I'd **** myself if it meant it spared you all the pain, I'd willingly go crazy if it meant that you would stay sane I wish I didn't have to make an impossible choice, I'm trying to handle it with some grace and poise, I hate that I see your face devoid of a smile, I know it will remain like this for a while. I hate that I'm making your dreams disappear, I hate that I can't predict the future; it's so unclear. The world refuses to help in any way, I'm forced to hurt you, to ruin your every day. If I could ask the universe for just one boon, It would be for time to fly, so I can be with you, soon.
Anxiety is drowning me with thoughts G r i e f with the t o r m e n t i n g nightmare of the past On the m o m e n t that one of my dreams bit the dust No one noticed, nor dared to listen to my throes; when I'm Y e a r n i n g for true c o m f o r t.
Like Flowers My Life got wilted, despite the pouring Rain. The One whom I most needed, left Me in Agony and Pain. Trust when broken, is Poison. It seeps right thru your Head. Creeping into your whole System. Leaving U good as Dead. I thought She would trust Me. I thought She would Care. I thought She truly Loved Me and would always be There. I now........no longer feel so Open. I don't wish to show My Face. I find Life, is so very Cruel. After My love lost it's Race.
there was never anything to believe in to begin with my faith is a delusion visions to erase my mind distraught and at ease deep confusion here I am again, sulking in this great despair in my dream we named her Adela, and I remembered a reality before that Imagine dreaming of a daughter unborn… visions of her crying in your stomach… to feel that… to feel it all Part of me remembered that I discussed that with you (my love) A glimpse of her face My universe changed, it’s always too good to be true… my longing resurfaces when I browse through our photos, a broken journey I never feared loving too much Give myself away to see this through Give myself away through honesty Repercussions out of thin air Dreaming with you always Don’t want the memories to fade away I want to remember what it feels to watch you enjoy a meal, sweet little moments that help me sleep I don’t want to forget, but I can’t take it Crippling sensations It’s been a long day, it’ll be a long week… Month… year… shattered dreams My imagination runs wild when I think of the possibility of us… Intentions gone to waste… time I’d never give back for a trillion gazillion times 4 plus infinity dollars… I’d take an hour with you in my arms over a life where I never met you… so I wouldn’t feel this way… this… broken… Though the pieces are scattered… I must know I’m whole Misconceptions will destroy me…. To believe she is gone To be a ghost in this world… my love I think you’re gone… What’s a lasting love I’m going to end this one here Imagining what it would be like to be laughing together My world… senseless Little memories that’ll last me a life time… Happy knowing I can love someone this way… even if they don’t want to love me back I must I will… i hope it isn't a crime to long for the only truth i want to believe you