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:(
larni Feb 2019
:(
you are always on my mind,
the only one i’m always craving to talk to.

but please tell me,
why is this not the same for you?
:)
larni Jun 2019
:)
you are now my saturday nights,
please become my sunday mornings.
<3
?
larni Dec 2019
?
is it bad to need someone?
is it so bad to constantly need someone?
checking their status, location, activity?
is that too far?
am i too in love?
</3
larni Feb 2019
</3
both can ****.
the only difference is.
cigarettes shatter lungs.
and he shatters everything.
</3
larni Oct 2018
</3
it's the same old story that everyone knows;
one heart holding on, one heart letting go.
larni Apr 2019
how dumb of it was me to assume i had met the love of my life this early.
i had barely begun.
barely started to understand who i am and how i think.
how naive it was of me to imagine you were going to be there my whole life.
how unfair it was of myself to plan a future as if i wasn’t thriving enough on my own. as if you made me beautiful.
i made myself beautiful.
i still make myself beautiful.
and the love of my life could be out there somewhere.
or it could be right here staring right back at me.
larni Feb 2019
"it's just some things you need to work on"

shouldn't you love me
for who i already am?
not someone you
aspire me to become?

sure, i'm needy
and always thinking of you
but is it so wrong
to be so in love?
i wouldn't change anything about you.
you're perfect just the way you are.
i love you for who you are.
i'm so **** sad.
larni Jul 2019
we might be
broken by design
bye
larni Mar 2019
how is it okay
to not only break someones heart,
but to also destroy their opinion on love?
larni Oct 2018
once upon a time
long ago
there was a you and me

i knew you once
and it was nice
silence was comfy
and we didnt have to try

i knew you once
long ago
you shared your secrets
and i shared mine

i knew you once
long ago
but where did you go...?
argh, i miss you.
larni Jun 2019
i overthink
i panic
i stress
i worry

but

i trust
i care
i stay
i love
larni Nov 2019
he left me.
he hurt me.
he lied to me.
he made it hard for me to trust.
but,
i trust you.
i trust that
you won't leave me,
you will be kind to me,
you will be honest,
you are the best thing for me.
i love you
larni Jun 2019
i think when you keep any emotion hidden inside for too long,
it slowly begins to **** you...

they warn us about the negative ones like,
anger, fear and hate...

but love is just as deadly as the rest
when you hold it in...
larni Jul 2019
i give all of my love to others
that sometimes i forget
that i deserve to be loved too
larni Jul 2019
we search for
the feelings
that will destroy
us in the end
larni Feb 2019
you shouldn’t just
“forget”
to message someone you
“love”
larni Jul 2019
there are still
so many dreams
that we could
turn into reality
larni Oct 2018
six foot one
with an award winning smile.
a voice that could melt hearts,
that surely melts mine.
hehehehe
larni Jun 2019
you don't need
water to feel
like you're
drowning.
without water </3
larni May 2019
they say that drowning
is bad for you
but will it be
if i want to drown
in your love
?

if i want to swim
in the
deepest parts
of your soul
and be pulled in
?

if i want
the currents
to take me places
elsewhere
away from the
real world
?

so it can be just
you
and
me
?
one day
larni Feb 2019
it doesn’t feel the same anymore
it feels forced from your behalf
it feels fake
and broken

i feel like i’m going to push you again
because i love you too much
and you’re going to leave
me
alone

i don’t want to let you go
but should i be feeling this pain?
should i always be hurt?
should i always be scared?

please tell me you love me
more
please tell me i’m all you need
more

i know i’m needy
and too loving
and too crazy about you
but i need reassurance from you

that everything’s going to be alright
and that you’ll always be there
for me
in the end.
sorry i had to rant
larni Jul 2019
i have too many emotions
that can never be put into words
larni Oct 2018
i want you,
in every way there is to want a person.

from lazy rainy days
sitting around in underwear,
wrapped up in the covers
enveloped in each other.

to lustful late nights
high happy and in love,
too absorbed with each other
to focus on anything else.

i want you.
and i see so much in you
that counting all your perfections
would be like counting the stars,
there's too many to keep track of
and they just seem endless.

i am utterly in love
with every inch of your being,
every corner of your mind
and everything in between

i might not know what i believe
or where i'm going
or what i'm doing,
but i do hope
you'll hold my hand
and wander blindly with me.

because as long as i'm with you
i don't need a destination,
you are the journey.

i am simply enamored with your entity,
captivated by your character,

fascinated
infatuated
amorous

in love.
lowercase is intentional :-)
larni May 2019
if i can't have you
<3
larni Nov 2018
i used to dream of someone like you,
wavy brown hair and eyes speckled blue.

someone who can admire my laugh and my crooked smile,
and when i'm scared, stay with me for a while.

i saw you from a distance and knew it was you,
the man from my dreams, i was affixed like glue.

you are breathtakingly perfect with all of your flaws,
you're dreamy and captivating; never failing to leave me in awe.

you are mine now and it's unbelievably true,
that someone like me could be with someone like you.
:')
larni Feb 2019
though she may be smiling,
do not be misled.
alone she could be crying,
with words left unsaid.
larni Jan 2019
i’m into you
and every little thing you do
i’m stuck onto you like glue
believe me when i say „i’m feeling you”
larni Jan 2019
your
love
feels
so
fake.
larni Feb 2019
why
oh, why?

did you
cover yourself
with a white sheet

and
ghost
me
?
g o o d b y e
larni Oct 2019
just because i make other people happy
doesn’t necessarily mean that i am happy myself.
but what it does mean is that i am willing to
sacrifice my personal emotions for the best
interests of the people surrounding me.
larni Feb 2019
if i ever were to try
to explain to someone
how much i loved you
i think they would be heartbroken too.
i still love you, i promise.
larni Jun 2019
he touched me
and my knees felt weak
my mind went blank
and i didn't know how to speak
larni Oct 2018
because when i trace your skin
i can hear music

and when i look into your eyes
i see an ocean

now please tell me how
do i just let that go?
larni Jun 2019
i push people away
when all i really want
is for someone to hug me
and tell me it’s all okay
larni Feb 2019
if you are going to fall in love with me,
you must know that i cry. a lot.

i cry during rainy days, sunny days, or on a monday morning.
i cry everytime i watch a happy movie and everytime i cut onions,
but do know that i cry harder every time i talk about the things that have hurt me, even if they don’t hurt anymore.

i need constant reassurance.
for i am afraid of being left behind, of being unloved.
i will probably tell you all the things i hate about myself
while you disagree with each one of them
but i still won’t believe every single word you’ll say.

i got used to shutting down the people who care about me.
it will be so hard for me to open up,
but all i’m asking you is to stay patient, and give me time to adjust.
you might think i’m rejecting your company,
but don’t blame yourself, i appreciate you.

so listen, if you are going to fall in love with me,
understand that i’ve been through the worst,
but still, i’ll love every inch of your skin unconditionally.
larni Feb 2019
the saddest thing about our story is that we could have made it work.
if you cared about me like i cared about you, you would have fought for me.
but you didn’t.
it’s so clear.
i was right every time that i told you i loved you more.
you always denied it and said you love me more, but i guess now we know.
larni May 2019
i love you
i love every breath you take
i love every sound that
escapes your lips
as i kiss that spot between
your jaw and neck
i love the way your hands
touch my skin,
no rush, nothing to prove,
nothing but pure love
braiding itself
within my heart
and reassuring my mind
i love the way your voice sounds
in the morning
when sleep is thick in your throat
and your eyes are heavy
i love you
forever
and
always
one day
larni Feb 2019
i imagine myself with you, b.
i can see myself,  happy with you.

i can picture us on our first date,
laughing so hard we hold onto each other for support.
i can picture us walking together,
admiring all the local shops and galleries the town has to offer.
i can picture us holding hands,
and you holding me as we gaze out at sea.
i can picture us snorkeling together,
and how you'll laugh when i inevitably breathe in the ocean.
i can picture us kissing for the first time,
how our eyes will meet,
and how our hearts will explode with excitement.
i can picture us kissing,
and how our bodies will melt into one.
i can picture myself falling asleep next to you,
and how peaceful i will feel when i wake up beside you.

but,
most importantly,

i can picture myself falling in love with you.
truely.
so let’s break the distance.
oh, how wonderful life will be with you.
to: you.
larni Oct 2018
~
i miss you.
it’s not the kind of ‘i miss you’ that just means i miss your presence,

it’s the kind of ‘i miss you’ that means i miss your touch.

i miss your lips, your perfect skin and the smell of your cologne.

i miss the fun and adventurous dates we had and the ‘cuddle up and watch netflix’ kind of dates.

i miss the sad days, the happy days, and every other day in between.

i miss the feel of your arm, wrapped around me tight.

i miss holding your hand, and you not being embarrassed for being with me.

i miss the times where i’d cry my eyes out, and you’d always be the one for me to lean on.

i miss the smallest things, like the way you loved your back tickles and the way you’d tuck one strand of hair behind my ear to indicate you wanted to kiss me.

i miss your hair when you’d just woken up, and it would be all messy and crazy.

i miss your voice, your precious voice that i haven’t been able to get out of my head.

i miss the feeling of being safe and at home whenever you were around.

i miss too many things about you, way too many things, and i don’t know how to cope with knowing another girl is one day going to receive those things.

that one day, i’m just going to be a memory, with no special meaning, just someone you used to have a little thing with.

the hardest thing is going to be moving on and making myself receive new and different things from another guy.

i wanted you to miss me too, i wanted you to miss things about me, but you don’t want me at all, so what’s the point in wanting you ?
i wrote this 8 months ago about my ex :)
larni Jun 2019
speaking of our memories
and not knowing how your day was
or knowing how you feel anymore
is honestly so confusing.

every time i try to stop thinking i can't;
it's impossible.
my mind will drift off from certain situations
to you.

i've tried to convince myself
that you don't care for me
so i shouldn't
care for you.

but that's impossible
how could i possibly
stop caring
?
a little something i wrote a while ago
larni Jun 2019
i fall for people too easy
i get too attached too soon
i get too involved too quickly
too early too soon too fast
larni Jun 2019
i need a hug,

a long one that i can settle into.

a kiss on the top of my head,

a simple gesture really.

to let me know,

i’m loved and that you care.

an act of love and kindness,

when nerves are strained and bare.

and my heart aches,

in its loneliness.
larni Oct 2018
you said you loved me
i said it back.

you said you needed me
i was grateful to hear that.

you said you were mine
and i said i am yours.

you said you forever
and i said forever more.  

you said you didn’t want to lose me
and i was content

but then you disappeared
leaving my tears alone with nowhere to vent.


you blamed it on the timing
i didn’t agree.

you blamed it on yourself
and i blamed it on me.

did i not love you enough?
were my hugs and kisses too flat?

i said i love you.
but you didn’t say it back.
</3
larni Feb 2019
yesterday
today
tomorrow

three days
all seeming impossible to conquer
but i make it through
and come out on the other side
smiling.
larni Sep 2019
you tell me you'll never leave me
that you'll be with me here forever
but how can i believe this
when all i've ever been is left
larni Feb 2019
is it all a game?
you're wanting to play?
to leave me on open?
to see what i'll say?

you know i'm upset.
you know how i get.
so how is it fair
to leave me on read?
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