Reminiscing all the times,
You slept on my shoulder and tried to be my side.
Hit me with nostalgic feels,
Because I see only memories when you're coming near.
I never thought this would happen,
I might try to sleep but it's still you stuck in my mind.
Can't help myself.
I don't want to wish to travel to back in time so we can be just friends,
I just hope that we can have better days that we can spend,
But it confuses me because I still want to hate you for what we did,
What I did also makes me want to hate me for what I've been.
And I can't put my emotions aside,
It's who I am,
A kinda funny guy with a poker face but exploding with tears within,
And if I could say one word that describes what I think about you,
I'd just like to say "Feels."
'Cause it feels like I'm alone,
'Cause it feels like you were my home,
'Cause it feels like you took me away,
Now I can't seem to escape,
You really made me feel this way.
Don't think that I'll be acting reckless,
I'm just letting out this mess so I can be myself for once without you making me feel all depressed,
And all hopeless,
I can't help but change my mind every time I think about you 'cause it changes all the time.
Oh NO I hate you,
Oh NOW I love you,
Oh just please keep your distance so I can put everything behind.
Because once you've left,
I felt my heart beat for myself for the first time in awhile.
And I don't want to confirm that I despise you,
Because I know there's a part of me that loves you,
But I hope you don't mind that I bury it away since all that feeling does is make me go insane.
And I really hope you feel the same way,
'Cause I'm losing myself.
And I can't think anymore.
I don't want to feel anymore.