I'm trying to act like a normal person. I'm trying to act like my mentality is stable. I'm trying to act like I am happy. I'm trying to push away depression. I'm trying. I'm getting nowhere. Is my trying good enough? Our am I not trying hard enough?
I have always been the different one. I have never understood the ways of people. How people work. How the rules of society have been laid down. I do not understand it. They call me paranoid. Crazy. I call myself an artist. What’s the difference really? All they’re trying to say is that I don’t belong with them. I can share my time with them from time to time. But I will never be them. They criticise me. They try to dignify me if they’re my friends. What is so shameful that I do that needs dignifying? What am I doing wrong? Why can I not be like them? Why can I not be normal?