sometimes i'm too nice
sometimes i don't think twice
sometimes i feel like nothing can stop me
other times i feel like the world is trying to
stomp me
sometimes i glare unaware
sometimes i feel like no one is ever there
other times i feel like i got the best around and i'm
safe and sound
sometimes

I'm in a bit of a muddle
Just had a stumble
lost my shoe in a puddle
This is my life in the struggle
Enough to make you crumble
Bruised knees, torn jeans
Everyone that's seen
Now is laughing at me
Can't escape this embarrassment
It follows my every step

It's just not my day
Look on the bright side
It can't get worse
Sometimes that's the way
The world turns
Thought I was blessed
Maybe I'm cursed
Think it just got worse

Just tripped in a ditch
Into the arms of a sexy chick
Knocked her ice cream out of her hands
Now I wish I was dead
It feels like the end
Her ice cream landed
Straight into my face
She slapped me
Then started screaming at me
Telling me to watch where I'm going
What a metal case
This just isn't my day

It's just not my day
Look on the bright side
It can't get worse
Sometimes that's the way
The world turns
Thought I was blessed
Maybe I'm cursed
Think it just got worse

Someone just ran past
And pulled down my pants
It even dragged down my underwear
Now I never want to show my face again
Everyone wouldn't stop staring
This is the moment everybody dreads
Can't believe it just happened
Why does this always happen to me
Can't this shit just leave me be

It's just not my day
Look on the bright side
It can't get worse
Sometimes that's the way
The world turns
Thought I was blessed
Maybe I'm cursed
Think it just got worse

©2017 Written By Benji James

Have you ever felt so sick
That there's a churning in your stomach
That you just can't shake
Have you ever felt so broken
That you just can't sleep
Lost in confusion to how life brought you here
Have you ever felt so low
That you didn't think there was anywhere else to go
Have you ever been so angry
You can't control your rage
Ripping every photo in you picture frames
(Yeah) have you ever wondered why it is your heart breaks

Are you good at getting stuck in situations
Feel as though you have lost all communication
And you can't seem to navigate your way out of this dark place
You landed yourself in
Shouldn't have given everything so soon
And maybe then you wouldn't have lost you

Signals beyond detection
Lost in my own space
No stars or light to guide your way
You just met the monster under your bed
Gave into the voices inside of your head
This is the moment everybody dreads
So is this my hell
This is where I've been sent
This is the fall
This is the steep descent

Told you I bleed for my heart
Can't you tell from the scars
Engraved into my skin
Maybe I'm addicted to the pain
Maybe it doesn't feel right when life kicks me back in the face
Maybe I just can't go a day without making a mistake
Maybe I'm a lost cause
Maybe I have no faith
Maybe I've fallen from grace
Maybe I'm a disgrace
Maybe there is no hope for the hopeless
But I still give hope to those
That hang off of every word that I write
And it's lines and times like this that keep me alive (Yeah)

Are you good at getting stuck in situations
Feel as though you have lost all communication
And you can't seem to navigate your way out of this dark place
You landed yourself in
Shouldn't have given everything so soon
And maybe then you wouldn't have lost you

Signals beyond detection
Lost in my own space
No stars or light to guide your way
You just met the monster under your bed
Gave into the voices inside of your head
This is the moment everybody dreads
So is this my hell
This is where I've been sent
This is the fall
This is the steep descent

Maybe I'm drowning in sorrows
Maybe you have some love I could borrow
Maybe you could get me back on my feet
Should never have worn this heart on my sleeve
Maybe I shared too much
Maybe my kindness
got the best of me
Maybe I gave to much trust
Maybe I just lost the one
Maybe the battle was lost
Before it was ever won (Yeah)

Are you good at getting stuck in situations
Feel as though you have lost all communication
And you can't seem to navigate your way out of this dark place
You landed yourself in
Shouldn't have given everything so soon
And maybe then you wouldn't have lost you

Signals beyond detection
Lost in my own space
No stars or light to guide your way
You just met the monster under your bed
Gave into the voices inside of your head
This is the moment everybody dreads
So is this my hell
This is where I've been sent
This is the fall
This is the steep descent

©2017 Written By Benji James

When you want to forget you go to the sea,
But this island is filled with you and me.
Try to drown out my sound,
But I am everywhere you look around,
I am everywhere you go.
You can wash me from your pillowcases, and bed sheets,
But I still linger on your skin like sticky salt you can not scrub.
Lingering like a curse,
You can't escape me,
As all these memories follow you around.

you don't want me like i want you
you never do

he has no god damn clue
this is a one sided kind of affection

that cologne and cigarette smell fires my intentions
my heart can't take this rejection
it needs protection
been trying to escape these feelings but damn
we have such an intense connection

you have no idea how badly i just wanna grab you
look you in your eyes

into your god damn soul and spill it
into your heart, i'll fill it
with all this emotion that's been tearing me apart
lately it's been setting me afire
burning my insides, i'm spilling my guts here
this is exactly what i fear


i fear unrequited love
that feeling of missing someone so god damn much

it hurts my heart
feels like it's bleeding
but i'm proceeding
while you sit back and smile without me
don't give a damn about me

can't take this defeat

i'm tired of my love life being stuck on repeat

My brain has chemical imbalance
held inside a ceramic palace
The fabrication of lies
and blankness behind the eyes,
with bloodstains on my body,
assault is my hobby.
Not on others you see,
just on 'lil ol' me.
And hunger isn’t a concern,
I want my body to burn.
My own pulse drives me insane,
I’d rather devoured by pain.
You’d think I’d wish the reverse,
but I love it, and that’s my curse.

Everyone has stories
and I imagine them
when I look at strangers
what sort of tales
did their lives spin?
I wanted to know the stories
I made them up
in my head
because to really
know someone
you can't just be
a quiet onlooker,
you have to let them
know you too
and that was something
I was no longer
willing to do
the last person
to really know me
denies he ever did
like he's ashamed of me
in fact I am sure
he curses the day
he ever laid eyes on me
no... that is one thing
I am not willing
to do again,
to let someone
really know me.

His stare had pierced through me.
His kisses had stained my lips with ecstasy.
This was the love that I wanted to keep,
But when I think of it, it makes me weep.

Our pathways had met, but never crossed,
And all hope for the future was quickly tossed.
In our dreams we got lost.
Just as the Sun steals from the Autumn frost.

In jealous eyes we watched the Sun and Moon kiss,
Staring in awe of their eclipse.
We were two opposites that never met,
But it was the most exciting attraction yet.