water sheds from my eyes floating on the river instead of panicking i never felt so helpless in my life trying to hold on but i am vanishing slipping into the starry night tripping into my violent mind trying to hold on but i am vanishing
Sight of mine dulled to nothing but red. My aching fingers bleeding from the splayed out shards of glass. Time and time again, this feeling will never truly fade. The destruction that eases into every walk that I take.
The pent up pain that does not soothe It only comes in waves of doubt and an ache that runs deeply through my body. I can only sit in silence and wait for it to wash over as the never-ending wrath bounces in the corners of the room. No freedom found as I keep myself from lashing out.
My blood keeps dripping around my pooling ire. To lock up such a monster that laps away at every upset and disappointment There really is no telling when The day it stops rocking back and forth the dark curtained bedroom I try to subdue it in.
The day my warm blood no longer satisfies the steely blue light that edges its existence. And the way it bounces off of the crystal shards coated in crimson beneath my hands. Alcohol has never truly worked for me as much as I wished it did. What do I do when there is nothing I can do?
How will I cope when I can no longer keep from being violent?
how many protests have you watched now? how many devolving into riots? via violent actors, on either side what was gained, for those we lost? was it in vain? did the pay outweigh the cost? or was our venture defunct? would civil disobedience had been better sought? or a more brutal insurrection, to rival those we've been taught? just do like they'd wish and lay down and die
Limbs have faltered amidst a fast-paced act, Liquid fills you up. Antagonized in desperation, Reach out for the gun. This moment of ecstatic flavour Brought misery. The shivers, the strangest twists. Defiler is you.
Night is filled with red light from the sun And white-red mixture. Calls upon you the servant of god, With vicious intentions. Violate your existence, They forced the life out of you. In the end it all comes in place, The void is within.
Who expected nothing less of you, Whose eyes filled with tears, They would follow you and die, They'd always protect you. Would you follow their lead into light, Or succumb to this weakness? The fear of hurting them pains your mind. Defiled defiler.
May never escape this nightmare unscathed, May never reside in this homeland. The pain subsides yet the emptiness grows, The one that was you is no longer. They would have never understood, You'd never agree for a half-life. Trapped in a cage by events of the night, Your will still roams free on the inside.