you don't want me like i want you
you never do
he has no god damn clue
this is a one sided kind of affection
that cologne and cigarette smell fires my intentions
my heart can't take this rejection
it needs protection
been trying to escape these feelings but damn
we have such an intense connection
you have no idea how badly i just wanna grab you
look you in your eyes
into your god damn soul and spill it
into your heart, i'll fill it
with all this emotion that's been tearing me apart
lately it's been setting me afire
burning my insides, i'm spilling my guts here
this is exactly what i fear
i fear unrequited love
that feeling of missing someone so god damn much
it hurts my heart
feels like it's bleeding
but i'm proceeding
while you sit back and smile without me
don't give a damn about me
can't take this defeat
i'm tired of my love life being stuck on repeat
My brain has chemical imbalance
held inside a ceramic palace
The fabrication of lies
and blankness behind the eyes,
with bloodstains on my body,
assault is my hobby.
Not on others you see,
just on 'lil ol' me.
And hunger isn’t a concern,
I want my body to burn.
My own pulse drives me insane,
I’d rather devoured by pain.
You’d think I’d wish the reverse,
but I love it, and that’s my curse.
Everyone has stories
and I imagine them
when I look at strangers
what sort of tales
did their lives spin?
I wanted to know the stories
I made them up
in my head
because to really
you can't just be
a quiet onlooker,
you have to let them
know you too
and that was something
I was no longer
willing to do
the last person
to really know me
denies he ever did
like he's ashamed of me
in fact I am sure
he curses the day
he ever laid eyes on me
no... that is one thing
I am not willing
to do again,
to let someone
really know me.
His stare had pierced through me.
His kisses had stained my lips with ecstasy.
This was the love that I wanted to keep,
But when I think of it, it makes me weep.
Our pathways had met, but never crossed,
And all hope for the future was quickly tossed.
In our dreams we got lost.
Just as the Sun steals from the Autumn frost.
In jealous eyes we watched the Sun and Moon kiss,
Staring in awe of their eclipse.
We were two opposites that never met,
But it was the most exciting attraction yet.
Know that I asked for physical pain,
Right when I was the most happy,
Invincible I seemed to myself,
Poor me- I got it what I asked for,
Into the hospital ICU I joined forces.
Ya I'm cursed with a long, long life,
Onto an evil world I'm slammed,
Until I met her I knew not love.
Could I walk on water to satisfy her,
How convenient for her to imagine,
Exhausted, my love isn't even a bit,
Aches my heart so metaphorically,
Tiniest shards of my soul just cry.
When people are people
It's the strangest thing to see
Because people are rarely
Who they pretend to be
Friends soon become your enemy
Smiles don their faces wide
They will profess to be walking
Fornent to God's side
The trickery and fakery
The beguiled full of charm
The only thing they want to do
Is cause you painful harm
The sweetness and the light they shine
Predatory as seen
A flick of a knife in moonlight
Quickly turns vulturine
If they seem too good to be true
It's no wonder, I say
Time will present that truth forthright
In a startling display
They garner an overdue curse
A soul ache deathless slay
So I'll take dogs over people
True friends in every way
a post-it note
that's just going to
collect dust along the lines
until it turns from yellow
to a pitiful grey.
that usually happens
when the people you love
I'll read your contents
almost every day
and maybe I might
on my wall, you're safe.
But if I ever could,
I would gladly watch you