I do not only love you.. for that simple word could never be enough to convey your worth and value to me, as anyone can come to love, but you are infinitely more than just anyone..
I gaze at you, and my eyes find home; they find peace; they find safety, it's as if my soul is at rest, and I am at ease within your visage; the violent stream becoming stagnant and calm, my lungs escape their proverbial prison, and I can breath once more..
Through an unfathomable weight mired by strife and misery, my life was engulfed by a darkness I never once hoped could be calmed, nor absolved.. in you, with each step closer towards my being, I found an unending warmth, surrounding a heart which calls my name..
Not even my greatest demons stand a chance against the light you bring into my life.
Sweet resonance begets dreams, alive; through each word you find, in every breath you take to show my worth to you, it defines my existence; and in you, I see and feel myself. In you, I find every one of my dreams, awake.
"I long for your gentle touch and your warm embrace. Your hugs, your arms around me where I feel calm and safe"
To think such beauty would behold that from me, I can not deny that there must also be beauty within myself. In all my time, I had never imagined such a truth to ever exist.. it tears me asunder, and I am left struggling to believe what simply is, and fearing what could ever be..
You touched me without touching me; without knowing how, or when, or why, your presence was born unto my own; and through all the substance in the subtleties and nuance of your day, I find and garner substance within my own.
You've become the calm to my storm, when all I knew best to strive for was merely the strength to keep my neck above the waves; you reached out to my very soul.
I do not simply love you. I tremble at your presence, not because I feel fear or remorse for myself. I tremble knowing, you've finally arrived. I tremble knowing the depth of my feelings and intrigue of you can not be surpassed or compared to anyone before, or forever after your presence in my life.
I tremble now, and inevitably always, because the only thing left to fear, after having suffered a lifetime among ghosts of myself and death itself striding along as my only friend; the last and only thing I could ever fear anymore, is losing you, in any way.
I do not merely love you.
I Love Your existence, because by your gentle touch and fluent tenderness our hearts have entwined, I have come to realize the last thing I would have ever imagined, even upon my final moments in this reality, and life: through your persistent admiration and sweet echoes of loving candor; by such beautiful intent and conviction from and for you, I've come to also love myself.
My walls break. My fettered heart has become truly free, and I weep again.
Now, finally, through joy..
This is the only love I can know.. Someday, my darling, wherever you are...