Black lines drip down this canvas Of blue tinged white like fallen snow I know it's grown colder so this Feeling of surprise climbs without reason Like finding santa's presents this season
This cold feels warm somehow My body and mind disagree Viewing my hairs stand in memory of freezing winds, changing a tire in sleeting weather, but all I remember is laying on the floor fireside with my familiar.
Blocked, caged in, suffocating smothered in pain significant other feeling abandoned while in your presence in your mental you're going insane no love lost, because no love gained! thought after thought living, but stuck in the past show no emotions-because having emotions is what got you here Finding a way back to the old you seems a far. such a long distance from you you know, the you that smiled alot whose face was once full of light The you that cared and actually enjoyed caring Soon those Deep Thoughts will make you realize what it is that you do you make everyone feel lonely while connected to you.
Let go of what or who has hurt you. Live in the present. Every person connected to you now needs your love! Be better for you and them. Get well soon!
I'm so successful In their minds I can function I am bright I smile I laugh I'm capable I'm eloquent I'm responsible I have a good job I'm quite skilled at it too I've got impressive grades I'm steps ahead in school I'll have a high-paying career I've got it all together I've perfected "success"
I'm not happy I want to cry I want to rip my heart out of my chest I desire to make myself weak I don't want to care for myself I don't have friends I don't have support I'm utterly alone I'm suffering terribly I can't keep my thoughts straight I struggle to keep the darkness at bay I'm in ruins