I'm on the boarder
Of losing my mind
What's with this guy?
Can you please choose a side?
Cuz I'm on the fence
With no more time
When I was fourteen
my sister was teaching me how to drive,
I went to make a left turn and hit the breaks; second guessing myself.
“Never hesitate,” she said,
“it’s when you hesitate that causes a crash.”
“Make a decision and go with it.”
All these years later it still rings true.
All these years later I still have yet to listen.
I put all my eggs in one basket
and hurt myself over and over,
I push people away and don't know why
I get frustrated and usually cry.
I tend to hold my breathe
not being able to put my mind to rest,
what's the reasoning behind
my feelings of mistrust and worry?
why do I get so attached
not know how to hold on?
for me I know when it's solid
I can feel it eventually being a safe space
I can feel it getting old and fading out.
every time someone incredible is uncovered
a way is found for them to leave me.
whether it's my own doing
their life leading them else where.
it's a concept
it only works on paper
a beautiful mess
cleaning's saved for later
looking through the photos
reading through my memos
where did all the time go
back when all the lights glowed
could turn into something new
but i'm still hunting
and i won't find it in you
i won't be your prom date
cause i will break that promise
but i'm still up at home late
cause i was never honest
just imagining things
you write as if all the letters
in the alphabet are scribbled in your mind,
and all the words are memorized.
you tattooed poetry in all the parts
of your body, and you help me to
let my insides be one of them.
poetry is stained in you,
but the blood of hesitation
in doing what you want remains
been a while... something from 2017
It was all of a sudden when the usual conversation became sweet
Everything was for fun but things start to get real
Just like a whirlwind or lightning, it left me feeling flabbergasted
I knew deep inside that I am ready, I knew it
High possibility of falling in love with you scares me
I thought we will just be best of friends, guess we aren't gonna be
More than best friends or close friends, probably yes
Still speechless even with just that thought of mine
Sugarcoating words from your lips to compliment me
My heart flutters like crazy and unstoppable
What is happening to me? It feels like I am not ready
It feels great but feel like I am being played by yours truly
i made this poem because of the new guy bestfriend i am talking to almost everyday and this is how i feel always during our conversation
take my secret
and bury it in
you can visit it
just don’t give
it too much
it feeds on and is
it will not hestitate
to steal the
spot light from
sometimes i fear,
the time that is near,
in which i hear,
a mysterious seer,
and i see nadir.
im so sorry dear,
i have to shift gear,
for i saw a deer,
i saw it disappear.
i tried to peer,
but my eyes sear,
it caused a stir,
i shed a tear.
the chaos is clear…
a short poem i wrote on twitter about hesitation and inaction, being held back by your past; your regrets and fears
Kindly avoid going to any hill station,
While planning so, bear some hesitation.
You are so very hot,
But the hills are not.
What if you go there when,
All that area starts boiling then.
My HP Poem #1745