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Tanaka Mupinga May 2014
A lot has changed since we became free
Motives rearranged when you broke up with me

Resisting cardiac arrest restless nights turned into mourning

We ended it

We ended up

Apart
Double Entendre
princess May 2014
it hit me without a warning, until i noticed this hole in my chest,
i realized quickly you gave me this
it used to be stitch shut,
but i now see all  my insecurities, and all the things that
i'm ashamed of and every broken memory
that i kept hidden in the back of my closet,
this sorrow keeps wrapping up
like a noose around my neck, and
i am just waiting till you come along and
kick the stool away
Smiles May 2014
My good friend the darkness has betrayed me tonight
The blackness used to blind my sight of all the horrors
That cause me such angst and terror
My demons that fill me with fright

Are here with me now
The thunderous march
of their footsteps on the ground
Their laughter oh so loud
I was almost feeling proud
I had gone so long without them around

Does Death want me or not
When she's standing over me her expression distraught
Looking at her watch singing tick tock tick tock
I can't seem to fathom whether this a lesson I'm being taught
But I just cower under my covers because that's the only strength I've got

The sun has risen once again
Another dreadful night has come to an end
Another dreadful day begins
So I get up and put on my face and adjust my grin
No one will suspect anything is wrong not even my friends

I'm sorry I'm always tired
But I'm up all night while my sanity expires
A mind of my own is all that I desire
l'd like to trade my eyes for new because they are nothing but liars
That's all that I require......
Is that too much to ask?
I hate my illness.... More than people realize. It's like dipping your toes in the water and testing out hell's fire so you can be used to it when you finally jump right in when you die....
Daylight 4U2C Apr 2014
Yesterday was sour, so today will be sweet.
Today was bitter, so tomorrow will be neat.
I just have to hold on tight.
Slide down 1,2,1,2.
And I know I'll be alright,
but fixing this is something I can't do.

I've been cursed a gruesome pain. I must spend odd days feeling insane. But even, my smile will be on the other days. Still is it worth the tragedy it pays? If I could run from fate, I wouldn't wait. I'd go so far away. I wouldn't look back any day.
I was writing, but I'm sick and sleepy, so I don't know if it's good or not.
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
Life makes me want to run away
And never turn back
And leave everything behind;
The pain, the hurt, the negativity.
Life forces me to grin and bare it
while I suffer through it all
And inside I'm falling to pieces.

Life makes me want to take your hand in mine
And ride off into the sunset
Without worry or doubt in our minds.
Life is hard and we all know it,
But it's worse when you're sick
Like me.
Daylight 4U2C Apr 2014
You wrote me off,
so I'll write you on.
You see,
when you leave,
you just provide inspiration.
So in the end just who used who?
It's pretty **** simple,
"I used you."
You probably wished
I would sob away life.
But that's so inhumane,
why run,
when I can fly?
You probably thought,
I'd plead you to stay,
but nah..
to be honest,
I'm feeling really okay.
I don't care about
the things you said,
the things you did,
or the things you tried so hard to hide.
In two years or so,
I won't even remember you're name.
"He did that to me? Oh what a shame."
Now for once,
I'll give you what you want,
and this time you can't complain.
I'll write you into this poem,
and soon enough you'll have fame.
Comments? Hearts?
Rl Apr 2014
The past can make it so easy to relapse

not because of the past itself

but

running away from it

and burying it in the subconscious,

hiding it away and letting it silently

fest fest fest.

Is what causes you to be haunted.

---

Pain;

A raging sore, a deep wound, an eternal scar,

just wants to be felt; acknowledged.

So I try not, to ignore it

when I see the marks of the past; knives

digging into the valves of my heart; pain

even when it comes back

strong and hard and fighting

like a hurricane

carrying me away under water

suffocating the freedom in my punctured lungs

I will not let it destroy me.

—-

Its not because I am weak that I struggle with it

but the brain is strong; be aware...

For thoughts can make you a victim of your own mind

though I hope
there will be a time when

healing, that miraculous God-sent healing is at the end.

When

you stop ignoring the past

and instead start loving those broken pieces, the shame you felt,

the fear that crippled

and realise

it will soon ease, soon melt away, soon diminish

and you’ll remember

**pain has no authority to hurt
--- Mar 2014
Sometimes I don't know
What I should do
Will it hurt somebody?
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
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