Here you were thinking Woww life is really great When you have people that love you When you have people that cherish you When you have people that adore you But what if, just what if thats all just in your mind What if you made up this fantasy in your head About everything you've ever wanted And everything you've ever craved for And told yourself that it exists What if you play scenarios that happen in one way and interpret it in three ways Multiplying the actual meaning of the scenarios What if you give credit to a person for being themselves but themselves is a liar What if no matter if that liar is a liar you're happy with it As the fantasy in your head is unwilling to let go of the part that liar plays But what if there's more than one liar What if they're all liars What if they've only told you what they wanted you to hear because you have high expectations of them And they know this and you know this So technically it's not their fault for being on the pedestals you've placed them on It's not their fault that you're unwilling to accept the garbage of this world It's not their fault that you keep fantasizing about a happy life with any and everyone that can adore you What if, just what if you can actually find that someday? What if you never find that You're tired of actively searching for people to give you what you can give them You're tired of being this woman that expects And expects And expects Should you or could you maintain this fantasy without completely And utterly falling apart From shame, from pain from torment Or should you just let it all go and just.. Just ....
existing in this land-sphere quite touch-and-go when you stare for something that you hope to when something expects to be with you until you discern that you obtained neither
things are unreachable on your own limitation useless is your own notion to gain nothing is the best way out that you ever made the excitement is just filled with none nothingness but the soreness
Sometimes it's okay to decide what may the worst of them may be the best for us. It is supposed to be our boundary of happiness to live in this unreliable world that isn't to them. Thinking of nothing is just one of the answers. Having our thought about how maybe concerned with our guilty may be living after is our decision, be wise to yourself and others at least.
Planning ahead of what to expect Boom and busts with wave theories where years pass by in seconds of time Caught by the net of cause or effect Have you questioned your existence An individuals singular thought process Serious intent forever or never in a room full of dust swept by a brush Are you content with eventual death ergo does a sense of self really protect
I wish the end will be better There is a chance if I push through, Conditioned to happily ever after I expect this will work out. The God is a better writer The ****** is stretching longer, Soon things will fall right There is an end to the night. But as I open my eyes, Nothing has changed I have to repeat my belief Believe that maybe One more day to see The end is coming Let's do this again. Wait when it begins My real life movie Is more than three hours long, The drama won't die down I should just switch off the TV Wake up the next day and see If I want to even read my book?