she made me speechless,
everyday words could
never describe her,
so i found beautiful
words that described
the beautiful her.

hearts and minds have become televised
we give every part of us for the world to
see and judge, because we crave attention
and criticism more than ever, just so we
can hold a grudge, like fudge
when have we ever
seen a society more damaged
than our own?

i feel drunk when i think
about you
like
you were a past memory
a dream
fantasy
as if you were never real

you search deeply in her eyes for pieces of me

you seem to fail everytime
and give her up easily
just like one. two. three.

you fall asleep
hoping and dreaming
to erase memories of me

but you're too blind to
be able to search & see
for the special key
that'll help you
forget me

for i am your biggest regret
your most stressing debt
your worst threat
but don't fret or
sweat

i'm sure you'll
forget our little
duet someday
.

poetry for me is not the emotions i'm feeling,
but the emotions i felt
for they have been transformed into words and onto paper,
and are no longer apart of me,
but instead are now apart of something bigger, and far beyond me
.

we're going to experience new sadness
new happiness
new pieces of you
you've never seen before
we're going to explore ourselves more
express ourselves more
allow people to hurt us of course
b u t

we dye our hair to show how much we don't give a ******* care

about the rules,

we bang our heads to the music, and wave our hands in the air

looking like fools,

we drown ourselves in red bulls,

as we try our best to recieve an A+

at being cool,

ignoring everything we learned in school,

because there's no time to learn,

life is currently kicking me in the back,
as my parents, teachers, and peers continue to tell me what i lack,
i silently listen and undertand that the words they tell me, are actually facts,
i really do need to get better at this and that,
but instead i walk outside the door of disbelief,
and on to a mat
that reads,
welcome to pursuing dreams and possibilities,*
which leads

your eyes were powerful.
they held lightning bolts
and stories that were hidden,
as if they were forbidden
to be told.
your eyes were filled with
lightning,
and oh how they striked me everytime.

☆
to him;;


you used to be my muse,
who made me feel many different blues,
but now you're gone,
and I miss you,
i miss when it used to be blue,
I guess I'll just look for someone new,
a different muse
.
[inspired my samuel seo]

even if you were to fill my heart
with every star
that shines across the universe,
even if you were to fill my heart
with endless amount of tears, and scars,
even you were to fill my heart
with oceans and oceans colored in blue
,

my parents have showed me that love isn't a life long seal,

it's more of just a temporary feel,

it's kind of like a movie reel,

you think as if though it'll last forever,

until it ends

and you realise it isn't real,

just a s m a l l temporary feel
.

i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate y o u

not only had i loved you

i adored you,

i

    adored

                    you.



but even as i adored you,

you still came toward me,

with a glistening sword,

inbetween, what i thought

to be your precious fingers,

and stabbed my heart, as if

as if it were a piece of cardboard,

you ripped it apart, you ripped me

apart and yet,

i

still

adored

you,

darling, how i adored you.

we're so engulfed in love, society, work, and other things, that sometimes we forget to stop

and b r e a t h e
.

lead me, lead me

show me the way

tell what to do

tell me what to say


lead me, lead me

let me know

which road to follow

tell me if i should go
north
east
south
or west

tell me which path
will fit me best,

lead me, lead me

my heart, my compass.

i have become obsessed with the idea or theory,

that death may be the only way i'll finally be able to breathe,

that death will be the only way i'll be happy and filled with glee,

that death will be the only way i'll be able to understand peace,

that death will be the only way, i can actually be f r e e.

death
death
death,
please come and rescue me.

i remember
being pure and free
but it all stopped eventually
and slowly
,
society
reality
parents
teachers
peers
and more things begin to pressure me
,
but i guess
i should be thankful
for these things have
greatly changed me,
to the beautiful diamond i've
come to be.

you don't visit me in my dreams anymore, and i miss you now
more than i ever have before.

i feel as if though i've been in the dark for awhile now,

and it's taking forever for the sun to rise,

i'm fighting all of these nightmares, fears, stress, and etc.

mr. sun, where are you?

i need to see you rise so i can too.

i know you may feel a little blue sometimes,
but just remember that the sun will rise and so will you.

i'm tired of lying,
i'm tired of sighing,
i'm tired of trying,
i give up
and i feel like i'm dying
.

so, hey.
it's me.
remember? the girl you left without saying goodbye or anything. i'm pretty sure you've forgotten me by now, but that's okay.
i just wanted to ask you a favour.
its not big. i promise.
but please, i'm begging.
all i ask, is that you leave my thoughts. my heart. just leave me.
please. so i can be free.

everytime i finally get over you
you always seem to crawl back
kind of like an anxiety attack
and of course
there's always this undeniable force
that draws me back to you
you then promise you'd never leave
but you know what they say
don't make promises you can't keep
i don't know why i always seem to stay
maybe it's the stars in your eyes, that i wish upon
to believe
what you
say is
true
but it never is.
all i want to do is get over you.

the dogs are barking even louder than before,
it seems as if though america is waging war,
everyone is locking their doors,
no one knows who to trust anymore,
i'm sitting here looking left and right,
not knowing why there are all of these fights,
it's getting harder for me to sleep at night,
my nightmares are getting worse,
this life is a curse.

kiss me hard
before you go,
let me know
that you'll
be back
when the
sun goes and
the moon
begins to
glow
;
please
kiss me
hard
before
you
go
.

you let the drink consume you whole,
and slowly you became emotionless
like a ghoul,
i stand tiredly in front of you,
as i watch your mind
go from yellow to blue
sometimes i wonder
if you're trying
to find
yourself
somewhere
in
that
beer
bottle
.

i don't mean to push you away.
i really don't.
i just need to know that
when i do,
you'll pull me
closer
and ask
me to
s t a y
.

i didn't want you to leave,
it's just that my thoughts and anxiety,
got the best of me,
i begged you to stay in my mind,
but my mouth was saying otherwise,
i was yelling at you,
screaming lies,
but if you listened a bit harder,
you would have heard my heart's cries,
i really didn't want to let you go,
i guess
i just wanted you to know
.

save me
i need
your love
before i
f
a
   l
     l
       .

wouldn't it be amazing to
place a blade upon my skin
just so i can feel something
a g a i n

she inhaled his toxic words,
and let them travel down to
her lungs,
which caused them to ,
poison her heart,
but within
that poisoned heart,
birthed beautiful art,
which lead to a new start
.

i don't think i like you.
nor do i think i'm in love with you.
it's something much more than this thing people would portray as a crush.
you are so much more.
i can't even find the words to explain it.
and that, my love, scares me very much.

all
you
did
was say hello
and within that word
i could alrealdy feel the flowers
within my lungs
beginning to grow.

these scars upon my wrists will fade, but my strength will not.

i will forever be a prisoner,
in this cage,
for my cry for help is nothing but a whisper,
it's as if,
it's as if,
everytime i need someone,
they all disappear,
but yet when my smile,
and postivity comes back,
everyone reappears
just
like
that
.

you told me I was nothing
compared to her,
I told you she would hurt you,
but you were too blind to understand,
and now you're crying & slowly dying,
reaching for my hand,
begging for me to give you a second chance.
sorry love.
you lost me, when those painful words spilled from your mouth, flowed through my ears,
and settled in my mind,
causing fears to reappear.
that hurt me so much,
but that's okay.
because I told you she would hurt you one day.

he was a universe wrapped in skin,
and within
every limb
there were
galaxies flowing
in him
.

don't add me into your life,
just to subtract me out, alright?
please don't divide my heart in half,
just to walk away and laugh,
don't try to solve me like an algebraic equation,
unless you're patient,
if not,
you might as well give up and go on vacation,
i'm too complicated,
you can go and ask all the past guys i've dated,
you may be smart math boy,
but trust me,
i'm smarter than all of your other toys.

bruises, cuts, and scars can go away,
but words, but words, but words,
will always stick and s t a y.

she strives for perfection,
because she doesn't like her complexion,
insecurities,
impurities,
maturities,
she fears,
that she'll be the exact reflection
of her mother
in a couple of years,
rougher,
tougher,
oh how,
she'll suffer
she strives for perfection,
because she doesn't like her
complexion,
her mind is a collection
of,
negative thoughts,
wars lost and fought,
dreams beginning to rot,
hope being sought,
she strives for perfection,
because she doesn't like her complexion,
correction,
she strives for perfection,
because she fears no one will like her complexion.

she could feel the anger,
building up in her ever forest veins,
she knew she was in danger,
it's bringing too much pain,
she could feel the hatred,
flow like rivers,
in her cold blue eyes,
she could feel the firey magma,
resting in her core,
it was burning hotter than it ever has before,
her mouth flew open like a door,
erupting words filled with
pain,
sadness,
and
relief
as people's
faces held
disbelief
.