Inside this dislocated mind
Dreams are open to suggestions
Where in my neglected life
I chose to sit silent and calm

The hungry and vicious creatures
Drowned in their own selfish thoughts
Would never care about this soul
And life won't have mercy on me

Second chances, fresh piece
Guilty of being nice, cruelty
Knocks on the door proved
How much I was *******
Celebrate death on the string
You don’t have the guts now
Later, regret you’ve done right
Something special with you
It’s labelled on your head
You are different, let them ****
Mosquitoes die with a slap
Look yourself on the mirror
Put your mind fixed on good
Reel beef with the powerful
Save a lot of time without pawns
Move the queen and check mate
Proceed to be the first to act
Building a concrete base down
Stay on the top later, haters fade

Stressing up the nerves
Where they have some levels
Where pride will fall off
And the righteous always lose

There were many wrongs
To be corrected, to be proven
Neither they will nor us will learn
From the deeds we have entertained.

Where would this end?
Wish they'd listened
Peace please descend
Would if I'm terminated

One hell,
Trapped in debts
Believe me, I'm trustworthy

Two hell,
It's too much pressure
You lost the trust in me

Im counting,
This mount is precipice
I couldn't lean upon a tree

Both ends heating up strokes
On fire, life is under a volcano
Let me burst the way out
And melt down into a rock

To the milestones on the side
So far, I have walked alone
Waiting for a travel companion
To carry my weight with her
Laughing at silly jokes we share
I intend to keep her forever
And you have shown me things
Every traveler will see in his life

Then, passing time
We’ll share our heart
With some off springs
Blossomed out of her beauty
Her smile will be painted
As a perfect picture
On their little shining faces

Together, we will journey more
Till the end of the road
And depart away with her
Leaving wisdom and provision
To the ones we cared the most
I’ll carry her through the heavens
To an eternal garden of harmony

You played Tetris
Saw everything as wits
Between worlds, far away
Held a grudge, held on it tight
Things we say to stay away
Lost the appetite for a bite

Grab on it as it never will go away
Take the stand and never let it go
I don't ever want to make promises
That will lead me to my self-destruction

Who are you?
If they pull the trigger and shoot you
What could you do in a minute?
Fast walking and sprint
Like you never seen them
Surviving all the cramps
You must run fast as you can
Today shouldn't be your last
You could be as high as clouds
Can you fly, can you climb?
Can you wait until the light
Sparks of some fire shots in the dark
It's closer, too closer
Till they rip out your heart
With them bullets

Luxury is nothing
By the time
When you gather wealth
With all your strength
You could've helped the poor
Step forward for the better one
Ignite the light of wisdom
And listen to the wise ones

Have we gone so far?
We reached to the stars
We learned the galaxies
Soon will reach another world
Replace the wealth from here
Coz we believe, on the other side
We could live without trouble
But everything will be
Over soon, leaving nothing
But your deeds and wisdom

The moment of regrets
And wills
The time of extreme fear
Of loss

The blurred visions
The farthest symphonies
No,
Melting to the rhythmic voices
Merging by inches into shallow sounds
Where am I?

Wanted to wake up
Help was on the way
Looking up to the passing lights
On the ceiling, body paralyzed
Something has changed around

A slight pinching feeling
In my arm,
They hurried,
What are they trying to figure out?
Little traces of pieces to join me back to
Life, to come home
When the fluid light blurred in front of my eyes
Finally, awaited darkness and garden lights
Has taken me.

Hey, in that light red beauty
Walk to me, with that face glowing
I always wanted to get to know you
When that lips spread wide
Wink at me, the sun's heating it up
Type you in my heart, tattoo it up

Ain't the type of feeling I've felt
Never seen such a beautiful laugh
When you joke and laugh from far
Wish I could hear it all day closer
Will hold on to your arms forever

Your friends wave at me everyday
They've been seeing me staring at you
I hope you talked about it and shy away
You've got what I dreamt of beautiful

Seems we are blended
So into each other
Shy smiles, held down head
Tempts me to pinch
Those sweet cheeks
This isn't oxygen
It's your scented skin
Inducing perfume
You are one of a kind
Wink at me, tame me
Lock me inside your hands
I'll hold you tight
Squeeze your love
Fill you with pleasures

The bravery she thought
That she could handle
Bursted into tears that rot
Agony, a pathetic blown candle

She barely stepped in front
And shared a glance
We locked eyes that burnt
Innocence into wild stance

A strong armor to lean on
A shelter she seeked in me
I let her belief carry on
She have tamed the beast in me

If I had wings
I'd fly away from dramas
If I had fins
I'd swim away from them
That doesn't mean I'm weak
I won't have time to hate
Searching for admiration
I wouldn't have time to dig
My own grave
Humming sweet songs
Inside my head
Draining dirt from my mind
A free bird in the air

Beauty in your eyes
Like the brightest star
I keep staring at them
Never blinked, I swear

Can I, Keep you in mind?
I Won't ever let you down
Seeing you worry, I'm down
Please don't rip my heart out

Peel off the pain piercing your palms
Ornaments owned out of obituaries
Elsewhere endless errands of evil
Moaning for money and medication

I thought you were poor
Now I know
What's the difference

Hence,
I feel rich
And lost

Amid the obstacles, went through
A huge pit downward, survivors?
Who do you expect to fall for traps?
Said you thought through, roughly?

How many lives will end up in ropes?
How many futures crash on rail roads?
The purple papers start to stink blood
You smell the perfume with those stacks

How do we forgive a cold hearted man
Who exiled us from this land?
How could we smile and cry at once?
You blew gently, the fire still burns

How could you desire to be so safe?
When there's much more options
Who would feel safer if the other's armed?
But he's just protecting himself from you

When my child cries my heart breaks
Coz the rope of hope, couldn't hold on no more
I cannot tie my life on any edges
But to hang myself is shameless now

Fascination
Let alone my mind glow
Recruite every emotions
Brake, pause for a moment
It's one hell of a view

What is it too bright?
So powerful to grow refreshment
In a garden where hesitation rule
She had the strength to erase
Distress and draw peace in ease

I learn everyday, and rewrite
The past has made it difficult
To manage future, from present
Let the mistakes reflect with medals

Would my future be like
The dry leaf close to fire?
Like the droplet under sun?
Who could tear it apart?
Coz I will resurrect and pay
Everything like a strong wave

Back in time, I lost hope
Like every weak man
I'll have to step forward
Face every dramas

Dozen military attempting crimes
Some didn’t expect it on children
When they wear religious Kasaya
Holding swords daring the police
Meant for protection but witness
In front of them, being slaughtered
Will they ever step forward?
Yes, but without their body parts
I’ve seen pictures of red rivers
Seen bodies of babies floating
Here we quarrel about border issues
There they don’t ask, just swings
Flesh into fragments of butchered meat
Like it’s a tradition, they *****
Left the bodies unburied, as trophies
As lessons to teach who believed
For their choices, for they were free
For they expected independence
For they believed to live with peace

My knees, ankles bruised
By the stones they threw
Running for a better world
Can't even see a thing clearly
Coz my head is spinning
Fainted by the words they used
My eyes are bleeding with tears
This road would never end
My life would melt like ice
On a sunny day, half naked

He said dream
Not scream
God,
Another concussion

Well,
You should listen well
Tighten your belt
Don't lose

Grab a shovel
Dig deeper as well
Independent,
You always have

Is it cruel to silence a pregnant woman with a dozer
Sold their souls to a war criminal's thirst
Rationalizing every lies with more of them, so kosher
Ask the children died of starvation and thirst
Ever felt threatened by the fire they spit
Lessons never learned, or was it a skit

Prolonged offers stay unpaid
What took them to change?
Sides for every kinds quarrel
They want the land to be safe
Assured that won't happen again
They've been cheated every since
Nice dress you wear, who are you?
You got the people serve you
Innocence sparkle in every eyes
You can't see, politics is your blindness
How many social workers,
Do get attention other than media?
Save us, Oh lord! They forgot us

We know we are the reason
To destroy what you gifted us
This planet, we might leave
She can't bear us anymore
She's shivering, sneezing a lot
Fever has begun, who's drowning?
Do you need existence or science?
Stop planting bombs on her
She is not your experiment
Save us, Oh lord! They don't listen

You have become my nostalgia
Standing in the brink of my memory lane
Leaving behind clouds of tension
As my passion grew younger for you

If the time rewinds itself,
I would close my eyes and embrace you
Again, to leave me with scars
That won't heal soon

The first memory of smiles and giggles
Is the worst thing that hurts me more
I hate to admit to being addicted
To your curves and bountiful heart

Grinning at the memories
She left in my conscious mind
Like everything still seems present
The cherished times at her laughs
Left smiles of regret to take a chance

Through this road with music
Louder than the wilderness
Good Will Hunting final theme
I have to go see about a girl

The road longing as I accelerate
Take me to her heart once again
Make it my home in her forever
To return everyday and night

The table's empty in front of me
When the drought came
It took everything, and left this
Along with a greatest fear
What no body would wish for
What hatred and vengeance cared for
It could take me heights
But for nothing, it will perish
From the top to the ground
It will collapse, leaving nothing
But hatred itself and loneliness
It's when I'll crave for company
From love and kindness
They still reach out to me
Stay with me, until I betray them
Again, for my own doom than good

There is something shining
Like a spark of fire, behind
Am I in the wrong place?
I can't see no bridges near
Can't even feel my body

A nightmare just broke out
Like kingdoms on either sides
Struggling for some more land
Or for a girl they liked, or gold
When will men become men?

The dream is just a dream?
Will you ever learn from anything?
Even it's a folklore or contemporary
Climb high as you can, and study

A racist once told a black lady
You are pretty in that gown
She let him know what's inside
And he backed up for a moment
But her patience, smile and love
Made him feel better with her
He looked once again inside her
And saw peace, friendship and love
She didn't matter how she opened
It made him want to settle down
To live his life with that lady
Neither with her skin
Nor with her gown
But with her heart

Million miles away I watched the glowing stars
They shone bright as I stared all night long
If I had to wish for a shooting star to wish for
Some thing beautiful to happen in this world

When I woke, first tears fell on the newspaper
The headlines hurt more than the hot boiling tea
Ached more than the venom from a cobra
Merciless shooting stars on innocent lands

Whenever they decide to land, they land
Bombs threatening people around, killing
Soldiers striking at children and women
Labeling them terrorists, forging ahead

Coffee brown lit light skin
Silk rolled glowing lights
Heal my heart, mere smile
Shining through berry lips

Rose petal imprint on my cheeks
With a racecar engine
Beside fantast filled lungs
Her warmth touch, current spikes
Melodies, vocals can't compete

Here hear my heartbeats sweetheart
With a kind response, patting kisses

Legs trembled on the chair
I tried
But it only fails to stop
Am I in this mode solo?
I never held a thought alike
They never turned my hopes
Grabbed it, stacked up high
Where I try my lungs out
To reach, to jump higher

When frustration hits me
A pair of eyes haunted my moves
Spying every step I take
Is this how it goes on?

When every inch of my feelings don’t matter anymore
I write on a blank page with all I got, hitting back
Tell my brain I’m wrong even when I’m right
What if human race doesn’t exist this way
Yes! We slay every life we get hold on
Never matter their feelings when the priority is ours
And when your help descends as you see some fortune
In another hands, to celebrate his victory above all
And ever time you cry pleading help from God
Only this time the wild creature which ****** a million
Would turn screaming that he messed up, ruined his destiny
****** up lives that mattered the most, a moment of silence
All you listened to is to those white BS and Black dollars
Will you ever trust a pathetic white or a black ordinary?
Governments racing their ways to the top hiding crimes
Of their own, leaving innocents behind bars away from love
Will you ever listen instead of hearing? You’ve ****** up
Yeah, several times, something tells me you won’t watch their back
You know time comes when all these will turn upside down
Then where are you running with all these wealth and fake pride
Black eyes and red shirts, pools in shredded tears to a wide Pacific
Your slavery business is world wide, you put it on silence
You always put it on silent, when legends thrive for their kind

For what did you leave?
I never intended to lose
Sick and tired of the pain
Even when the songs play
My heart dances wrongly
If I’ve mistaken your love
Free me from this slavery
I’m desperate, addicted
What do I have to do?
To get some relief

Threatening the mind of a brave soldier
The dark forces will remain unexplained
Tell the generations ahead what’s colder
Tyranny or democracy, peace maintained?

Hell may fall upon those who tears apart
He chose to dispatch the strength acquired
Howling the deeds he did from the start
Heathen, called himself to meet the required

Eventually, we will foresee the future now
Evolving a supernova to explode by then
Even the universes need a leader to bow
Ever will you believe the lord by then?

Vanished theories, then will rise from
Vegetating brains, once hesitated to form
Vigorous thoughts, soon will drum
Violently, watching the prophecies form

:::::
thanks to Elizabeth Squires

A LIGHT TOUCH WITH MY BARE FOOT
ON THE LAWN IN A MISTY DAWN
THE RAYS HAVE TURNED RAINBOWS
IN EVERY DROPLETS ON THE LEAVES

A DEEP BREATHE INHALING THE MOISTURE
MADE MY LUNGS CALLING ON, SPRING
IN AND OUT OF ME, I FEEL THE TOUCH
NATURE, YOU’VE LET ME THE HAPPINESS

RISE AND BLOSSOM TO ALL THE ROSES
RISE AND DANCE WITH THE MELODY
THE BUZY BREEZE IS COOLING YOU
AND THE LEAVES ARE APPLAUDING TOO

Running for a shelter in the middle of a battlefield
Bullets screamed through hearts and minds
Fall for the pits, or on the mines trapped
Now the terror will survive, doves fought
Burning the leaves and turning ashes vanish
Awaiting the phoenix burn the way out
Smell the flesh in the flames and bombings
Let the soul rest in peace, let it breathe slowly
Huh? Hell in the direction, dust stuck in eyes
Light headed, hit on the ground, to the death mud
47's spitting golden fire, steal the cold, the soul
Mind the way, dirt mixed with fragments of dreams
Invitations, ring designs, birthday gifts
On the blood mud, the view, slowly faded, blank, then darkness

Will you rise when you fall?
Will you take in deep grief?
Can you stand in the line?
You've become so complete

Imperfections in your life
Take the steps ahead of yours
You'll be proud of yourself
Just look back and be grateful

How many miles have you run?
That is nothing but a tiny step
A million steps ahead, be ready
Learn from every levels you reach

Under the shade of a great tree
She is old enough to advise me
She had seen hell and heaven
Memories of gossips and love
The times when she couldn't help
When grownups planned chaos
The times of joyful tears
When children and birds played

Oh my child I've seen many things
Horrible things you wouldn't think
I'll lay my leaves on your shoulders
I'm too worried about your world
They once hanged swings on my ears
I shone like those earlings will last long
But soon they began hanging themselves

Pushed the freedom through me
Depressed, confused smoke puffs
Animals strolling in the streets
It's different now, motivations
Hallucinations, weird imaginations
Like fantasies in movies, flying
These capes can't save the moment
Thanks to the artists lending hands
Straight to the point, stranded
Honestly, felt like liberty jumped me
A million thoughts, dreams
Let the world decide my fate
Today, I write to inspire, while lost
The game changer, some day
The hesitation to stop this journey
And the spark spread the heat

Someone shout at them
Scare the beasts away
******* the clean ground
Suicidal animal viruses

Here, here, and there
Everywhere they shelter
Liabilities to the neighbors
Leaving migraine foams

Traces of their deeds
Scattered in the streets
Fighting for barks that’s louder
Bound to be the worst of all

I can hear you near
Sneaking through the door
I can hear your bangles
Chiming lust in my ears
Your shyness keeps it real
I'll set your desire in fire
Embrace me from behind
Hug me tight, that's right
I'll hold your tiny face
And pour a thousand kisses
Bend you back to bed
Bless you with my passion

Sometimes it feels like
Something reaching inside me
Pulling every hard memories
Pushing me down the pit of agony

Then I see your smiling face
And all of it drowns, deep down
When you climbed on my waist
Enjoying every bit of us together

Babe, darling, sweet dreams