that feeling you get when you see others living in the moment you’re there in this moment, but not the focus of it on the sidelines, you’re like a ghost you aren’t part of the moment, but you contribute to its existence
like a side character, you don’t interfere watch as the main characters make the moment clear you don’t dare to step past the invisible boundaries, fearing you’ll ruin the moment
like a camera, you catch the moment, but you aren’t part of it it’s like a coming of age movie, except you’re the extra with one line
people say you’re the main character, but you know that isn’t true the main character doesn’t watch from a bench the main character doesn’t swipe through stories of friends the main character doesn’t stand under a roof as people play in the rain
you’re the side character, and you know it you’re the side character, just living through the moment
We never have the essential answers, to the questions in our daily lives. God takes the lead and remains in control. God touches our hearts beyond wishes untold. I know you’re hurting so very much; I want to help but I don’t know how. This storm of yours is barreling toward you; sweeping you up and spinning you within. You hide behind your strength for others; but you my friend need someone too! I can’t imagine, in my wildest dream the intensity of your pain; the complexity of your damaged will! To lose so many whom you love so dearly, has got to be robbing your emotion. When your insides feel like a drowning sorrow, When your days and nights regret tomorrow, When your eyes tear up behind their sockets, (because you refuse to let your feelings show). When you just don’t want to be the “old” you, When you can’t see yourself making it through. When you just can’t seem to gain any control. When you feel like giving it all up for good, When your pain and hurt is misunderstood. Always remember what I am saying. Dearest friend in “my whole wide world”, Our Heavenly father is right by your side. We have our pain and rock hard endings. We have our trials and tribulations. We have our moments of dis-repair.
We have our moments when we just don’t care. But you serve a God who is all around you. Holding you close in your raging storm. You may not see it; you may not feel it. But God is standing faithfully behind you; waiting for you to Trust him and fall.
How's the sea without your kisses That usher in the death of many suns When the day is done, the sunset is for us But, you aren't there, I wish you were
In an eternal sleep, celebrating our adolescence On the salty air, seagulls float without care We could be just like them, and when the sun comes I just want you sleeping beside me, and you no longer awake
Counting sheep to keep that fragility so cherished In an embrace, a calm will break every inchoate barrier With an influx of waves keeping the depression away We will be sitting on the dock of the bay
And just like the moon We all have the dark side concealed withing ourselves, rugged from scars of time, craters of hopes and dreams that can't be known- at all and just like the tidal force it has slowed us to the point where we always put on the bright side...