So
Controversial
So I want you?
Do you want me?
Thinking of you
Thinking of me
Drives me absolutely wild
Watching you
Watching me
Makes me wonder
What do you want?
It's kind of dark
When you think about it
How lonely it is
Inside my head
But when you're there
It's like
The world
Gets brighter

I've been thinking
About the moon
Her sweet scent
Of jasmine and rose
She glances
Upon the night blossoms
And smiles
Her beaming light
It dances
Upon my skin
And her reflection
Is just as beautiful
As her star-children
Sleep

Oh moon,
So pale
In the black velvet sky
With sparkling gems
To make wishes on
To accompany you,
Oh lovely moon,
How bright you shine
Gently on
This summer's night
The crickets sing
Me a lullaby
As I fall asleep
In the moon's arms
Her light cradling me
As my heavy lids droop

What have you done to me
The things you've done
Back and forth
You mess with my mind
I'm close to insanity
What kind of love
Take you brain
And switches it
With your heart

Let me go

It hurts

To be in your rose bush

The thorns

Are drawing blood into my throat

And it bubbles out of my mouth

But I can't see it

Because your beautiful roses

Are blinding me

My room
Is dark
A web
Of night
But in the corners of my room
Glow handfuls of sunlight
Shining gently
Like yellow fire

Forgive me
Lovely boy
For leaving you
All alone
For letting you cry
And crushing your roses
I promise
I will stay with you
And let you lie on me
While got tears paint your cheeks
And I will plant roses
With you

I want to drown
I want to breathe the water in
And never breathe out again
I want the salt water to burn the fresh cuts in my wrists
I want the dark to cradle me as I float into never ending sleep
I want to drift off
with no sign of life
I want to drown

When you laugh
I feel like I've done what I was meant to do
When you speak
It's like listening to my favorite song on a loop
When you move
It's like watching a wave dance
When you look at me
My heart rises like a hot air balloon
When you say goodbye
My heart aches for more

True nightmares aren't in color
True nightmares are in black and white
True nightmares don't end when you wake up

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of my s o u l

She was made
of gold
and marble
and she stood
above
the water.
A boy of stone
less looked at
stood hidden
behind
the ivy.
Forgotten
by most
he loved
the girl
made
of gold
and marble.
He
loved her
she
loved him
and they whispered
their love
in the night.

she was
shadow cast
born of dark
eyes like jewels
and a starry night sky
night dew as her tears
moon dust in her lungs
the moths were her butterflies
fireflies, her halo
she was
shadow cast

It hurts
All of it
An ache
What an insatiable hunger
I'm hurting
Are you?

Hello
I wish I could talk to you
Face to face
But
You're so far away
And
I can pretend you love me
But
It's not going to change the fact
That I'm not
Good enough

someplace
inside
covered in vines
and wildflowers
lays the best part of me
with thoughts of you
floating around like clouds
a heart-shaped hole
contains my memories
of when i was happy
of whispers
sang to the stars
and secrets
sang to the moon
of fireflies
in my hands
and sunlight
on my skin
of stretches
in the morning
with anticipation
of seeing you
that what's hidden
in the deepest part of me
if you look
hard enough
you'll see a smile
and a hand
that held
by an angel
by the name of
You
and if you try
you'll find
innocence
and
happiness

Anticipation
To see you
Excitement
Overflows
My heart
It swells
At the thought of you

What
Have you done
But tear me apart
Little tiny pieces
Of my broken heart
A day
An hour
A second
A year
Darling
It's useless
This irrational fear
I've been waiting
For relief
From the pain
But all
You do
Is hurt me again

Talking next to you for hours
Turning cigarettes into flowers
Listening to the cricket's song
Can't sleep, awake all night long
Thinking of your, your voice, your heart
Being away from you tore me apart
Dancing by the lake
Moon's reflections shattered
Darling, I will wait,
You are all that matters
Found a plastic bag,
filled it up with violets
Listen to the sound
Of forgetting the violence
Streetlights
And store lights
Wandering with you
Darling how
I wish I knew
What I mean to you

It hurts
And I'm tired
And messed up
But I still have hope

It's late
And I'm thinking of you
I hope you dream of me
And realize you love me

When the inky sky holds the sun
She'll pull him closer
The stars dancing in her hair
I'll slowly forget you
Even though I promised never to
I have to
So it doesn't hurt
At twilight
My thoughts
Turn to black velvet sky
Vast and star-lit
The night will kiss the sun
And say
I love you
Her eyes will shine
With her galaxy tears
And say goodbye
My memories fade
And I whisper goodbye
As you slowly disappear
From my mind

I want you to say
I love you

There's something about the way you smile
That lights my heart on fire
With a flame that shines through my eyes
The way you laugh
Fills my soul with content
A lazy smile
Stretches across my face
When you look at me
I can't help but feel
Worth it
Like I could be
The love of your life
You give me butterflies
When you say my name
And I feel
Real
Emotion
And I know
That I'm in love with you

I can't

I used to be happy
Laughing next to you
I was smiling
Just thinking about you
But now
I can't breath
My eyes
are dull
Maybe
You've changed
Or it's just me
But I can tell
that there's something
You don't care anymore
Have I done something wrong?
You were gone
And you didn't come back the same

Whisper
That you love me
With your arms
Circled around my waist
Softness in your eyes
While I fall asleep
In your embrace

Dance with me
Beneath the stars
Each one
A piece of stardust
That will always be ours
Arms around me
Lightning bugs take flight
With each step
Love so bright
Lips on my skin
Pillow soft touch
I know this is real
This is love

You were born with fear of the unknown
Afraid of the dark
Of being alone
You were born with fear
It lit up your eyes
and set your brain on fire
And I wanted to protect you

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One day that fire was quenched
Your love washed over me
And drowned it out
I stay in the dark
In between your arms
And you protected me
I was born with fear of the unknown
And I lived with the love of you

I love the way you smile
And I'd like to stay a while
But it's really hard to know
If I should stay or I should go
If I should love you even more
Or if I should let you go

I love you
I think I need you
I don't believe you
When you took speak
Your mind

Say you love me
Even if you don't
Say you want me
Promise you won't be alone

Darling I wish you would stay
Darling I'm going insane
Darling we're playing a game
Darling love me without shame

You love me
or you love me not
Pick a side
Tell me what you thought
What you thought when I cried
Almost died
Love me
Love me not

Running out of flowers
Petals falling
Making perfumed showers
I stand there
In the middle of the wind
Love me
Love me not
Darling have I sinned?

Tell me what to do
So you'll love me too
Love me
Love me not

Dancing in the headlights
Fireflies like shadows of stars
Smiles taste like strawberries
Hands hold like they'll never let go
It's about to rain
The skies hot tears
But we don't care
We talk by the river
Our feet dipped in
The moon's reflection shattered
As you push me in
Hold each other in dark
Our favorite song
Hand in hand
All night long

I wish I could create
Something meaningful

I'm burning up
It hurts too bad
Too much love
It's really sad
Cool me off
With your frozen heart
Too much emotion
is tearing me apart
I can't take it
My poor old heart
So much heat
I'm about to pass out
Rescue me
And pull me out
I know I can thaw it
That beautiful block of ice
You need some help
I can see it your eyes
Icy blue
I've got too much heat
Darling, you can take some from me

Colors
Drip from your heart
While you hold me.
You color me
Like the rainbow
Of your soul.
Opalescent dreams
Spill
From your lips.
You've colored me
Like a page.
I was black and white
Before you colored me in
With the taste of your lips.

i think you're really pretty
and you're so sweet
more than the cotton candy
i had at the pool
i think
that you're perfect
i think that you've got a lot of talent
you're my favorite thing to dream of
i think
that you're wonderful

you know that i love you
now what

It’s pouring outside.
Raindrops fall on my window.
Making small puddles

What is it you want
Despite what I try to think
I know it's not me

Call me home
Don't leave me alone
I want to be were your heart is
Call me home

Run around with me
Wake up the fireflies
My doubt slowly dies
Call me home

Lift me up
Inside your arms
Dance with me
In the rain

Mist
In my eyes
You tell me
I'm alright
Tell me not to cry
I'll be
Okay
You'll love me
Every day

Look at that smile
The smell of your skin
Love me any day
I'll let you in

Dancing
Crushing violets
You're where my heart is
You're my home

Lucy was a girl
With a bright red coat
Her kindness sweet
She was never alone
But sweet young Lucy
Didn't know
Her left from right from wrong
Sweet young Lucy
Didn't know the Devil's song
So our sweet young Lucy
When her cost was spattered with red
Didn't know when it happened
That her parents were dead
She bubbled with joy
And giggled so sweet
When Lucifer said her name
"Some day you will be my queen," He said
"After you play the Orphan's Game."
"I will see that if you win
You will be the ruler of sin."
So Lucy laughed and said of course
"Sweet dreams!"
She said,
To her parents while they bled
Now clueless Lucy played his game
And lied the homeless to sleep
To the blind man, the she said
"It's safe to cross the street."
She played his game
And told his lies
And the game had been won
But even then
When she was done
The chaos had
Just begun
She didn't know
What she had wrought
And pain and lashings
The devil man brought
But not to his queen
For she was his Lady in Red
Sweet young Lucy
Would never be dead
Lucy played
His Orphan's Game
Eventually sweet young Lucy
Soon grew up
And Lucy one day
Fell in love
Of course it was Satan's luck
The Lady in Red with the softest touch
It was a gory romance
The Queen of Sin
Let the devil man's
Emotions in
And since dear Lucy
Was all grown up
She gave in
To Lucifer's lust
And when I say
That blood was shed
Trust me
And Lucy's sweetness
Was not dead
Some call her darling
Or his Queen of Sin
Some call her Lucy
Or God, even
God was a woman
With a blood-stained coat
The devil man's wife
Swimming in her blood moat
Where the bodies of her parents
Would slowly float
And sometimes scratched
The bottom of the boat
Lucy has won
The Orphan's Game
Lucy had played
without shame
Lucy had had let
The devil in
And she became
The Queen of Sin

Sometimes I feel like the world is shutting me out.

Stupid
You're old enough now
You should know better
Don't even
Don't you dare
Don't you cry
****
It's spilling
Its
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Out
You ******* crybaby
STOP
Now everyone's worried
Well not everyone
He's not worried
He hasn't even noticed
He just walked by
*******
Crying even harder?
You wimp
S H U T  U P
I don't know why I'm crying okay?
Yes, you do
I don't
Liar
He's leaving
And he didn't even notice you
Wow
That's right
You're too old for this
It's not like you're special
Nearly every one has that black hole inside of them now
Fill it with food
Or material things
Or strangers
But it won't work
You think that there's someone out there for you?
Someone who will fill you?
Make you better
Stupid *****
No one will do that for you
So ******* grow up
and stop crying

Stop crying

I'll never be recognized
For who I want to be
No one will care about me
For the things I see
The beauty in my words
No one really cares
None of my efforts
Really compare