I even read
your famous poems that many people have read. I even read it many times and got lost in it. I even thought I might easily remember all the titles of your poems in every word and I have also been able to understand it little by little. I even started writing poetry for myself. I even sat for a long time just to think of words. I even want to be like you or maybe more. “Am I enough to be able to achieve what you once achieved?”, I tell you in front of these poems of mine. “I want to be myself”, he told me in this poem now you're reading.
Indonesia, 21st September 2021
Arif Aditya Abyan Nugroho
The rose caressed my fingers.
"he loves me, he loves me not." My eyes could only see red. "he loves me, he loves me not." Ready to peel the sweet bud - "he loves me, he loves me not." His gentle fingers grazed mine. "I love you, I love you so." His eyes were milk chocolates. "I love you, I love you so." The petals clung to the rose. "I love you, I love you so."
man was the first to preform suicide
natural born martyrs too sick to bring themselves to eat their own filth our strongest are easiest to fall men were not made to survive but sequential installments are in follow suite in order to remain on top in order to fall farther
HEAVEN ON EARTH IS A FALSE NARRATIVE
HELL IS OUR TRUE REALITY THE MIND IS AN INESCAPABLE CAGE
We all have something singularly unsayable within. Nothing can or will ever get to it, not even other souls. This is the loneliness we were all born with and this is our only salvation.
It is within you and me and you write a wrong in life's pages when you abandon it.
do you read my cowardly letters still
the pain in my fingers i felt time spent to tell you the love i have it's fair to say that i can't be away unhealthy longing to hold you i wish things were better your wounds are closing up i noticed it the other night thank you for holding me when you touch me everything feels fine again i hope i'm healing your head too i can't stand to be away from you
All of my friends
Left me again how Odd of them to say they’d Never leave and yet End things so abruptly.
A L O N E
please fix what's broken inside me
i've tried a hundred times and i can't seem to make it right there's nothing inside me that shines anymore i killed off yesterday so there wouldn't be today yet i woke up again this morning
there's no kindness in my eyes
fleeting emotions of grandeur leave my body always feels broken after i feel alive who's that stranger looking back at me the reflection in the mirror lies
my true form present in a moment's time glimpses of me rushed sequences in your mind we stayed in just like i planned my heart doesn't ache please don't put your hands on me anymore i know that this is only momentarily nothing you do can amount to what i felt before