift my arms...
I close my eyes...
570 · Dec 2014
I want more
The feel of you next to me
Makes it hard to breathe
I long for more
More than I'm ready for
More than you want

The touch of your lips
kiss my neck
The feel of your hands
caress my skin

Make me moan
Tease me some more
I know we won't do anymore
This is our boundary

I want more
More than I'm ready for
More than you want

I'm not ready
But still I long
I long for you and I
To become one

You are the most precious thing
I will always be here till the end
One day we will both be ready
One day we will merge

All I want is you
Only you
Forever
He is my everything, I love him so much I would do anything for him. I'm not just centered around ***, he is a wonderful all around person, you'll see more of that soon if you continue to read my works
562 · Jun 2016
Sometimes
Sometimes I really hate myself
Not because I don't like myself
But
Because of how I feel
These emotions that I just can't control
It's
Scary
Sometimes I hate myself
Not who I am
But how I act due to my emotions
How I feel
It kills me
I don't want to be nervous all the time
I don't want to feel the way I feel
But
That's what being human is
Its not something anyone can control
You don't mean to feel
You just do
557 · Dec 2014
Happiness evades me
Happiness evades me
Is it just a lie?
Can a person attain it?
Or only fantasize?
It makes me struggle constantly
Hoping one day it will come
There is nothing that can help me
When the end is about to come

Crying, crying
Tears of pain
Crying, crying
There is no gain
You can't get anywhere
This world is a lie

The only way out is through your own demise
But that's taboo
Not even a thought
No one can know

So why put on an act?
It's just another lie
I'm tired of pretending
I'm still alive inside
540 · Jan 2016
Books
I wish I could read you
Just open you up
Find all the things you won't tell me yourself
I'd know how to love you
How not to cause you pain
I'd know how to make you happy again

I'll open up for you
Show you all of my pages
Even the torn ones barely worth reading
You can pick at my spin and play with my heart
Just promise you won't tear me apart

Just let me read you
Let me in
Tell me the stories hidden deep in you're pages
I want to know where you've been
I want to see where you'll go
I want to be the best lover you will ever know

I'd never tell your secrets
But I'll show you mine
I'd never expose you're fears
But I'll share with you mine

I want to read your story
And know it all that I can
Hold your hands
Watch as your book grows with mine
Until maybe one day they both combine
526 · Jun 2015
Along the way
I don't know where
But
Somewhere
Somewhere along the way
I knew that no one else could ever take your place
You mean to much to me to lose
I want you forever
I need you
No one else would ever do
I only want you
Forever
I want to spend every second
Every moment with you
For the rest of my life
Somewhere in you eyes
In your smile
Between the silly jokes and stupid fights
I have fallen more and more in love
You're so special
So dear to my heart
I never want to be apart
You are the only one I will ever want
I want to marry you
To be Husband and Wife
Oh what a life
Wouldn't that be nice
I want to to see the world with you
An adventure around every corner
I want to try new things
Discover who we are together
I will love you for ever and forever
I could never feel this way for anyone else <3
526 · Jun 2015
Untitled
Today made me pensive
Today made me think
I don't think his dad cares for me much more
Somethings wrong
It leaves a bad taste
I wasn't careful in my haste
He walked by the open door
My heart feel to the floor
I was mostly on top of you
Fully clothed
Still I feel judge
Even after his past
I wonder if he'll let me come again
Take some time to look within

Even so I feel so safe with you
Your warmth calms my soul
Your presence fights away my every fear
I love just having you near
You comfort me in ways you'll never know
I hope you can see to my soul
I want to be with you for all of time
Come on baby say your mine
Your dad used to like me
I'm sure he'll get there
That won't be a problem
Just stay with me here
I need your touch
I need your warmth
Come be my blanket
Be my shield
Forever yours I hope to be
Maybe even there will be a ring
Soon before the end of the school year
His dad walked in.. we werent even really doing anything but kissing. Idk maybe it's not a big deal... but maybe it is. All I know is I'm happiest with that man's son. Connor is my only love
518 · May 2015
Sometimes
I still have to wonder why
You somehow choose to stay by my side
Even when I gripe, groan, and complain
You help me find my way
I feel more at home with you than anywhere else
You're my best friend
No one else

I've created a dependancy to you
Without you I don't know what I would do
My life now revolves around you
This year has brought us so close
I wouldn't want anyone else

Still sometimes I wonder why
Why you choose to stay by my side
I'm nothing special; nothing grande
But still you choose to hold my hand

I'm so lucky to call you mine
You're far to wonderful for words to describe
You put the sun in my sky
You inspire the dreams of my mind
Sometimes I feel like a grain of sand
But somehow still you hold my hand

I love you for more than all that you are
You are the brightest shining star
I love you with all of my heart
<3
517 · Oct 2015
I can see us
I can see us
Living in a small apartment
We don't know what we're doing
No plans
Figuring it out as we go along

I can see us
25 years old
Just ditched the club
Now we're sitting in the tub with a bottle of wine
Tell me all your fears and I'll tell you mine

I can see us
Graduated college
Finding jobs in our degreed careers
Just trying to get by

I can see us
We've got two kids now
Struggling to be the best we can be
Cause there are little eyes watching everything

I can see us
We're retired now
Resting happily
We still hold hands while making plans
Age doesn't mean a thing

I can see us
I don't know where we are now
In some other world
Nothing will separate us
Our love will be strong
We'll always find each other
For us there is no death do us part
Together forever
And forever is just the start
516 · Apr 2016
Returning Misery
I can't ******* breathe
Certain thoughts just won't leave
I can't escape this pain
These things loom over my head

Hi Anxiety, my old friend
Place your grip on me
I'll crumble under you're familiar embrace

Hi Depression, I love you
Please don't come back
when you combine in my mind
I die
Then how would you spend your time
Without me to hypnotize

My heart is being squeezed and torn and tugged and pulled
Just trying to hold on
My lungs give up
They can't get enough oxygen

These things cloud over me
They control everything
The only best friends I ever need

Oh my love come fight them away
Come save the day
Before they win
They will dictate my life
If you don't teach me how to fight
512 · Sep 2015
Love, Anxiety
I have this feeling in my chest
I don't know how to make it rest
I need you near to  am my soul
Save me from this long, dark hole

Close my eyes and try to breathe
Picturing you near to me
Hold me in your arms again
Love me till the very end

Thoughts of you creep in my head
But sometimes still I see the end
I love you more than my hear can bear
You are my brightest dream and worst nightmare

My heart beats loud inside my chest
I need you near, help end my quest
Take me in your arms tonight
Love me tender, hold me tight

Only you can quell my mind
Help me take off my stupid disguise
I think of you throughout the day
You make me happy or very grey

Come hold me close, yes hold me tight
I need your strength to get through the night
Wrap me up in your arms of steel
Make me feel I need to be here
508 · Jul 2015
Ideas
Do you ever get ideas...
Really big ideas
Huge ideas
And they never turn out right
You always end up dissapointed
Either you fail
Or someone else fails
And it all falls apart
My really big ideas never turn out right
and it always leaves me sad
Unbearly so
That's why I end up so sad all the time
One day I'll fall in love with my huge idea
And when it doesn't work out
It will be the end of me
503 · Mar 2016
Secret place
I want to go to never land,
Love, will you be my Peter Pan?
Oh! Just imagine the adventures we'll have.
Let's fly away to never land today.

We'll never grow old; we'll never die.
Our love will never have to end.
We can sing with the mermaids in the lagoon,
Or we can fight pirates to keep the lost boys safe.
Let's meet Tinker bell,
Why not the Indians as well?

Oh love be my Peter Pan,
Come take me away.
Well create a secret place,
Somewhere no one can find us.

Let's lay out under the stars,
Dream and wish of our tomorrow.
Oh my love, let's find a place.
We'll make it ours,
And name it never land.

A place we can go to when we feel weak, scared, defeated.
A place where only we can find each other.
And if I need to get away, escape;
I'll message you to me me there,
In our place
501 · Nov 2017
Listen
We come to honor you
Honor you
And honor all living things
All of your creations
Which you made for good

Give us peace.
Tell these lungs to breathe
And have rest.
Help us to see your true desires and will

Guide me
I will follow
Speak
I will listen

Dance with me
Give me joy
Steal my grief
Leave me with peace
497 · Dec 2014
No cure (10W)
What
Do
you
Do
When
Your
Cure
Turns
On
You
496 · Dec 2014
Use me
My love for you is stronger than the time
Even if you only know because of a dusty rhyme
I can't get you off my mind

I'd do anything for you
You know it's true
Oh how I love you

Break my heart
Tear it apart
whatever your will may do
it's yours for the taking
Do as you wish
Nothing could make my love for you run amiss

I care to much
I'll only get hurt
but since it's for you love
I'll make it through
You can hurt me all you want

Use me for your own gain
Act like it's a game
It will all be okay
I'll always let you win

You have nothing to fear
I'll always be here
I'll never let you go
For my greatest love, Connor. he will forever hold my heart.
491 · Dec 2014
My Muse
My Love
My Muse
I'm afraid I use you
You fill my mind with creative rhymes
But what do I give back to you other than my love and time?

I take the energy you fill me with
Write what's on my mind
You say I could be your muse too
If you were as creative as I

But my dear
Creativity is in us all
It's only a matter of finding it

We all have different gifts
And just because yours isn't words like mine
Doesn't mean you can't be creative too

Find what you like to do
What calls to your heart?
Take it
Make it yours

Don't be uptight
Let the energy flow
And love
You can be creative too

You see in my mind all the time
The work you unknowingly create with me
You see the products that you, my muse, induce

And you know what my love?
I'd love to see what you could do
Using me as your muse
484 · Jun 2015
Beautifully Broken
I want to tell you so much
I just can't make the words come out
I type messages just to erase them
Instead I'll hide them away here
In hopes you'll find them
One day when I'm beautifully broken
From hiding these things from you

I always end up apologizing for things out of my control
Yeah I get jealous
Please don't get mad
Don't leave me
I'm sorry I can't help it

I stretch myself to my wits end
I don't know what to do
I've tried everything I know how
Now it's up to you
Please just don't end up beautifully broken too

I feel like talking doesn't help
I've never felt this before
I tried to tell you the problem
And not tell you what to do
Still I ended up saying I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm broken, I'm in pieces
What do I do
When I can't talk to you?

I'm needy
I'm helpless
I try to be independant
I try not to need you affection
But I need it, I need it, I need it
Broken I am
I hope I am beautifully broken
If I must be broken at all
But really
I just feel broken

I want to romanticise my pain
Make it a wonder
Something to be remembered
But really it's ugly
And not worth the trouble

Instead of talking to you tonight
I'll write
I'll stay up and write all night
And hope one day you find these
One day when I'm beautifully broken
Shattered
By you
482 · Dec 2014
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Trying not to cry
Butterflies
Upset stomach
Getting sick
Everyone *****
Smile
No one cares
Close your heart
Love
Does it exists?
Maybe sometimes
Sometimes not
Just close your eyes
Pretend you aren't here
They wont see your tears
439 · Dec 2014
You don't know
Heart pounding
Thanks to you
And not in the way you'd want it too
It hard
Insistent
Painful at most

You're the one who hurts me the most
Anything you say and do
Has a great effect upon my soul

You're the one who makes me the happiest
All I want is to bring you joy
I hate upsetting you
It hurts my heart
But these things need to be said
No matter how my heart aches

I love you more than I can take
My heart it hurts
When you're not happy
That's all I want
To make you happy
430 · Dec 2014
Only You
My love, my love
You mean so much
Your affection strikes me at my core
Leaving me sore
Embedded in me
Buried deep into my soul
You helped create this beast
This monster that craves only you

No one else could ever be enough
For I love you too much
If it's not your touch
I don't want to feel it
If it's not your lips
I don't want a kiss

You're always on my mind
All the time

You're the one I want
No one else could suffice
No one can compare to you
No matter how hard they try

Those eyes...
That smile..
Your hands
Your lips
The sensation you bring

No one else could ever have what you have
Because they can't be you
You have my heart
That will never change
I'd do anything for the sake of you

I long for your touch
The feel of your lips

You're mine
Okay, this seems a little out there so I want to say that I'm not a creepy stalker. The guy this poem is about is indeed my boyfriend and knows how much I love him and how I can be a liiiitle obsessive
424 · Jan 2015
How can I know?
How can you assume I know
You never say anything
How am I supposed to know
If you never hint otherwise
It hurt my heart
Seeing that look in your eyes
How was I supposed to know
You never told
Stop giving me those eyes
It's not like I'm feeding lies
I just didn't know
422 · May 2015
Thoughts
I want to be pretty
I want to be sweet
I think of all the people that I'll probably never meet
I think of the sun rise
I think of the look in your eyes
I know it's with you I'll be

You are the best person I could ever meet
I want to be different
I want to make a change
You could leave a hole in the sky that would never fade

I want you close
Yes close and tight
Barely room to breathe tonight

I crave your love
I crave your name
I long for you and sunny days
I hope I leave my mark on your soul
I want to be a light that will always shine bright

Warmth and comfort
Kisses and hands
Feelings that I always have
I want you close
I want you near
please promise not to leave me here

I long for your mind
I long for your soul
I want to know if I make you whole
I long to know your deepest thoughts
I want to break your mind apart
I'll leave a piece of me there
Only with you shall I share

If I die before the day
Promise me you'll let me stay
Tell me your secrets oh so dark
Let me know I made my mark
392 · Dec 2014
Irrational Fear
With her it didn't matter
Hold hands with someone else
She won't know
It doesn't mean anything

I don't know when it came
But it's here to stay
That you might do the same to me

I don't have long till I won't be around
Not as much as I am now
I'm scared one day you'll do the same
I want you for myself

I've tried, I've tried to keep this inside
I've tried, I've tried
But my, oh my

I know we don't see eye to eye
When it comes to "you are mine"
What it means
What we allow
Our thoughts are on two different worlds

Still I know we'll be okay
You put up with my stupid ways
387 · Jan 2016
Shower thoughts
The water rains down on me
On my face, in my hair
Thoughts overwhelm me
I long to curl up at the bottom of the tub and cry
I could sit there forever so I don't even try
But I'll stand there and thing of you for a while

You're breaking my heart
Then you mend it again
It's a ruthless cycle  
But I'll endure it until the end
I love you so much
I'll never let you go
I know it's ****** up
But I need my soul

I miss the way things used to be
But I love how things have grown
Just wrap your arms around me and say something sweet
I've never felt like I do with you before
I'm so scared of losing you
I don't know what to do

My anxiety builds
My heart cries
I need you by my side
Please make my heart feel better

I stand in the shower and think of you
My thoughts overwhelm me
I don't know what to do
The water rains down on me
My thoughts are overwhelming
I'll stand and think of you
Until my lips turn blue
367 · Jun 2015
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It's only almost 11 o'clock
This is late for me
But I can't sleep
My eyes are tired but my mind is beyond awake
So I stare at my laptop screen
Trying to think of what to say next
He's already gone to sleep
And I'm left here thinking
He doesn't realize I'm awake for him
Contemplating words I should have said

I can feel the water behind my eyes
Wanting to escape
It's not that important
Not that big a deal
But all these other things came racing through my brain

I may be older but I still feel like a little girl
I can't handle much more
This is almost all that I can take
I wish I could talk to you
But you're asleep and I'm awake

You will always be my everything
I'm trying to do this right
But we're just so different
You and I
Still I always try
It just isn't easy
But if love like ours was easy
Everyone would have it

I probably won't tell you anytime soon
How much sleep I lose because of you
But the struggle and tears are worth it
Cause a love like ours only comes once in a hundred years
361 · Dec 2014
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Everything is going wrong
There is to much going on
Death is looming in the air
Filling me with despair
Sickness
I'll be okay just not tonight
I don't love you that way (I thought)
Can I be weak tonight?

It's hard being strong
I can only do this for so long
I'm trying to survive
Trying not to die

The world is against me why do I try?
There is nothing I can do
No where I can run
No place to hide

If I can survive the night
The light is easy
Daytime is fine
The dark is when the demons eat me

Don't move to fast
I cant keep up
Don't go to slow
They'll get to close

I'm trying to live
But the world is dying
I'll be okay
If you can save me
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