Ours was a complex relationship, Full of pride and bitter sweet, But underneath the fiery rage, The criticism and put downs, Were the broken hearts of a father and daughter, Who both wanted Above all, To love And Be loved.
I am pulling weeds from the garden and I want to scream "there is nothing wrong with you there is nothing wrong with you there is nothing wrong you" I am replacing you with something beautiful and hard to maintain because I value appearances more than growth There is nothing wrong with dandelions i swear, please do not develop a complex, I just cannot love you unless someone else does My father spent years weeding me and trust me it gets easier it hurts less if you learn to hate yourself the same way There is nothing wrong with you I just have to do this he is coming over later and he might remember he doesn't love me if he sees you here There is nothing wrong with you but I will **** you still Like my father Commended for everything I grow in the wake of what I **** There is nothing wrong with you I scream but I will throw you away and you will wonder what is wrong with you anyway He told me I have room to grow before hugging me goodbye There is nothing wrong with you he said I just don't want you here
I watched you swim Under the blue raspberry Pink vanilla Sugar spun sky The nostalgia of your innocence Made me realize My life could not be any sweeter Than this Then you proved me wrong With your gazed upward view And whispered Daddy I want to be just like you
i don't miss my parents like good daughter should simply because i have always been too independent
but recently i have been imagining crawling into bed with mom she would still hold me if i asked her to as tightly as she would've years ago
i wonder if i should ask her i wonder how i could hold back the tears that i feel welling up inside of me even now, miles and weeks away how do i apologize for not asking sooner? how could i ever make up for that?