Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
1.3k · Oct 2019
tell me the things i need
Jules Oct 2019
Tell me you don't love me
Tell me that you're ashamed
Tell me the things I need
To make me walk away
Even if you want me
Even if I may
Don't take my hand
And beg me to stay
Because I will
Forever remain
1.3k · Oct 2019
at least you're happy
Jules Oct 2019
I will admit, this is really hard. I know your just being you but part of me still feels that you still feel something. Even if that something is small. I think it still lingers in your mind. I can hear it in your voice. You definitely care. Even if this feeling may be a different type of love, you must agree that we have an unusual bond. A connection that not most have. I know your devoted to another. She actually seems really fun and inspiring. I know that's something you really need. She's really cute too. I genuinely hope she makes you happy. Even though this hurts, I still want you to finally be happy and feel okay in your own skin. I saw her story on your birthday and the photos and videos of you together, looks like she really does make you happy. And part of that makes me happy too, even with the other half hurting to witness. I'm sorry if me occasionally checking in on you and her seems a bit off. I can't help but be a little protective. I don't want to see you get hurt. I don't ever want to see you in pain. That would be worse. That would be something I couldn't immediately take away. No matter what happens between us, I hope your life is filled with much joy. After all, you deserve that much.
1.1k · Oct 2019
losing it all
Jules Oct 2019
Losing your love
Losing your light
Losing your friendship
Losing my mind
In the process
Of losing it all
Of losing you
1.0k · Oct 2019
for a minute
Jules Oct 2019
Lost myself
In the moment of it
I fell in love
With you for a minute
912 · Oct 2019
falling back
Jules Oct 2019
I changed my mind
For the third time
I don't believe in you anymore
I don't believe in us anymore
I don't believe in love anymore
My heart has taken too much to handle
My mind is left in impeccable shambles
Loving you was only a dream
Nothings forever
Even nothing it seems
But if I close my eyes
I feel once more
Myself falling back
to your crashing shores.
890 · Nov 2019
express my feelings
Jules Nov 2019
I never could express
how great it felt
to be with one
who made me feel
like myself.
Who put a smile
on my face,
to make me laugh
until it aches,
to make me shine
just like the stars
but all that's left
is all these scars.
And now it's gone.
And now I'm left
feeling haunted.
764 · Oct 2019
chasing wasted time
Jules Oct 2019
Tell me you're thoughts on us
Before I lose myself
I know I said I'm fine
But I can't help it
Am I chasing wasted time?
What could really be mine?
735 · Oct 2019
thank you
Jules Oct 2019
When I was a child, I had all these hopes and dreams.
I believed I was capable of anything.
But now as I'm older, the realization of the world around me finally sinks in.
Those fantasies and stories I once knew became sad tragedies that'll never be my life.
But something in my mind has shifted.
The color and brightness have once again come back into my existence.
Has the world always been so colorful?
It was the way you looked at me.
The look in your eyes sparked a feeling in me.
Almost as a renewal.
My inspiration came back.
And I just wanted to say...
thank you.
728 · Oct 2019
crazy baby
Jules Oct 2019
What I feel and what I deserve don't coincide
This is something different
Something I don't usually abide
I'm at a loss
I'm torn
I don't want it all to fall apart
This is crazy
but so are we baby
Jules Jan 2021
Nothing's wrong
Nothing's right
I lie awake
Crying in the night
Although I feel fine
I know I'm alright
But my mind is racing
At the thought of what might
566 · Oct 2019
blueberry
Jules Oct 2019
You saw a blueberry
On the corner of the sidewalk
Something you shouldn't have noticed
But unexpectedly took interest
In a blueberry
On the sidewalk

With each passing day
You'd see that blueberry
And with each passing day
You looked forward to it
To a blueberry
On the sidewalk

But eventually, the leaves will fall
And the snow will come
People will move on
And nothing will be left
Nothing at all
Not even a blueberry
On the sidewalk
503 · Oct 2019
hello old me
Jules Oct 2019
I wonder whether to be ignorant than aware
Would be worse
At least I'd be somewhat happy
On this perfect sunny earth
But I was never fond of summer to begin with
So I guess it doesn't matter if I'm here or nonexistent

Another part of me is kinda happy living free
To catch up with all the people and faces I used to be
Reminds me of home
from when I was younger
Who knew I'd miss the love and laughter
Like a brother
499 · Oct 2019
flyin by
Jules Oct 2019
Rollin through lights
Wasting time
I wonder where we'll go
Yeah we're flyin
flyin by
485 · Oct 2019
lonely
Jules Oct 2019
You're gone
You left me
Now I'm standing here
Lonely
You don't own me
But you showed me
How to be
A little happy
I'm sorry
For being sappy
But you moved on
To someone sadly

I tried twice
And again nothing
A blank stare
In silent suffering
Not left to die
But surely rotting
Away my mind
My heart unloving

You're gone
You left me
Here
Lonely
450 · Oct 2019
here we go again
Jules Oct 2019
I'm left with that feeling again
A hole thats so deep
It could inhabit the dead
I feel like a zombie
I've got depression I guess
But most importantly
I'm living life as though it's pretend
Here we go again
I'm ****** in the head
There's no light in this tunnel
I can't see where it ends
I'm lost
A living nightmare of ghosts instead
I have a monster taunting me
Sharing my head
Here we go again
445 · Nov 2019
my thoughts on you
Jules Nov 2019
My thoughts on you
seemed more angelic
than the reality
of what stood
before me.
442 · Nov 2019
never be the same
Jules Nov 2019
When we're together, you put my heart at ease
but this still hurts, you're no good for me
Can't say I don't jump whenever I hear your name
because of you, I'll never be the same
436 · Nov 2019
make believe
Jules Nov 2019
I knew for sure there was no guarantee
But what's the harm if I agree
For a few seconds
That what I see
Is more than just make believe
427 · Oct 2019
still obsessed
Jules Oct 2019
Back in July
you crossed my mind
And ever since
you never left
A slow, slow process
I can't deny
I fall for those eyes
every time
A few words
of which confessed
Blah blah blah
I'm still obsessed
409 · Oct 2019
better off
Jules Oct 2019
I grew through
What I went through
I still have
that same issue
I still have
that feeling of
Saying
that I miss you
When I see
your favorite color
I always think
I always wonder
What might have been
A former lover

But then I know
that I remember
You ******* ****
And I've done better
Off without you
I'll count the numbers
I'm better off
You'll always love her
I'm better off
And I'm no better
I'm better off
How'll I recover?
I'm better off
Without you

It always pains me
when I see you
two together
Just you wait
until you tell her
all the crazy
**** you've done
and that you'll never
stay forever
Or that you're scared
to be alone
you're always looking
at your phone
Hey what's it like
atop that thrown?
It must be nice
I wouldn't know


But then I know
that I remember
You ******* ****
And I've done better
Off without you
I'll count the numbers
I'm better off
You'll always love her
I'm better off
And I'm no better
I'm better off
How'll I recover?
I'm better off
Without you
396 · Oct 2019
on the fence
Jules Oct 2019
I'm on the boarder
Of losing my mind
What's with this guy?
Can you please choose a side?
Cuz I'm on the fence
With no more time
392 · Oct 2019
far far away
Jules Oct 2019
I don't take much interest these days
On the thoughts you have and the things you say
Sure, I may listen
Sure, I may pay
close attention to whats underway
but right now I feel tired
right now I'll just stay
far from you
far far away
389 · Oct 2019
won't apologize
Jules Oct 2019
I know I disappear occasionally
I lock myself in my room silently
Sitting alone
Just me on my own
Feeling so overwhelmed by all the noise

By all the people
By all the attention
By all the commotion

It takes a part of me
And leaves no emotion
I won't apologize
No
not this time
388 · Oct 2019
today
Jules Oct 2019
I think I'll quit my job today
I think I'll stay at home today
I think I'll drink some more today
I think I'll be okay today
386 · Oct 2019
hypnotized me
Jules Oct 2019
I saw you today
The room froze
A held breath
A skipped heartbeat
A smile that hypnotized me
374 · Oct 2019
no dm please
Jules Oct 2019
I'm drunk
At home
Alone
Again

I met
That girl
Who's she
Again

Tight curls
That girl
Striped pants
No chance

You shot
My heart
I can't
Pretend

To be happy
Tonight
So don't @me
Alright?
No dm please
I'm fine

I must
Avoid
The things
You say

Wake up
No luck
You're done
Okay?

I miss
Those nights
Up late
We sang

You shot
My heart
I can't
Pretend

To be happy
Tonight
So don't @me
Alright?
No dm please
I'm fine
363 · Oct 2019
ego boost
Jules Oct 2019
Some kid called you hot
Happens more often than not
I'm glad it's their to boost your ego
You feel uncomfortable
but yet enjoy it though?
348 · Nov 2019
lack of feeling
Jules Nov 2019
Why am I letting this hit me so hard?
It's over
I'm done
Goodbye
You're gone
I can't digest your lack of feeling
I can't begin this state of healing
347 · Oct 2019
thrill seeker
Jules Oct 2019
I enjoy the thrill of the unknown
The uncertainty is killing me
But I'm living for it
What can I say?
I'm a thrill seeker
What's next?
What's left?
What's yet to come?
Will we ever know or just let it all go?
329 · Oct 2019
nobody
Jules Oct 2019
Nobody's writing love songs about me
Nobody's longing to kiss me
Nobody's asking to hold my hand
Nobody's a somebody's no one of importance
Wishing I could be seen by you
Wishing I could be heard by you
Wishing I could be loved by you
But Nobody is who I am to you
321 · Oct 2019
love love
Jules Oct 2019
I love love
I love being in love
I love being loved
I love love
319 · Oct 2019
i'm a goner
Jules Oct 2019
I gave so much of myself up
But was it ever enough?
I don't wanna grow up
Upside down
Can't turn around
Another day
And I'm a goner
Mama I don't wanna feel no longer
304 · Oct 2019
more time
Jules Oct 2019
Don't worry
I'm in a hurry
A hurry to move on
A few more steps and I'm gone
Never to be mine
I need more time
300 · Oct 2019
i wouldn't mind
Jules Oct 2019
I don't wanna die
But if I could turn it off
I wouldn't mind
Can't say I'd ever try
Don't worry I wouldn't lie
But if I could turn if off
(right now)
I wouldn't mind
296 · Oct 2019
i'm doing much better
Jules Oct 2019
I'm doing much better
I think that it's the weather
I think that it's the fact I haven't seen you since December
I think it's in the sky
I think that I know why
I think it's cause I've recently been seein other guys
I'm doing much better
289 · Oct 2019
how i'm coping
Jules Oct 2019
Well I got what I wanted
And you're talking
Just what I expected
I'm cut wide open
Emoting
With no emotion
That's right
That's how I'm coping
283 · Oct 2019
icarus
Jules Oct 2019
I hit the ground with realization
I was so high up I didn't see the signs
I thought I could touch the stars
The heat of the sun finally took me down
281 · Oct 2019
make me say
Jules Oct 2019
What's the point in asking you for help?
Only makes more problems
What the hell
Much more simple
just to slip away
Goodness god
Don't make me have to say
it

Let's pretend we've never met before
Would you leave
or would you ask for more?
Look at me
and say it isn't true
Shamefully
you've wanted all this too

Over and over again
until it's gone
That's the price you pay for what you've done
Shifting rhythms
messing with the time
Chasing after
what's not really mine
281 · Oct 2019
i don't want it
Jules Oct 2019
If this is love
I want no part in it
The jealousy
The heartache
It's overwhelming
Stop
I don't want it
It fuels me with rage
Why am I so upset?
You're not even mine
280 · Oct 2019
untimely
Jules Oct 2019
Two beautiful people
Under a moon lit sky

A stream of tears
That leave the eye

Some call it a tragedy
Some call it a master piece

Whatever it is
It's something untimely
280 · Oct 2019
what's it like to let me go
Jules Oct 2019
What's it like to let me go?
I asked you twice and still don't know
I'd never thought you'd stoop so low
At least I've learned to manage though
All the pain
And all the shame
You put me through
For all my being was never enough
I can't believe I ever had loved you
Why on earth did I ever love you?
Why did I love you?
I loved you
279 · Oct 2019
beginning of time
Jules Oct 2019
I can't control your life
You can't let go of mine
Waiting
Hating
What's left in my mind
You seem to cross my memory
If I choose close my eyes
Forever
I'll see
What's next on the other side
Yet I'm left in ponder
It's only half passed nine
But it feels like a century
Like the beginning of time
Since you said goodbye
276 · Oct 2019
never be me
Jules Oct 2019
Surrounded by impeccable noise
This was nothing but my choice
Goodness gracious
I lost my voice
So anxious I can't breath
I think it's from Ms. Melody
How beautifully she's made
You flew to her aid
My heart has been awoken
Living to be broken
Needing be free
It'll never be me
273 · Oct 2019
the feeling of alone
Jules Oct 2019
Exclusively with one's self
Is how life's led to calamity
It's uncommon to shout in a crisis
Who's left to clean up the messes?
The feeling of alone
Is so cold
The feeling of alone
Changed my soul
The feeling of alone
Can I go home?
270 · Oct 2019
i'd wish
Jules Oct 2019
An empty bottle is all I kiss
And if a genie came out
I think I'd wish
I'd never had met you
I'll always regret you
The night that I met you
The year that I gave
I said that I loved you
270 · Oct 2019
as it rains
Jules Oct 2019
As it rains
I feel some sort of way
A feeling so deep
I can't possibly say
the things that weigh
upon my mind
How do I change it?
Where do I go?
It takes me hostage
more than you know
But as I sit here
on the side
You gaze right at me
One of a kind
263 · Oct 2019
consoling a friend
Jules Oct 2019
I heard you singing by the water
It wet my eyes with the pain
I know it's hard because you loved her
That's something I couldn't erase

Is it alright if I sit here?
Just for a while
Because I know that you miss her
You can't replace that smile
259 · Oct 2019
evergreen
Jules Oct 2019
The leaves are changing and I am too
Oh how lovely it feels to let you go
But I fear that I am an evergreen
257 · Oct 2019
a funeral for me
Jules Oct 2019
You ever get that empty feeling in your chest
that you've lost someone dear to you? They're still here
but are they really here?
That's the difference.
Where have you gone?
I miss you.
254 · Oct 2019
in over my head
Jules Oct 2019
In over my head
Something you said
I left you on read
Because I
I'm stuck in the way
You say my name
Make me wanna say
I love you
Next page