I said I wouldn't write about you
but who am I
to strip myself of what makes me live
in art I've surfaced my own sins
and some of yours.
I suppose
I've taken space you've asked of me
needing to blockmyface
whenyouonceplaced
my name into your skin
in a quiet champagne trip and
Gold
indented ribs
Take a sip.
If it's "poison" that touches your lips
THEN you could've skipped
dipped
flipped me onto the piles of rubbled glass
torn from your walls
placed carelessly cornered or left simply to fall
switched in
flip
some contorted reverse
though my heart refuses to pin you as
Perverse
when these colors emerged
Two Years of swells i Chose to forget
each time that i stayed when I knew
i should've left.
When Everybody told me Better was Mine
I wouldn't give in to believe that your heart was
Unkind.
From the moment I knew I'd clutched your stairway-ed arms
to
Ease My Ailing,
sweaty palms in driver-ed cars
Kermit Ruffins and philly beer bars
roller coasters, Christmas lights
endless pen-streamed journaled binds
An unopened book
pages still blank
more than a stitch to ease the pain of your name
though i mustn't Complain
...and I still can't Rejoice
But I'll watch the sunrise through Uncommon windows
trace folds of your fingers -- sweet struggled wake on your pillow
and dance foreign waltz in clipped black-wig nights
plated sweet nourriture to watch your delight
Watch you dance decorated as I set in Pride
hold me to standards --yet bend when I'm Right
Speak to me softly in quiet teared nights
tell me I'm beautiful when femininity cannot find
me
Drape me in curtains of love and Security
Fit so Securely in the curves of my body
Smile in shyness--like absence of tongue
as your cheeks lift to hide your eyes
in thin rungs
Gold plates of your stomach and skin over hips
saying my name through pleasurepursed lips
Pounding the pavement in carouseled times
not only Read, but Returned all my rhymes
The fortress is daunting
I'm brooding and swift
Sometimes the brick slips but the flips never Switch
So if russe folk dances and stealing lost tea
causes your coldness, just slightly, to bleed
Remember what I did
--to, your troubles, ease
Don't say for this new year I didn't
Prioritize your Needs
MARRY THEM, by all of all means
i never pushed you to choose, instead, me
I've learned my doors close,
i woke to realize
when those i thought open I faced and
denied
because nothing matches the pulses and start
--the warmth in my chest when your palms
press my heart
that's why with your Run i cannot understand
feelings and highs
unsustainable lands
I never demand - I never imply
but im also neverwrong
and i can't shake
You and I.
ifiampoison