Thats how it began.
I never suspected
One with your face
and ask to play.
All of us
As I slowed time down
To watch you
Frame by frame.
My eyes kept looking,
My hands were shaking,
"What do I say?"
My heart was yelling.
I pretended I hurt my hand -
My first instict
Was to run away.
I never tell you how I felt,
And yet you knew it anyway.
I won't forget the day you came to me,
And told me you felt the same.
I purposefully walked away,
But you chased me,
You made me say
How I felt since that first day,
And now I wish
We had never met.
You lured me into your eyes
to drink my obsession,
With a little smile
i fall in temptation,
Here i am high of you,
Crying for your kisses,
Staggering to one side to the other,
Little by little
i forget my words,
From your eyes i melt
and your kisses sobers me.
Author: Gavin Sebake
©16 September 2017 - SA
the trees seemed to peer over us, a story that could begin,
with their leaves falling like autumn
in a country where there was no fall
the wind seemed to give me a little nudge—
in between our laughter i could have told you
i wanted to hold your hand
right when yours brushed mine
i could have asked you to tell me
if you had gotten home safely that night
right there and then i could have told you
that at night i pray for you,
that i always wish we had more time.
i was your blue skyline
were my purple sunrise.
there are stars above me
and, my god, they shine
like nothing ever changed.
(but they’re not as bright as the
stars i saw in your eyes
or as the stars you put in mine)
i miss you more than the moon misses
you were my sun
and i could not shine without you.
i’m not so bright anymore.
do you still adore
do you still adore
do you still
Please fix me
Grasping to you but not breathing
How are you dead with your heart still beating
Something deep within you
Watching as you wither and your mind turns needy
Honestly I'm greedy
Wanting to give unconditional love to someone who will always love and need me
I wanna be the thought in their mind
The load I carry is heavy
Never knew my mind could be so empty
The scary part is when I look in the mirror I don't realize that's me
Don't wanna be a name in a graveyard
Depression is so scary
Suicide takes too many
Victims rest easy
I know you didn't know me and I know you didn't "need" me
But when any kid dies at their own hands it leaves me grieving
So much pain
I feel it trying to kill me
But I won't let it
I'm too busy trying to fix me
i remember a dream i had
when you and i were still together
it was the one where you held me against you
and twirled my hair around your finger
and whispered sweet nothings into my waiting ears
and promised me you'd never hurt me
but i also remember waking up
alone, in your cold bedroom
you were already gone
and i could feel the bruises on my neck
in the shapes of your fingers
and i remember being terrified to get out of your bed
because you were pissed at me for no reason at all
and you were in the kitchen
waiting for me.