i think when you keep any emotion hidden inside for too long,
it slowly begins to **** you...

they warn us about the negative ones like,
anger, fear and hate...

but love is just as deadly as the rest
when you hold it in...

to know he is my soulmate
is the same as to know
that the grass under my feet is green

if you are going to fall in love with me,
you must know that i cry. a lot.

i cry during rainy days, sunny days, or on a monday morning.
i cry everytime i watch a happy movie and everytime i cut onions,
but do know that i cry harder every time i talk about the things that have hurt me, even if they don’t hurt anymore.

i need constant reassurance.
for i am afraid of being left behind, of being unloved.
i will probably tell you all the things i hate about myself
while you disagree with each one of them
but i still won’t believe every single word you’ll say.

i got used to shutting down the people who care about me.
it will be so hard for me to open up,
but all i’m asking you is to stay patient, and give me time to adjust.
you might think i’m rejecting your company,
but don’t blame yourself, i appreciate you.

so listen, if you are going to fall in love with me,
understand that i’ve been through the worst,
but still, i’ll love every inch of your skin unconditionally.

life is a matter of perspective,
and happiness is a choice.
but the smile i paint upon my face,
doesn't mask the sadness in my voice.

just because i know joy is inside me,
doesn't mean i feel it in my heart.
i search for peace every single day,
but finding it is the hardest part.

it comes so easy for others,
as it did to me once before.
it's not that what i have isn't enough,
it's that i used to have so much more.

yesterday
today
tomorrow

three days
all seeming impossible to conquer
but i make it through
and come out on the other side
smiling.

feel me
hold me
touch me
love me