The fall was easy.
my heart had longed for you.
Loving you,
you loving me
came so naturally
Losing you was hard
watching you slip away
and there was nothing
I could do to make you stay.
I guess some things
aren’t meant forever
not everyone
gets a fairytale ending
-JRM

What kind of monster
builds a girl up so high
and tells her she can fly
only for the girl to realize
after she jumps
her wings are only fiction
and the the ground
is a lot harder than it looks
-JRM

I lay and listen,
the thumping of my
heart, echoing.
Emptiness
wrapped around me,
caressing my skin
invading my mind,
my reminder.
-JRM

Let me get drunk on your lips
and high in your hands;
hold me as I ride out this curious
combination.
Don’t let my lips get lonely
or my skin grow cold.
We both don’t need forever
only here and right now
shameless alcoholic for your lips
and stoner for your touch
-JRM

Ill always smile
when I think
about you.
Your soft touch,
your sweet smile,
your gentle laughter.
You give me hope;
hope about people
and about society.
Our paths crossed
for only a short while
but you made my
heart flutter,
you caught me
in a way I’ll always
remember.
-JRM

Only once
you promise.
An experience
that you won’t
ever forget.
One turns into
two, two turns
to three.
Your words
are so
sweet, so kind
encouraging me,
making me
comfortable.
I’ll **** you off
by the end
of the night,
but we’ll
kiss and make up
****** up
it’s hard
to remember
what made you
angry in the
first place.
-JRM

The excitement
of getting drunk
left me, but
I still drink daily.
Out of control?
Very possible.
Going to change it?
Probably not.
-JRM

Eyes that
convince a
girl to forget;
forget the world
forget her name
forget to breathe.
Such a convincing
smile and hands
that tease
and please.
A man made
for destruction;
destruction of a
girl with
no world
no name
no idea
how to breathe.
-JRM

There’s this
pressure
on my ribs
reminding me
of every choice
I’ve made
and doubted.
You can’t undo
things you’ve
done in this life,
and you can’t
move on
if your mind
won’t let you.
-JRM

The constant
crash breaking
through the salty
air, speaks to me
in a different
language.
Telling secrets
I swear to keep,
and whispering
perfect promises.
-JRM

You're stuck
in this daze;
confused
beyond
meaning.
You chose
to ignore
every single
warning,
and crawled
into bed
anyways.
You didn't
want to
believe
that life
would
**** the
hell out
of you and
not care
about the
damage
it left
behind.
-JRM

I write
fantasy…
well really
romance,
but
I always
looked at
romance
as more
of a
fantasy
anyways.
-JRM

I am a hopeless
romantic
with a terrible
fear of falling
in love.
-JRM

Let us dance
though the evening.
My steps may
be off, and I might
have two left feet
but as you roll me
through these sheets
the dance we make together
will be the best dance
I've ever danced.
-JRM

I want
the kind
of love
where
coffee
tastes
better
on your
lips.
-JRM

Let my
naked skin
be the drug
you've never
had; My love
the antidote
to all the
wicked things
you've had
to face.
I want to
chase away
your demons
from this night,
and leave
you not able
to speak
anything
but my name.
-JRM

I'm such a fool;
I fall too easily
with anyone
willing to love
me in the moment.
I get attached,
and they go home.
I end up the way
I started, only
feeling lonelier
than before 'hello'.
-JRM

I'll admit,
I've stumbled
more times
than I could
possible count,
I've sat on the
cold hard ground
and nearly
convinced myself
that this was it,
I was done,
and yet each
time I have
managed to
pick myself up
and give it
another shot.
I don't know
how many
chanced I'll
get in my
lifetime, but I
do know that
until my body
refuses,
I will continue
to stand
back up.
-JRM

Crawl across
this bed love,
and greet me with
your sweetest kiss.
I don't need a
million things
to bring a smile
to my lips,
just give me you
and I'll be content.
-JRM

Look at me;
watch as my body
caves to your
everything.
Your hands are
like a poison
seeping into
my skin,
infecting every
inch of my body.
But please,
continue on,
I won't dare ask
you to stop;
You're easily the
worst, best thing
that's ever happened
to me.
-JRM

Have you
ever stood
on a mountain
and looked over
this beautiful world?
If you squint hard
enough, I'm sure
you'd see the pain
and destruction
that everyone
complains about
on the daily…
or maybe not,
maybe you'd just
see the beauty,
maybe you'd see
this world how
it's supposed
to be seen,
an innocent
creation, looking
for it's purpose.
-JRM

You say
you want
someone to
understand
you.
To get you
on a deeper
level
and really
connect
with you...
Then why do
you push
every
willing
person
away?
-JRM

One day
you're going
to get everything
you deserve
and then some.
It may seem
like tomorrow
is a million
miles away,
but darling,
tomorrow
will be better.
-JRM

Like paper
and a match,
you know
exactly what
to say to draw
my anger
to the surface.
You somehow
always bring out
the absolute
worst in me.
-JRM

You pure soul,
shining onto this
world with nothing
but a smile;
Hoping for the best
in every situation,
and watching as it
fails, encouraging
to try once more.
-JRM

Run your
fingers
through my
hair, and like
always,
whisper
nothings into
the darkness;
You're getting
better at
filling my
mind with
sweetness
only to
disapear
before the sun
says hello.
-JRM

I'm the kind
they warn
you about.
The ones who
can produce
a grin at the
simple idea
of one,
and who
can flip a
switch in a
blink of an
eye and
show you the
darker side
of life
you never
imagined
could exist.
-JRM

You smile over
your cup, the liquid
filled to the brim.
My smile has no
power against
that look; the way
your eyes lock so
beautifully with mine.
Overflowing with
reminiscing thoughts
of our lust-filled
night. The way
we hold onto
each other as
if we were made
for the other.
-JRM

Roll with it;
make me believe
that the way you
look at me
is like you've
never loved
but in that
very moment,
and if in the morning
you pull your
skin from mine
and I never see
you again,
I can at least
have that.
-JRM

I want to bury
myself under
these warm blankets,
and wrap myself in your
strong arms.
Help me forget the
rest of the world today;
I don't mind if you
steal my breath,
I'd rather you
have it anyways.
-JRM

Let your lips
graze my skin,
leaving no
exposed patch
untouched.
Pepper my
broken pieces
with your perfect
bandaids and
mend the scars
I swear would
never leave.
I am utterly
convinced
you are the
antidote I
thought
I'd never
find.
-JRM

Silence invades my pores,
it travels through
my shaking bones,
and cripples me
to steady leak of salty sadness.
It's my own thoughts
that wound me the greatest;
they dig and they scratch,
reminding me of the pain
I've pushed away with all my strength.
Ease comes with days
the voices promise,
but yet, the pain continues
with each pound of my heart.
You left so sudden
in the dead of the night;
with the breeze you lifted
and slipped from this life.
To understand the why
dances at the front of my mind,
encouraging me to question
the explanation I've been given.
Satisfaction and understanding
will avoid me until the end.
Until my eyes see you again,
my big brother, and my best friend.
-JRM

Peel back
the layers of
insecurity
that's been
piled on
through-out
my twenty
years, and
wrap my
worried mind
with your
perfect
nothings.
-JRM

We are
victims
of our own
powerful
lust;
with you
I've
experienced
everything
that
I've never
done
before,
and
yet still
I desire
to learn
even
more.
-JRM

Kiss me once
upon the lips,
and speak to
me as if
my ears
are the most
important
you've ever
spoken to.
-JRM

Won't you come here love?
I want your lips pressed against mine;
I want you to be the
first sweet thing I taste.
The dose of caffeine
I desperately need upon the rising sun,
the jolt to get me through my day.
The one thing that proves to me;
I don't really need coffee.
-JRM

When silence
falls around
the house
is when my
monsters
come out
to play;
their claws
draw
and teeth
ready,
waiting
for the
moment
when my
back is turned
and my eyes
grow heavy.
-JRM

I can hear
my thoughts
bouncing around
my mind,
ricocheting
off of my
moments,
and critiquing
my actions.
I have never
understood
how I am so
******* myself
when the world
doesn't even seem
to notice
my biggest
mistakes.
-JRM

If they
could hear
the voices
inside of my
head
I'm sure
I'd be locked
away
quicker than
you could ever
imagine.
No one
understands
my little
quirks,
they don't
find my
ideas
amusing,
they'd rather
shove a pill
down my
throat,
and call me
normal.
-JRM

Talk to my
demons
(learn
how to)
****** my
angels.
-JRM

I know it isn't possible,
yet I still find myself
watching shadows
with extra care,
daring them to twitch,
all but convinced that
something unexplainable
and unimaginable
will happen before my eyes.
Maybe I've gone mad,
and need some magic pills
or maybe I just question
reality a bit more
and dare it to prove
the whole world wrong.
-JRM

Have you ever
stopped to listen
to the things
the clouds
are saying
as the rain
pours down
on this earth?
Maybe they had
a bad day,
and only need
a listening
ear.
-JRM

Bite me;
show me your inner
anger.
Inflict on me
the power
of your emotions.
I want to feel
your pain,
take away
your sadness,
and live through
your pleasure.
-JRM

I'm amused with the way
you act as if everything
should be handed to you.
As if you are greater
than everyone else;
as if you've somehow earned
a silver platter
severed to you.
-JRM

You wonder
why I wiggle
so much
why my legs
bounce,
and my hands
twitch.
Truth is,
my mind
can't slow down
It doesn't know
how to take a day off,
its far too good
at tormenting me
more and more
with each
passing second.

-JRM