I'm immobile As my dentist blathers On events and people That don't matter. I'd rather he just Get IT done, Leave rants and jokes And silly puns For one not in His dental dungeon. Today was his crowning glory, When he'd finished needling me, Before he filled my cavity, He suggested I see a cardiologist To fill the hole Found in my chest.
Id waited so long to get that text To just hear you say it once; To hear you apologize For all the damage that you'd caused. And for leaving me broken For moving on without a pause.
Id finally gotten over you After months of feeling empty So why now, When i'm finally feeling plenty, Did you decide to cut open these scars that had just healed? Why now, When I needed you the least, Did you decide to apologize For ******* the life and love out of me like a leech? My heart now stained with the memory of us Like a black t-shirt stained with bleach.
Was it because you saw that I was finally moving on And you knew that that one text Would take me back to square one? Or was it because you felt guilty for the ****** way you treated me; Telling me you liked me one day And disappearing the next. Because you got bored of your shiny new toy, One you once believed was the best.
I wish I could say I hated you, But that would be a lie. My heart aches for your sadness And I can't stand the thought of being the reason why. That big “*******” I wish I could end lingers on my phone Because what if that was the last thing I said. It was the last straw; A reason for your end.
Thinking about loving you again makes my head spin in ways I didn't know it could. Because im filled with rage But also a sadness that I never understood.
Why am I longing to tell you I miss you? Something I've never admitted out loud. Because I miss your smile and your laugh. I miss the way you'd send me pictures of the weather forecast When it was supposed to storm Because you knew those were my favorite things. I long for your familiar warmth.
So ******* for making me feel these things again; For digging up the past. ******* for making me love you. ******* for being my first. And most of all ******* for making me believe you'd be my last.
It was a long time ago I still love you though I want to grow But you're holding me back Keeping me off track Every time I try to let go It makes my heart crack I'm afraid of breaking But you left my heart aching ~26/3/21
I used to have a crush on someone but we moved away and it's kinda hard forgetting him.
It began as a mistake, a sweet lie, a sin i couldn't scape. It began as a mistake, as it took control of me, like a demon feeding the weak. It began as a mistake, but it was the most beautiful one, that i ever taken. Im seating here, alone in my throne, waiting to you, to come home.