I wonder if my poems.. Will ever get me anywhere?

When I stop talking to
know it's because of you

To see the moon and the stars
Travel all of time and space
See the world
What a wonderful adventure
Never knowing what will take place

Something new around every turn
Always something to discover
A world made of diamonds
A world of brand new grass

Different color skys, clouds
Deep blue oceans, rivers
Each world with its own beauties
Always full of new adventures

Run, Run, Run
Run as fast as you can
You never know when this will all end

Another place, another face
It's all changing again
Try to keep up
Win the race
Don't want to end up a disgrace

Constantly fighting
No never give in
You better fight until the bitter end
Because another mystery begins

I don't know where
But
Somewhere
Somewhere along the way
I knew that no one else could ever take your place
You mean to much to me to lose
I want you forever
I need you
No one else would ever do
I only want you
Forever
I want to spend every second
Every moment with you
For the rest of my life
Somewhere in you eyes
In your smile
Between the silly jokes and stupid fights
I have fallen more and more in love
You're so special
So dear to my heart
I never want to be apart
You are the only one I will ever want
I want to marry you
To be Husband and Wife
Oh what a life
Wouldn't that be nice
I want to to see the world with you
An adventure around every corner
I want to try new things
Discover who we are together
I will love you for ever and forever

Tearing at my heart
Ripping me apart
The air just isn't enough
I can't breath
A hand squeezing my heart
The pains of anxiety
I don't know how to deal
Slowly my head starts to ache
All because of my mistake

I've opened up so easily
A blooming flower
Willingly, I tell you everything
I'm a field
Not a building in the way to end my reign
I'm not this for anyone else
It's just you love

You fill me with sweet emotions untouched
Awakened me to the deepest form of trust
All these feeling new
Or to new extremes

Around you I can feel free to bloom
Release the me I've been hiding
Hide me in your trees
Protect me in your forest
I don't want the world to see me and you
For fear
They'd fall inlove with you too

Cause with you there are no lies
I can take off my mask
And be who I am
Isn't that what the world dreams of?

I'm not ashamed
Don't get the wrong idea
I just want you for myself
You're mine now
And nothing can take that away

Before you I wouldn't have the courage
To speak these words
I can write freely
Speak freely
Thanks to you, love

I don't think you understand
My time is running up
I want to spread my wings and fly like a dove
I don't love this place
I want to get away
But I want to get away with you
I know this dream won't come true

I'll do anything to be with you
I'll even stay in this miserable place
But only out if love for you

I must say
I can't promise to like it here
But I'll always be happy with you

Don't tease me
About moving away
Farther away then I've dared to dream
I'll only want that reality

But the truth of the matter is
I think you wish to stay
Therefore I can't move away
I want you to know
This price I pay
For falling in love with you who wants to stay

Plump, skinny, short, tall
I'm surrounded by beautiful, talented people
They shine bright
Gifted
Short blonde hair
Plump *******
Long brown hair
Long waist
Tall and thin as a stick
Don't get me started on their eyes or face
I'm surrounded by beautiful people
All of them shine brighter than me

I want to tell you so much
I just can't make the words come out
I type messages just to erase them
Instead I'll hide them away here
In hopes you'll find them
One day when I'm beautifully broken
From hiding these things from you

I always end up apologizing for things out of my control
Yeah I get jealous
Please don't get mad
Don't leave me
I'm sorry I can't help it

I stretch myself to my wits end
I don't know what to do
I've tried everything I know how
Now it's up to you
Please just don't end up beautifully broken too

I feel like talking doesn't help
I've never felt this before
I tried to tell you the problem
And not tell you what to do
Still I ended up saying I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm broken, I'm in pieces
What do I do
When I can't talk to you?

I'm needy
I'm helpless
I try to be independant
I try not to need you affection
But I need it, I need it, I need it
Broken I am
I hope I am beautifully broken
If I must be broken at all
But really
I just feel broken

I want to romanticise my pain
Make it a wonder
Something to be remembered
But really it's ugly
And not worth the trouble

Instead of talking to you tonight
I'll write
I'll stay up and write all night
And hope one day you find these
One day when I'm beautifully broken
Shattered
By you

I wish I could read you
Just open you up
Find all the things you won't tell me yourself
I'd know how to love you
How not to cause you pain
I'd know how to make you happy again

I'll open up for you
Show you all of my pages
Even the torn ones barely worth reading
You can pick at my spin and play with my heart
Just promise you won't tear me apart

Just let me read you
Let me in
Tell me the stories hidden deep in you're pages
I want to know where you've been
I want to see where you'll go
I want to be the best lover you will ever know

I'd never tell your secrets
But I'll show you mine
I'd never expose you're fears
But I'll share with you mine

I want to read your story
And know it all that I can
Hold your hands
Watch as your book grows with mine
Until maybe one day they both combine

I love going to coffee shops alone
The chill vibes with their soothing playlist
Hot coffee and tea to warm the soul these cold winter days

Call me hipster
I say it's relaxing
Who needs stereotypes anyway

Just being here soothes my aching mind
I wish I brought my pen and spine
Instead I'm glued to my phone
To write my heart out on instead

A date with myself is just what I needed
In the stress of the holiday season
A familiar place with friendly faces
Breathe life into my mind
Fuel my creativity  

Bring me inspiration
A desire to create
Self expression
Oh what a life

Dear dad
I'm sorry you thought I never cared
Mom and you never should have felt compared
I loved you all

Dear dad
I'm sorry I mess it all up
And always have
I never meant to

Dear dad
I know we've never been close
Not like me and mom
But I've wanted to
If you want to know the truth
I was afraid of you

Dear dad
I'm sorry again
I never though about your side
Before turning you into the bad guy

Dear dad
I know you tried

Dear dad
I wish I could take it all back
I never meant to hurt you

Dear dad
I've always loved you

Tears streaming from my eyes
I pray to God for relief
Clawing at my chest
Right over my heart
Repeating
"Dear God, it hurts"

Everything is going wrong
I'm not on it anymore
Nothing is working right
You won't understand my strife
We don't care about the same things
We won't understand each other's ways
Regardless if it causes pain

You're so naturally smart, talented at heart
I have to struggle and try
We're so different you and I
I try to tell you everything, I speak my mind
You hardly say a word about what's going on inside

I try so hard to quell my mind
You can't understand this strife
I hurt inside
Because your mind
Yours and mine
I wish it didn't have to be this way
I don't know how to make it change

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land where dreams will never fade
A land where joy will never gray

Mysteries and dreams will never end
In this magical world in my head
The skies are so blue when the clouds are away
Sometimes it can rain for days

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a very distant land
A land where we will forever stay whole
A land where we will never grow old

Love and lust are welcome here
Care and trust is what we hold dear
Intimacy shared by us
A love that will never end
Take me to the magical world in my head

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land where we can rule our own
A land where we will forever be bold

This land holds treasures untold
The treasure is a heart of gold
Loyalty and peace reign in this land
Across the ocean it’s mighty castles stands

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land where nothing can keep us apart
A land where love is the best kind of art

My land is a very distant place
Protected by magic no one can mistake
A land where love rules us all
A land where pain has no call

Take me by the  heart
Take me by hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land that calls to both of our hearts
A land where we will never have to part

This land knows not of the cruel injustice of today
This land is innocent
Free from pain
This is the land that owns my heart
A land that only exist in the greatest of art

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land that only exist for us
A secret place
No one can touch

In this land there is only love and trust
Intimacy and lust
Loyalty and peace
Innocence nothing else
Take me to this land that knows no pain
Forever ours it will remain

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land
A land that only we can reach
A land that knows only peace
A secret kept between us two
Take me to our magic place

Take me by the heart
Take me by the hand
Lead me to a distant land

The worst thing about being a poet
Is that you're drawn to pain
The pain and fear inspire
Great works and wonders
For those of us good with words

Some who are lucky
Can write well of all things happy
Those rare few

Most everyone I know
Write of pain
Pain and fear
Memories
Or we compare, criticize
This crap society of ours

Emotions fill us
We feel to the fullest
We might get scared
But it's not the pain we fear
We realize that pain leads us
Leads is to discover great rhymes
A nice flow of words
Words that help ease our minds

As humans we all want to leave a mark
To be remembered
To have lived a worthy life
Change the world
Not me
I will quickly pass out of the earth's memory
My goal is only to inspire other souls
If I can only help one person on my life so be it
If I can make the world seem wonderful and grand
If I can make life worthwhile for one person
My job here is complete
I don't need my memory to go on
I'm just here to help
I'll live an ordinary life
Full of dreams I won't achieve
This world is too vast for me
No one will remember me
I won't leave a footprint
I'll be washed away with the sand
This doesn't make my existence worthless
I'm not even a ghost
The world won't miss me
The earth won't notice in gone
I'll be a gentle breeze
Quietly moving on
Keeping watch over the loved ones
Wishing them the best
The world won't know me
I'm only here to be my best
I won't be famous
Or taught about in school
But the life I change will live in to do great things
They will be great
But not me
I'll gladly fade away

I want to go back
To when I didn't feel used
I try so hard to show my love
There once was a time when you did too

I wish for romance and flowers
Surprises around every corner
A fairytale life

I've always dreamed of magic and adventure
Always longed for something bigger

There once was a time you made me feel the magic
There was love around every corner
Hope kept knocking at my door

Nothing is the same anymore
I miss the way we used to be
but still I love the way you breathe

I will always love you the same
Don't let the spark die out
I wish you still sent me cute late night text

I dream of magic and romance
Flowers and happiness
A surprise around every corner
I dream of a fairytale life

All I want is you
No words can describe
How you make me feel inside
I'll love you till my heart will burst
Ending this wonderful curse
Never will I leave your side
Loyal till the end of time
Forever yours I'll remain
Even after the world turns grey
And when I'm feeling lonely late at night
I'll think of you and your eyes
Wishing you could hold me tight
There is nothing I could want more
Than to be yours forevermore

Watch the world
Pay close attention
And when you feel small
You will always have me to come to
Because on my eyes
It is all for you
The stars that shine
Light up the night
They shine for you
Even the sun
In all it's glory
Sets and rises for you
The very earth rotated for you
I breathe for you
My heart, which is in your hands
Beats for you
You are not small
You are everything
So watch the earth
Watch it closely
Admire its work
And remember
When I watch it too
All I see is you

I can't stop crying.
It's stupid I know.
I knew we would have to end.
But why did we have to end like this?

Are you hurt too?
I know how well you mask your emotions..
You're my oldest friend..
This loss cuts my soul so deep.

Why did you have to lie?
I can't handle that.
Here comes the tears again.
Staining my face with a trail of salt.
My eyes are red, puffy, bad.

I don't know what to do.
This poem is awful.
I feel like ****.
Oh and did I mention my period yet?
Just. *******. Great.

Today couldn't get any worse.
I lost you
It hurts so much
But I don't want you back.
I don't want a friend I can't trust

I want to give you the world
I think this is supposed to be the other way around
Still, I don't care
I want to give you the world

All of it's glory yours to hold
Love, I want to give you the world
Everything shall be yours
Mi think I'll start by giving you my world
My light
Maybe even my life
It's all yours now

Wrist and hips
Lies and thighs
All just things to keep inside
Don't show your pain
Just go with the game
Maybe you'll win this time
Say the right things
Who cares if they're lies?
No one has to know
Hoping to die
Wasting away
Tears yet to be cried
Find a way out
Some say it's impossible
I say it's improbable
But who am I to **** your hope?

I can't stand to see you two together, so closend
But there isn't anything I can do without seeming like a *****
I don't want to control your life
But I let you dictate mine
You never seem to care that I don't like it when she flips her hair and giggles like a school girl at everything you say
You see her 80 percent of your day
You see me maybe 10 percent if I'm lucky
And most of the time those two mix
I'm always waiting to be next

The next time you don't seem to care
I'll say **** it and never mention her again
But if things grow worse beware
I'll grow weary of saying **** it
One day I'll blow up
If you aren't careful, one day, I could say ******* and not **** it

Happiness evades me
Is it just a lie?
Can a person attain it?
Or only fantasize?
It makes me struggle constantly
Hoping one day it will come
There is nothing that can help me
When the end is about to come

Crying, crying
Tears of pain
Crying, crying
There is no gain
You can't get anywhere
This world is a lie

The only way out is through your own demise
But that's taboo
Not even a thought
No one can know

So why put on an act?
It's just another lie
I'm tired of pretending
I'm still alive inside

Happiness is fleeting
grasp it while you can
Hold its hand
Ask it to stay
But eventually it will fade away
Only to return
Better than before
Try not to stay down
It will all turn around

I have to wonder why
Why I feel bad telling you what's on my mind
I can't really help what I feel
I know it's not part of my appeal
I don't like the thought of you and her
Well not just her, any her
But I have always thought she was gorgeous
More outspoken than me, but not flawless
Most hers are

I can't help I'm insecure
I know you love me
Say it more?
As much as I wish I could read your mind
I can't always see it in your eyes

Having my brother tell me sent my heart pacing
My anxiety racing
Did you feel you had something to hide?
Or was it just not on your mind?
Were you trying not to make me mad?
Because instead you just made me sad

I love you more than my heart can bear
I don't want you to feel like you can't be friends
But I'd rather it if I was there
Or maybe you could tell me she was there
Instead of me finding out through somebody else
It hurt me more than I'll ever tell

Seeing that look in your eyes
I couldn't help but apologize
I can't help the way I feel
Maybe you should tell me why I have nothing to fear
Doesn't anything bother you?
How can I help you understand
What's going on in my head
Is out of my hands

I don't know what was wrong
I tried to hide my face
He pulled me close and asked what was wrong
I told him it was back
He pulled me into his arms
I turned and buried my face in his chest
As traitor tears fell down my face
Forever it seemed
We laid like that
Him holding me together
While I was bursting at the seams
Panic taking over me
It became hard to breathe
Still he just held me
Asked if he could help
Rubbed my back
Planted kisses on my head
I'm so lucky
To have his help
Without his love
I wouldn't still be built

How can you assume I know
You never say anything
How am I supposed to know
If you never hint otherwise
It hurt my heart
Seeing that look in your eyes
How was I supposed to know
You never told
Stop giving me those eyes
It's not like I'm feeding lies
I just didn't know

I can see us
Living in a small apartment
We don't know what we're doing
No plans
Figuring it out as we go along

I can see us
25 years old
Just ditched the club
Now we're sitting in the tub with a bottle of wine
Tell me all your fears and I'll tell you mine

I can see us
Graduated college
Finding jobs in our degreed careers
Just trying to get by

I can see us
We've got two kids now
Struggling to be the best we can be
Cause there are little eyes watching everything

I can see us
We're retired now
Resting happily
We still hold hands while making plans
Age doesn't mean a thing

I can see us
I don't know where we are now
In some other world
Nothing will separate us
Our love will be strong
We'll always find each other
For us there is no death do us part
Together forever
And forever is just the start

Do you ever get ideas...
Really big ideas
Huge ideas
And they never turn out right
You always end up dissapointed
Either you fail
Or someone else fails
And it all falls apart
My really big ideas never turn out right
and it always leaves me sad
Unbearly so
That's why I end up so sad all the time
One day I'll fall in love with my huge idea
And when it doesn't work out
It will be the end of me

My pillow is wet
You'll never know how many tears
How many tears I've cried for you
But regardless of the pain
I will always love you

Tonight I want to cave
It would come back worse than before
The sobs come so hard
If not you
What do I live for?

Everything I have become revolves around you
I gave you everything I have
When we disagree like this
I feel I'll lose my mind
I feel like less than nothing

I'm sorry I can't just be happy with you
But I only want to talk
That's all
I'm not asking you to change
Or leave someone behind
I'm not even being jealous

I only want to have meaningful words come out your mouth
I'm sorry

I'll never be the best for you
I can't love you how I want to
I'm to afraid

Afraid of what I'm not sure..
Maybe I'm scared you'll hurt me
Or maybe
Maybe it's just intimacy that terrifies me

I've never felt more vulnerable
Than when I'm in your arms

Maybe I'm scared
Scared that I'll do it wrong
Am I enough to please you?
What if I'm no good?

I want to be your first
Your last
The best you'll ever have

The new intimacy will grow on me
You've seen inside my soul
I'm more open with you than a doorframe missing it's door
I've never been like this before
If I can open up to you
Why can't I explore
Our bodies too?

What makes me afraid?
Tell me you'll always be here
Permanent and strong
Like a great oak in the green forest

Promise me I'm safe here
Under your leaves of protection
Hide me from the world

Maybe it's society that makes me so scared
The standards if the world so strict

Hide me in your forest green
Keep me safe
This intimacy is new
I'm afraid
But not of you

What if I'm no good?
Can I be enough to please you

Will you be my first?
My last
The best I'll ever have

With her it didn't matter
Hold hands with someone else
She won't know
It doesn't mean anything

I don't know when it came
But it's here to stay
That you might do the same to me

I don't have long till I won't be around
Not as much as I am now
I'm scared one day you'll do the same
I want you for myself

I've tried, I've tried to keep this inside
I've tried, I've tried
But my, oh my

I know we don't see eye to eye
When it comes to "you are mine"
What it means
What we allow
Our thoughts are on two different worlds

Still I know we'll be okay
You put up with my stupid ways

Is it vain
To strive for beauty?
Is it wrong to long for perfection?
Like it or not it's something we all do
Rather by your own standards or societies
We all in some form or another
Strive for perfection
Long for beauty
A curse to all people
For what is beauty?
What is perfection?
Long blonde hair, skinny waist
Good manners, emotionally happy
Brains, *****, ****
Skin, soft, kind
Everybody strives
Everybody kings
We must for the impossible to achieve
Pointless even
Cause once we succeed
Then who is good enough for you?
Is it vain
To strive for beauty?
Is it wrong
To long for perfection?
No
There is nothing wrong in trying just don't expect I succeed

Why do we keep doing this?
Thinking of the past
Only a couple of years ago...
We need to learn to let it go
But some reason it stays on my mind
But only half of the time
All the what ifs in the world
Won't make it right

We didn't do wrong
No not this time
But the thoughts were there
Trying to hide
Failing miserably to keep it inside

Every year it's the same old thing
It's not goof for us
It's not good for us

If the circumstances were different
But it's not meant to be
Maybe in abother world
You'll have me

I'm happy without you
I promise I am
My lI've lights up my world
So I don't understand
Why once a year
I think of you
And know you think of me too

Talking is to much
Next time I'll keep my mouth shut
It would be nice
To give it a try
But not in this world
Maybe just not in this life
In another time and place
We can be happy this way
But I love my love more than the chances we'd have to take

So for now I'll think
Then shut it down
Leave it alone until next year rolls around

I want the taste of your lips in my mouth.
I want to feel every last part of you.
I want you here with me.
In my bed.
Or maybe I should be there with you.
In your bed.
It doesn’t matter.
I just want you.
I want all of you.
I want you know.
I long for the day when you’ll be inside me.

Explore my skin with your lips.
Make me tremble in pleasure.
I’ll return the favor.
I want all of you.
I want you now.
I want you forever.

Come kiss me.
Leave your mark.
Hold me close.
Never let the fire run out.
Come love me with all your soul.
Tell me “I’m yours.”
Don’t ever let my insecurities grow stronger than you.
And love me with all your soul.

I want your touch.
I want it now.
I want the feel of your skin on my skin.
I want to love you with all that I have.
I want to feel you in the most intimate of ways.

I want you in bed with me.
Your place or mine, It doesn’t matter.
I want to lay there.
Your arms around me.
Holding me close.
I can see our life.
Together.
I want know one else.
There is only room in my heart for you.
I want you.
Only you.
For eternity.

The feel of you next to me
Makes it hard to breathe
I long for more
More than I'm ready for
More than you want

The touch of your lips
kiss my neck
The feel of your hands
caress my skin

Make me moan
Tease me some more
I know we won't do anymore
This is our boundary

I want more
More than I'm ready for
More than you want

I'm not ready
But still I long
I long for you and I
To become one

You are the most precious thing
I will always be here till the end
One day we will both be ready
One day we will merge

All I want is you
Only you
Forever

I don't want to hear the words
"You are apart of us"
Leave your lips ever again
Please just stop trying to pretend
I'll never be apart of the duo
Because this love isn't meant for a trio

Don't try not to hurt my feelings
I'm fine
Just tell me like it is
You are fond of me I know
It just won't ever be like her

Don't beat yourself up
I understand
I'm not meant to hold your hands
You have each other
It's alright
I can find my own way tonight

You tell me I'm apart of you
But everyone can see it isn't true
When the topic best friend is spotlight
She is the only highlight
I guess I'm just not made for friends these days
But I'll stick around and watch over you
As if that's what I'm meant to do

Somehow
I am surrounded by suns and stars
Me
A measly old lamppost that can barely stay lit
In the shadows of their bright lights
I'm barely visible
Who wants to watch a flickering lamp
When there are beautiful suns and stars all around
My heart is breaking
But they don't mean anything
It's just what happens when your a broken lamppost
Surrounded by suns and stars
No one can help me
I can't find any beauty
All I can see are suns and stars
And I feel all alone
A broken lamppost
Old and forgotten
All but abandoned
I just want to feel loved
I want someone to show this broken light
That I can be star
Or maybe even
In my dreams
I can be the moon or sun
In someone's eyes
But  tonight I'm a broken lamppost
And they are more beautiful lights to watch

Laying with him
His skin on my skin
I pictured us older, living together
I can see it clearly
While laying with him
I envision our life
How we'll act
Who we'll be
The house sometimes change
We're always the same

Dancing and cleaning
Laughing and smiles
Lazy movie nights
Occasional dates and making love
I see it all while laying with him

I like to think of of living together
No boundaries to hold us apart
One of my biggest dreams
Is sleeping in his arms

I see us making plans
Compromising what we want
I see us together clearly
Forget the rest of the lot
I can see our future
while laying with him

We come to honor you
Honor you
And honor all living things
All of your creations
Which you made for good

Give us peace.
Tell these lungs to breathe
And have rest.
Help us to see your true desires and will

Guide me
I will follow
Speak
I will listen

Dance with me
Give me joy
Steal my grief
Leave me with peace

I have this feeling in my chest
I don't know how to make it rest
I need you near to  am my soul
Save me from this long, dark hole

Close my eyes and try to breathe
Picturing you near to me
Hold me in your arms again
Love me till the very end

Thoughts of you creep in my head
But sometimes still I see the end
I love you more than my hear can bear
You are my brightest dream and worst nightmare

My heart beats loud inside my chest
I need you near, help end my quest
Take me in your arms tonight
Love me tender, hold me tight

Only you can quell my mind
Help me take off my stupid disguise
I think of you throughout the day
You make me happy or very grey

Come hold me close, yes hold me tight
I need your strength to get through the night
Wrap me up in your arms of steel
Make me feel I need to be here

I'll be okay just not tonight
I don't love you that way (I thought)
Can I be weak tonight?

It's hard being strong
I can only do this for so long
I'm trying to survive
Trying not to die

The world is against me why do I try?
There is nothing I can do
No where I can run
No place to hide

If I can survive the night
The light is easy
Daytime is fine
The dark is when the demons eat me

Don't move to fast
I cant keep up
Don't go to slow
They'll get to close

I'm trying to live
But the world is dying
I'll be okay
If you can save me

Your lips on mine
The touch of your hands
I want the feel of you skin

Our mouths moving in time
No space between us
Exploring

Wanting in your mind
Knowing you are mine

Your lips on my neck
Rough
Insistent
Making me want more

All I want is you
No one else
Nothing else
I want you to merge with me
I want us to become one

But alas I'm afraid
I sense you are too
One day will be the day
We wont turn away
We won't hide from our love

More than kissing
More than feeling
Actually taking what is mine
Knowing there is no one else

You have my heart and no one else
I could never love anyone else
The way I do you

You are my world
My light
Everything

Nothing compares to you
With your sometimes tan skin
Your gorgeous blue eyes

With all your quirks
You are amazing
No one is better than you

It's hard to find the right words
The right words to describe you

Amazing
Sweet
Loving

You're all I need
You're all I want
You and your mouth
Your touch
Your warmth
your love
All your quirks
All your love

Love is everything
Hope is inspiring
Faith is more than meets the eyes
Trust is something you earn
Pixie dust is the unseen magic all around us
Hold these things close to your heart, they will bring you happiness

Peace to those who earned it
Strength to those who worked for what they believed in
Happiness is a fickle thing

Encourage
Inspire
Lift others up
Never break them down
Show them the light

Give others love, hope, faith, trust,
Show them the pixie dust
Lead their way
Light their paths
Shine bright
So that they might see...
The light

I lay awake all by myself
Wishing you where here to cast the spell
Cause being around you...
It's like magic
Instant peace and gladness

I want to feel your touch
Cuddling me up
Hold me close in your warmth
Your love will always be enough

Even as I dream I know you're not here
I'm constantly missing you even there
So hold me close
Come hold me tight
Help me make it through tonight

I want you close
I want you near
This constant space is becoming my biggest fear
A living nightmare
It's hard to talk
It's hard to breathe
But witg you there is always ease

I'm not sure of much but this I know
I love you more than days of snow
I miss you so much when you aren't near
All I want is for you to be here

Don't assume you know it all
You never will
Try to hear all sides
You may be surprised
By how much pain you caused

Even though you never knew
When you find out you'll blame everything on you
But you never meant to

Don't ever
Not even for a minute
Don't ever think you're alone in pain
Take time to see the other side

I'm sorry everyone I hurt
I really am a selfish, spoiled brat
I wish I could take it all back
But I can't

Please just take time
To learn from my
From my mistakes

My Love
My Muse
I'm afraid I use you
You fill my mind with creative rhymes
But what do I give back to you other than my love and time?

I take the energy you fill me with
Write what's on my mind
You say I could be your muse too
If you were as creative as I

But my dear
Creativity is in us all
It's only a matter of finding it

We all have different gifts
And just because yours isn't words like mine
Doesn't mean you can't be creative too

Find what you like to do
What calls to your heart?
Take it
Make it yours

Don't be uptight
Let the energy flow
And love
You can be creative too

You see in my mind all the time
The work you unknowingly create with me
You see the products that you, my muse, induce

And you know what my love?
I'd love to see what you could do
Using me as your muse

I love to watch you play
Hear the sweet notes drift out of your saxophone
A lovely melody

You don't always see me
I listen all the same
Such lovely skill
escaping in the form of sound
coming out
of that wonderful saxophone

Maybe it's not the sound
That enchants me so
But the handsome player
Whom I get to call my own

My gorgeous love  
Smart and talented to the end
<3