I hate love my life so much
I wish it would just end go on infinite
If my entire life has been torture
My entire life has been beauty
Every waking moment pain bliss sleep
I can can't decipher or begin to explain
Yet I am forty eight words in.
Forever to end beginning tomorrow
I love with all my heart
I am dead inside.
I am like damp wood
and difficult to ignite
with a spark.
that would explain
why I dull the fires
I could help grow.
Hope you feel better than i do
Todays my moms birthday...
i feel so nervous
my stepdad called me a *** and goth over me being emo
and almost killed me for the 3rd time
i feel like the cover of a fricking Nirvana album
I don't kno any more
Don't you just feel like that sometimes
Like you just want to fall over dead
But it's not that easy
Well, except pulling the trigger :]
I know that I'm not
But is it okay
If I just let myself
Feel disgusting today?
I just feel gross today
is the ******* teacher
who tells you what you could have done to get an A
when you've already turned in your D level assignment.
have i learned anything?
Im so tired
This is meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Schools driving me crazy ish
The bliss of a good day is gone
A calm, dull darkness spreads in me
I don’t really feel sad
I don’t feel scared or worried
Neither excited nor happy
Actually, I don’t feel much at all
I just exist in some twisted, tiresome way
My head hurts of bad sleeping habits
And too little food
And I’m still wearing my tights pants
I never had the energy to take them off
My house is a mess and my kitchen is weary
But how can I clean when I can’t catch the glimpse of an energy boost
Not even a hint of a little hopefulness
How can I do things when I can barely keep myself awake?
My life is good and generally, I’m happy
But every time I set foot in this cursed apartment
It all comes back to me, like a light switch
And suddenly -
All that joy is gone
And what remains is merely a blanket from the past.
I know what I’m about...
I just don’t know who I am.