Sometimes I think that you could careless about me. I might be your kid, and you could be might my parent, but sometimes I think that you treat me more like a carrot. I grow by myself, I get my own nutrition. I get my own life, I get my own attention. You do not care about me, at least that's what I think. But even carrots cannot be no their own.
You do not care if I come home ****** red or sick orange.
I have a few words to say to you. You caused me to grovel before the feet of others and forced me on my knees in surrender to my fear. You changed my heart into a fickle one, I left you once and I came straight back. I'm furious that I lost myself entirely to you because no piece of me is my own anymore. God opened a door and I shut it, only thinking I wanted you and you alone. I wanted you so badly, but I never received you. Because I couldn't obtain you, I desired you. I put you before myself, before everyone else. I forgot that I do not need you to tell me what I'm worth, I am stronger than this, I told myself. I didn't need you. But whenever I look at you, and see what I don't have, my heart fills with jealousy all the more.
I wish I could leave you completely, but I'm thankful God opened the door again after I closed it.
Do we write To make others think Original thoughts Poured into Poems Creativity Poured into words Do we write To create something new
Or do we write to grab attention Appeal to what's already built Follow the same rutted paths For the sake of Attention A fierce human need A beast that can corrupt For the sake of food And can destroy creativity Just to follow another's path Just to be known To be seen
Or do we write for Both Blending our own ideas With those of others Hoping to be heard
And what makes popularity? What is it that grabs our attention And pulls us in And makes us lose ourselves For the sake of being known?
I don't want to be The center of attention There for all eyes to see I want to be acknowledged And recognized for just being me I don't want to be known For my struggles But I want to be noticed When I'm struggling Not for everyone to see Just one is enough Just one who understands me