There it goes again The never ending potholes My mind keeps falling into I guess the same way I drive Reckless and fast hoping Everything turns out okay Falling into every dip and pit Just barely making it out
The cogs in my brain need tuning The nerves need repair My body needs a new engine I’m just hanging in there My body’s cracking The paint is peeled I feel like there’s no salvation No way to get it healed.
I wish I could talk to you and tell you how I am feeling because I know you’d understand. You always did. And I know you’d help. The best you could. And it was always enough for me. But things are different now. I know that. So instead I will write you a message that I'll never send.
My dearest friend I will always love you But I must admit I am not the same When I was younger I was happier As we're older I grow colder My sadness turns to darkness Please don't be hurt If I go tonight Just remember that I love you Rebecca Like a sister I'll be better off You will never Need to worry anymore I'll be peaceful Never tearful again
I imagine my name like a small bomb going off That’s why no one says it anymore I imagine no one even tries I will be honest, I never liked it until You whispered it You’d say it across the whole room
You used to call me yours before I ever really was
Somebody say it Don’t you remember? The way you all used to, in sync Like a dream When you saw my face on a small screen Say my name
So that the letters bounce off the hairs on the back of your neck and jump up and slide down the soft dip in your ear and land on your fingers, walking up your wrist and over the tightrope veins of your arms gently, as to tease the blood beneath your skin with it’s turning heel and somehow you would remember
The freckles on my stomach you made friends with The laughter you painted and pushed up through my belly, tumbling through my lips and onto your fingers
You licked off the icing of our love and removed the knots from my hair and you kissed me all over before you turned out the light and you left
All the kisses I pressed into your shoulder
I know they’re still there Dormant; sparkling
I think you could find pieces of me if you looked hard enough, hiding in my favorite spots near your ear
Please don't tell me Did you rid your self of every Trace of me along your ribs A tingle at the edge of the morning
All the strands of hair I left in your beard The rubber bands under your pillow Pens staining the sheets and the presents I wrapped, one by one
Am I still there or am I being ashed out a car window
My socks still in the bottom drawer, the picture on your wall, my face deleted from your phone but not your mind, or does it work both ways? and when you turn it on in the middle of the night am I next to you, the light dim and my skin soft and we curl around each other
Can you still hear me or was my voice never loud enough to form a memory
You knew you'd hurt me. But I didn't know I'd hurt you.
I wish I knew how to whistle, And I wish I knew how to Play the guitar, or maybe piano. I wish I knew how to sing On pitch, or at least follow a tune. I wish I knew how to be a good friend, So maybe I would stop losing people, And I wish I was a better person Because right now it feels like All I do is ***** things up. I wish I knew how to fix this, and I wish That you know I’m sorry.