Hi I’m back and I’m -
So cryptic. So embarrassing, but it feels so relieving.
What’s funny is you’ll take a peak inside, feel mortified by what you see, but you’ll never see the full picture.
It’s a lot but there’s no option other than to stay on the path and pick my feet up.
I guess ill continue walking till I’m bruised and bleeding, teary eyed, barely breathing, satisfied with myself when all my demons are defeated.
It’s misleading, people teach me love and pain and say they love me then deceive me?
That’s demeaning, it’s been a nightmare lately and this lack of sleep is getting to me.
Everything is getting to me.
I’m sick of all the drug abusing, dumb excuses, acting like I’m ******* useless.
?Acting dummy, ditsy, clueless.
All these lies that just abuse me.
Look inside, you think I want to stay here much longer? Would you choose pain if you felt that your pain had provided you comfort? Because it’s easy and you’ve got a little food in the cupboard?
That’s a tough one, huh.
Yeah that’s what’s been my personal struggle.
But lately I’ve been getting tired of these lack of views.
The windowless prison walls, the being stupid - act confused.
That’s weak as hell. Im finished with this and yes, I know I’ve said those words at least a million times.
I’ve always meant it when I did, it’s been a treacherous climb.
If any of y’all relate feel free to reach out some time. Life’s struggles don’t need to be a lonely experience.
Everybody goes through things, and listen man I know that you’re hearing this.
Just follow me, let’s put down our vices and take a walk.
There’s no need to be fearing this.