It's important to remember that missing someone who hurt you
does not make you a *******,
and it does not make you damaged.
In fact, it only speaks even louder the fact that
your love was too big for them to hold.
So miss people. Miss them even though they don't deserve to be missed.
Announce that you love me. At least to your best friends. I can’t bear to think that I’m not your trophy to be proud of. I can’t accept that my ray of light becomes dimmer day by day. I can’t stand the thought of sitting like a tomb in your soul, camouflaging with darkness that engulfs all sense of love. I can’t swallow the fact your face didn’t spark when you said I was your everything. I can’t comprehend when my existence in your world ain’t shimmer like a dewdrop catching the sun.
Announce that you love me. At least to your siblings. I don’t want to stay timid in the darkest compartment of your heart. I refuse to admit that you ignore me in four days — summer, autumn, winter and spring; three days — yesterday, today and tomorrow; two days — day and night; one day — everyday. I deny that you don’t feel immortal anymore when I linger around you. I oppose the idea of maybe your love to me is paperweight.
Announce that you love me. At least to your heart. Do my picture still be your favourite wallpaper? Do your heart palpitates everytime you hear my name? Do my warm embrace puts an end to your insecurities? Do your mind still replays our memories of spending time together when sun came out, and we were miles away from anywhere? Do. I. Actually. Exist. In. Your. Universe?
I never doubt my love to you. It is you who should stop underappreciating me, and start loving again.
Stop taking love for granted.
Chipped or ***** or dying
and you can't look past it.
What's special about new? Or is it
that it is
How much beauty
can you see
I'd like to believe you see worth
in the imperfections
But what do I know
of your soul, really? And who is to say
you will leave me in any better shape
All I can do is hope.
Why do I always sit alone?
Why am I afraid?
I just can't ever condone
The stupid things people say.
Is this problem theirs?
Or is it purely mine,
I guess nobody cares,
For me nobody pines.
Why don't I loosen up?
Why don't I just have a drink?
Because my head is way too full,
I can't even hear myself think.
I know I don't need to keep this up,
I could just please the crowd,
But so far I've still got some luck
I don't want to run out.
Some day, someone will get me,
They'll understand my ways,
Then together we can party
For the rest of our perfect days.
Being forced into my mind
And into my body
And into my heart
Is an excruciating prison for someone
Who grew up living
As an escape artist.
I used everything I had control over
At the time and the only thing
I had was my mind.
So every morning until the night
I'd let my mind and soul
To cope with the monsters
I had to fight.
Dreaming in my wake
And in my sleep
Hoping that, by morning,
You ruined my life.
My every waking day
Shattered by yelling
And the constant verbal abuse.
Nothing satisfied you.
Now nothing satisfies me.
I've run in every direction.
My daydreams tried to take me
But you wouldn't set me free,
You couldn't just be kind
So I turned to alcohol until
It burned my insides that I realized
That it isn't fun anymore.
It's just poison and I'm useless,
Mindless on the floor.
So I chose to smoke some ****
Hoping it'd get rid of the
And it did..
For a while.
And now it's not the same
Because all it brings is numbness
No longer a smile and heightens the pain.
Now I'm stuck here.
In my body and in my mind
And weirdly enough
The real world feels more fake
Than my dreams ever did.
Forever ******* miserable
Because I have a damaged inner kid.
Inner child screaming at me for support but I never had that so how can I do that?
To the girl
Shiny nose ring
A black rose tattoo
On her ankle
A damaged soul
With half cresent smiles
Crookedly woven smiles
Who always rejected
Maybe because of
Trust and daddy issues
Her dark heart and colorful mind.
@roguelover in mirakee
It's always the damaged girl you tryna get💔
why did she damage me?
so permanent and irreparably.
so much so that
I wake at night and struggle to breath
as her hands
wrap around my throat
and squeeze the last small breaths
out of little eight year old me.
so much so
that I can't trust
so much so
that it takes pain
to help me feel
some sort of release.
why did she have to damage me?
The older I get
more the reality smothers me
All the pain I've felt
nothing but the curse to stay alive.
Living in a tiresome roulette
Bending every rule that's out there.
Walking away from blind perception everyday
Alone I stand. Alone I stay.
I'll look down where you're all standing
All I see, herd of sheep!
All those lies you let it surround you
burning your lives with what you don't have.
This world rejects me
Or is it the other way around?
I don't believe what this world is about
And then this world threw me the **** away
I'm not the one to fall in line,
but this world's gonna have to pay!
Something inside of me
just screams out loud.
This thing inside of me
don't belong in your crowd.
The older I get
all your ******* lies bother me.
And all that I've felt...
the agony to watch this whole world burn!
I am what you can't see.
I am what you failed to understand.
Someone you hate to see right.
Something you won't believe.
Yet I am your burning desire,
And you know
I am the future!
Some what damaged. Some what broken.
Yet a better whole than you!
my interpretation in how the common people feel against world leaders and their imbecile followers...
Fractured pieces of a fairytale lie in front of me.
The broken boy meets the broken girl and they stitch up their pieces while substituting lust instead of love.
We watched the secret gardens bloom and the paths fill with overgrowth that was never tended too.
I love you finally felt underrated & i one this drowning feeling was the emotions I kept hidden for so long trying to surface too quickly.
I stopped believing in fairytales when I was the young age of seventeen. When I watched the prince take his arrows and shoot me in the heart over and over again.
When I realized all the my friends men were nothing but liars and cheats.
I stopped believing in romance at the young age of twenty two. When I gave that prince another chance and he dug the knife deeper in my back than anyone else has ever done. When I started to notice the Icy chill run through my spine in each new bed I would try.
Here I am the ripe age of twenty eight trying to solve the puzzle of lust and love at first site and wondering if there is such thing. Wondering if maybe there is a chance for salvation and happiness somewhere down the overgrown path we haven’t taken.
That maybe, just maybe, that broken boy and that broken girl can hold hands and walk the wild path together.
That maybe, just maybe, we can wander the secret gardens and plant our own seeds of beauty.
But, then again, aren’t we just two lost souls desperately trying to find ourselves in the end?