i used to lay on the snowed-in flowerbeds of nan's backyard. once it snowed enough, you couldn't tell that a ****** of perrenials slept peacefully there: all crushed and crooked beneath dirt and ice.
some days she'd come and join me if the ground was soft enough: we'd stargaze up into the cosmos of pine trees overhead and listen for the stillness of winter - the hush of silence that lingered in the air.
ivy and henbit writhed gingerly underfoot: a quiet dogfight of frozen earth that begged a sluggish spring to come out of hiding.
i wrote this an hour or two ago for a contest on allpoetry! the prompt was a video covering the spring snow storm that occurred in the northeast recently. it had to be less than 100 words and i'm pretty proud of it. cheers. (if you're interested, my username on there is @opheliaswam).
I adventured to the woods by one of the middle schools in my small town. Krueger outdoor environmental science center. It was towards the beginning of the end of a normally lengthy winter so there was still plenty of snow to cover most of the ground. Plenty of birds talking in their chirp language and plenty of rodents footprints from playing in the snow that covered the wooded foundation of earth. I found my way to a frozen little pond where it comes just off the creek to its own little basin of water. I slid on the solid ice and had my fun just like the free little bunnies, squirrels, and whatever land animals resides in these beautiful woods. I could tell they had their fun on the ice play land too because I could see the image of their tracks imprinted in what snow was laying on the face of the ice. There’s a decent sized dam at the start of the trail right next to the creek I was walking, what a relaxing view it was with the sound of the water rushing down it like a waterfall to the continuing side of the miles long creek. I came to a little divot in the trail where a small slanted hill dips down into the creek and it’s chilled water. I sat here on this hill to write this piece while the sun shines down directly on me keeping me warm and comfy while writing. Such a peace defining moment where you get to notice every little detail of the extraordinary nature life we’re given to observe and experience. The way pieces of tree bark, little sticks, leaves, and sediment float atop the creek water going whichever direction the drift carries them. The smell of damp dirt as I rubbed my hands in it to remember what it was like to be a kid and not care to play in the earth. More so just to be human, to be a mammal and bring myself one with the crusted surface and connect with the earth that homes my body and soul. There was a huge doe and buck playfully frolicking across the creek side I was sitting from; I only noticed them at first because they made their loud exhales of breath to communicate they were there. Either that or they were just breathing so heavy from playing and running for so long with each other aha. They must’ve knew I was friendly and wanted to give me a sight to look at and what a euphoric moment it was to enjoy the picture of them playing together. I went to get a closer look at the water and maybe dip my hands in it. I failed to notice how muddy the hill was and almost lost my footing in the sludge as I went down and barely escaped taking a swim in the freezing cold creek! While I was at the bottom of the hill I washed the mud off my hands from catching myself by palming the grime and not letting myself slip down any further. I know the birds got a kick out of watching me struggle not to take a dive into that ice cold water that I was so frantically trying to stay out of! =‘D I had to drop my phone just to stay on land and when I picked it up I noticed there was mud all over the casing of it! I wiped it off on my sweatshirt that I had already gotten mud all over the sleeve of from plunging to my elbows and hands and just kept writing. Or typing, whichever you want to call it on these cellular devices. After I sat there and soaked in the moment that nurtured my indulging senses for a while I simply got up and continued to the end of this trail. Then I back tracked through the trail and took some more time to go ice skating in my normal shoes. I followed my own footprints back onto the trail that I veered off of to find the little frozen over pond and went for a jog back to my warm cozy home and published this piece of simple writing explaining my adventurous and funny morning I had. Never forget to do this when you have free time from responsibility and the reality society in America has created for this generation. Explore your youthful intuition and let nature be one of the best friends you could ever ask for!
Nature walk in the trails of the wild things’ home
An ice cube Poured into the mold of least resistance Slowly Frozen Complacently numb What is this dripping? Searing pain as I begin to unthaw Discomfort as I spill over Emotions long forgotten barge in expecting welcomes How foreign they look And yet I feel warm
Today I wish to not wake up I wish to go from yesterday to tomorrow and forget that today ever exists I wish for the sun to stay below the horizon and the song birds to sleep past noon I wish this world to skip today
Today I wish to be nothing I wish to not be a mass of energy or to take up space on this planet I wish for Einstein to be wrong and Newton to be full of sh*t I wish this world breaks physics today
Today I wish for fire I wish to have water scald my throat and for food to become ash on my tongue I wish the air I breathe turns to smoke in my lungs and my skin to char from the heat of the sun I wish this world to burn today
Today I wish for ice I wish for no smile to melt my bitter heart and no embrace to warm my calloused soul I wish for Arctic wind to bring forth a new ice age and for frost to encircle my home I wish this world to freeze today
Today I wish for disaster I wish for my tears to flood the highest cities and my screams to cause cracks in the sea floor I wish for wild fires to incinerate all forests and global warming to melt the icecaps I wish this world to destroy today
Today I wish to have a chat with death I wish to be kissed by the lips of a viper and down hemlock until I’m no longer parched I wish for the gods to send down a new plague and Mother Nature to take revenge on us all I wish this world to die today
Today I wish for you to not care For today I wish that you turn your check the other way when you see me and you don’t whisper a word for the wrongness I am causing I wish for you to let my anger consume me until she can see it from the heavens and let me destroy myself until her absence feels less empty than I do I wish for today that you let me embrace death with open arms so I can be close to her once more Because Today I wish to no longer exist
But if you refuse to grant me any of these wishes than grant me this one simple request That today of all days you let me have this hate You let me have the same hate for myself that I have for this world on the day that it took her away
Somewhere along the line, you changed. You build walls all around you and wore armor against the world, You guarded your heart so well you could behave as though you didn't have one at all, Even now, it's a shabby broken thing but you still have it. Not a heart of stone nor of ice, But a fragile heart of glass Sharpened through all its edges to stop anyone from getting in, To stop the pain from getting out,
I understand why you wear armor, That's why I wear it too.
Days like this where I'm spinning Figure 8s, pirouettes, I'm balancing on one leg In the corner, I can see you mocking my flexibility Spin Spin Spin You're getting closer or maybe I am Then I'm falling Then I'm not A hand reaches out to grab mine one I've held a few times I swear for a second, red flashed before my eyes
So I lean in and whisper "Let's pretend it's real" We clutch the thread, so tightly in our hands It tangles through our fingers, wraps around our wrists and you use it to pull me up or I'm pulling you down It's one or the other now I don't know which one of us is falling anymore It started with me but your smile says otherwise
I say "I miss you" cause I almost missed you and you reply with another "I miss you" and that glimmer in your eyes just gets brighter and you smile again This time I mirror it, a smile for a smile A laugh for a laugh A nudge for a nudge A glance for a glance I see the way you look at me I think that's the way I look at you I feel the thread wrap tighter I feel us fall faster I'm pretty sure we're falling together Slipping on ice hurts like hell but we don't seem to mind since we're laughing again
I said "Push me off not pull me up" You say "Pull me down Don't push me away"