Its not always easy to be patient,
They tell you it gets better
But they don't tell you when
Its not always easy to wake up,
You keep doing it anyways, but sometimes your bed feels like quicksand and you just barely make it out.
Some days, you don't make it out,
Some days you sink so deep into your sorrows that suddenly you're drowning in an ocean of hopelessness and your bed is the only place safe enough to land.
It's exhausting some days,
You go to work and you put on a smile even though everything inside you is falling apart, and they don't see,
You wonder how much longer you can keep pretending things are fine
But they keep saying that things get better
And you want to believe them,
You want to find your way back to the surface, that is a life you're not just surviving, but actually living
I know you want to get better. And I know right now you are struggling and I know that on the days where the only thing you accomplished was simply breathing, you feel like a failure, but hunny you are the exact opposite of that.
You are a fighter.
You are a survivor.
You are braver than anyone will ever know, surviving constant battles clawing at your mind every second of every day.
This does not make you weak my love.
This makes you strong.
I know people keep saying that things get better,
But they never tell you when.
You just have to take it one step at a time.
Pride yourself on accomplishing the little things that don't seem important in the grand scheme of things, but they are the things that are keeping you alive.
One step at a time my love,
One breath, one hour, one morning, one shopping trip, one shower, one day.
Some day, I promise you
All of these little things will eventually lead you back to the light.
Back to being hopeful for tomorrow's.