I ate the cake,
Cool and sweet
but left the pain
In the back of my throat
like an aftertaste
Alone on a chilly night in September
Lost emotions still vividly remember
Sands of time erase happier days
Wondering why so little good stays
When I don't hear from you I stress
Inner storm only tamed by your caress
The weather lately has taken a turn
For the cold my heart holds will always return
Where my footprints fade and yours begin
Moments eternity seems suspended in
With another call straight to voicemail goes
Saltwater teardrops I fight like foes
At war with my own weakness and doubt
Puzzles and riddles I can't figure out
Shadows overtake our souls with shame
Empty and vacant
Demons steal our names
When you disappear I am left neglected
To forgive you comes easier than expected
The tide pulls you out and washes back ashore
Each time I wonder what you even leave me for?
I hate when you dont answer because I dont know if you are with some other girl or dead or what.. sigh.
"Grbrb!" Does the glowing water
As Jill drowns in her wait underwater
The river person above continues
rowing his boat unknowingly in his lonely river
paper hearts form a heart shape seemingly All around his boat,
He touches them, mesmerized
but not surprised
He figured his love was there, so he let the water gently drag him to her thereafter
Jill had been gone 24 years ago
he had taken too long
It was his choice
Jack wanted to go along with Jill
Love was always a foolishly cautious trap.
Don't you agree?
I tried. Not sure if this counts as a poem
These walls are breaking,
I can see the cracks.
It's going to fall,
I've spent years building this wall,
Now, you come
To break it down?
No, not my wall!
I'm trying to glue,
With eyes blurred,
I see nothing;
Not even bird.
These walls are paving in,
Just let it fall?
Or do I bow?
Definitely not bow!
Just tear down.
I'm too grown,
I'm tired and I've tried.
Moments when you feel like all hope is lost is not such a good thing when you block out your Support System.
I smile onto the darkness as it watches me
The dark that some would run or even flee
I laugh as I mingle in my friend's presence
He tells me a joke that others would dismiss as nonsense
But in daylight I'm under my person feeling lonely
She hugs she laughs with her friends smiling brightly
I tried to smile as if I had lips
I tried to sway as if I had hips
I mimicked her as she waved but then I realized
I'm not mimicking anything until I am with my old friend
I am but a shadow with no face only black
I am a shadow with no control under daylight I'm a wrack
But With in my old friend, dark, I am free
I could smile, laugh and scream as if I'm a banshee
The only problem is that you can't and never will see
"I tried. I tried to save you. I️ lived in this cage for you, stopped breathing for you, stopped believing for you. What must I do to show how much I would do for you, just to be with you, to love you."
What is raw?
What is real?
What is simply making it worse?
All these wounds
Because time can’t go in reverse
I can write
All these things
About how I used to be
Let it out
For a crowd
So they can all see
But it won’t help
Not one bit
If they know what’s deep inside
All it does
Is make me
Regret that I even tried
I write as an outlet, as a way to let all the nasty things running though my brain come out in a neat little package. And I post poems, poems about whatever I’m going through, as a cry for help... but people never listen
Every night I ask
"Is this too far gone to save?"
Knew better but still foolishly tried
Resurrecting love from the grave
We tried starting relationship over
Agreed to new blank slates
Neither of us anticipated
How difficult past would be to erase
We hold onto childish hope
Bond can be like it was before
Perhaps the time has come to accept
We are not those people anymore
Maybe spent too much time apart
Going different directions
We used to see only beauty
Now invaded by imperfections
We cannot forget mistakes that caused pain
Trust destroyed past restoration
How are we able to rebuild our lives
Without stable foundation?
Gazing upon a silent sleeping city through my window pain
Your perfectly captured picture I'm clutching soaked and tear-stained
Your bright smile in my mind is forever singed and framed
The rain instinctively falling to the beat of my broken heart
Missing you like flowers misses the desert rain
I'm holding on to your perfect memory
How do I cope with this longing pain
You were the air that I breathe, I'm starting to choke on oxygen, your silhouette still haunts me
I feel I'm slowly going insane
How am I suppose to let you go
When I'm constantly craving your healing touch
I can still feel the taste of your lips
This heartache is living within my soul
From this spiraling emotions, I have no escape
I only have God to blame
Every part of me being led by blinding hate
I can no longer see happiness
It was stolen by a tragic fate
The tragedy is a part of life
It's how we pick our selves up after the strife,
Keep moving forward
Put your hurt in a vice
Squeeze till love is in lust