I attended heaven’s visiting hours to fire my guardian angel but instead found a cracked fairytale hiding in the corner of a cloud, drowning in mist of sadness. it was starving for a happy ending, and explained to me, “it was a formal casualty, an exquisite terror” and the violins muted my lowercase screams
and I know it can’t be true but I remember it
about a person arriving in heaven and realizing they died
Your last words to me Left like ending credits Unable to grasp my attention Long, detailed in darkness Executed in thanks You gave a long explanation Why you had to go Leaving a numb sensation Does it hurt? I don't know. What was your intention To leave yet linger as though To cause and relieve the tension Like the last replay Of my favourite movie One I can no longer watch Because it was the end of our story
I am sure that I am over you and in the most loving way possible- you should know there are nights where I cry in gratefulness to the universe for separating us you should know that your words are no longer honey on my tongue I am not the girl I used to be I'm not held down by the weight of another human and I no longer write poetry to decorate your poison before you, I never knew how to run away without looking over my shoulder but the moment we said goodbye it was like every memory faded with you and I know you waste minutes and hours looking for the smell of my perfume in between your lonely sheets but you won't ever find me there again
What will I have of you to show Why I love you? What, can I raise in my cold hands to summon your warmth back into my blood? To speak of you, like snowflakes in space, to feel the shape of a name in my mouth? What part of my heart can I show, to make others understand? To who can I hold like you did, in my fever dreams, to breathe in my whispers and lock them away for rainy days? To who can I give these tears that betray my love?
Please. What can you leave for me Before you have to leave me?
His goodbyes were like the sunset A warm embrace leaving the day How calming was his presence As the sound of his steps fade away He reminds me of the sunset How I wish he would have stayed A sight of a beautiful ending Transitions to memories to my dismay I hold these memories close to me So I can put them on display As I wait for him to come again A beautiful ending on replay
So think about it for a while Doesn't it make you sad? To look at where we've ended up So far from everything we planned? I try and try to find solutions To the problems plaguing our hearts But as I put together the puzzle pieces I realize we are missing too many parts
I had the rest of this written down somewhere but lost it ):