What you said: "LOL" "bahahah" "****" "hehe" "😂" "hahahah" What you wanted to say: im in pain i want a hug im mad im sad im dissapointed i miss him im hurting im crying i want to cry im not eating much anymore im upset i dont care i don't know how to feel
i know that you dont know how to express your feelings, and i understand you say "LOL" or "hahaha" when absolutely nothing is funny you say it when you're hurting the most but why does it help you cope to say the opposite of what you're feeling
really spoke more than you really ever had spoke like friends (maybe more than friends)
and though I thought I was prepared I’d practiced hating you I’d gotten over it found someone else (though that’s not going particularly well) but no
and I know you that’s the hardest part I know you
I know that this you this you I’m falling for again after so many **** times I’ve lost track
this is not you
this you is the quiet you the you that likes me because I’m feisty and a little different the you that teases me, but never to embarrass the you that knows I’m vulnerable and cares the you that flirts but doesn’t force that is kind and friendly and opens up and tells me quiet things
But I know that tomorrow you’ll be someone else in the hallway in passing across the room
so I’ll miss this you I’ll get over it slowly, as you proceed to ignore me
only to fall once more just when I think I’m free a smile thrown as you round the corner where I stand your eyes crinkle at the edges they see it all and they know me and my heart leaps once again
you know I know It’s all happened before
ode to those feelings you can never truly be rid of ...
It is music to my ears, To know that you are happy. Unless you're my heart's tears, Then you make me sappy. I may say I am selfless, But really I am not. I only talk about my troubles, It was always in my thought. For people who hate me, I always understood. For people who like me, I never understood. You could? You should? You would. You would if I were a completely different person, With less issues and more talent. That may not be you, Or you, But maybe you. You know why, Deep down my true emotion isn't care? Music helps me. Motivates me. To fight staying who I am. But I know I can't. You can. Do whatever it takes. Whatever peaceful and unhurtable method motivates you, To be better. That is music to my ears.