because no—not really. you're just in love with the way I always make you feel. like you're the Sirius among my constellation of stars. because you are.
you just.. you just love my words. you love the way I pour my feelings for you through my poems. you love the way I arrange words and phrases to cheer you up on your hard times. you love the way I appreciate everything you do.
you love the fact that you're special to someone—to me. but you neither give me a feedback nor treat me the way I treat you because you know that I'll always be there for you, whatever it takes.
— of course you are my Sirius, but darling you're shining too bright, and I'm burned.
Its been Days, weeks, months Since you left me behind Left me head over heels in "love" with you You had me thinking that i knew you so well That I was the best thing in your life That I was the only thing that you trusted
You had me thinking that you loved me that you truly did care for me that our countless messages meant something that our phone calls every night weren't just out of boredom
You had me thinking that I was worth something that for once I could be somebodies that person that every time you walked me to class and every time you waited for me at the end of the day was because you needed me
I want to scream that you used me that you lied and it all meant nothing that you manipulated and stayed cause I was the only one there that I wasn't the one who made myself believe something that isin't even there
Its been so long since we talked or seen each other All the reality and words of what people say all start to make sense I trusted you with everything, took your word above all But I wonder if that was the right choice to make If I should have trusted my other friends after all
But your gone now, Theres no need to stress All the words and things no longer hold any meaning You don't care about me, You don't even bother to text My hollowed out heart doesn't bother anymore Not after its been broken to it's very core
Sometimes I close my eyes at night All I can see is your cheerful face Grinning and laughing, as you did when we were friends The memories we shared, things like watching our show together, falling asleep in the middays sun and playing video games till we finally won.
And I know that in these moments I was truly happy I was content, in love and I wished for nothing more. But as I lay awake I can't help but wonder Did you really not love me, did you find me a bore?
Was it all really a lie? Did you truly not care? Was I nothing more than just a person who happened to be there? Cause I loved you, loved you so much that it ******* hurt I blindly gave you everything till I was completely stripped bare
So do enlighten me Do tell me blunt and clear Tell me your true feelings For the whole world to hear
I've been suffering in silence Not allowing myself to shed a tear I refused to believe that my love meant nothing The very thought fills my soul with fear
Tell me so I can cry Tell me so I can finally move on Tell me the truth behind it all Tell me so that I can stop loving you
Cause in my heart you are still My beloved pedestal boy
What is it between us? Is there a spark we don't see? Can it really be there if Neither one of us wants to see? When I look at you I see nothing but star, And endless possibilities.
Your smile brings me joy Your presence makes me happy, All I want to do is be near you
Can it be love? Something so simple as this Is it really this easy To feel for something this way? Being around yo makes my heart happy, Skipping an extra beat as I dream about you.
I want to see where this goes, Why don't you just tell me how you feel? Are we on the same page? Do you think about me, Even on the coldest of nights? Do you wish you were with me, When times get rough?
I want nothing more, Than to be in your arms, Take in your scent, And feel your heart.
One day I hope you tell me how you feel. Just don't take too long... I'll wait if I have to, It'll teach me patience... By remember I can't wait forever You are what I want, But I hope I am for you
Someday soon... Someday maybe, You'll build up the courage, And just tell me
You don't wanna talk to me? Fine I don't want to talk to you ******* I'm probably moving And I don't know the next time I'll see you I figured a final goodbye Before I cross state lines But only if you'll give my that decency Tell me before November Or I'll start seeing street signs