Suger kisses Silly crushes Candy hearts ask "Will you be mine?" Wandering eyes A glance at her thighs Thorns on the roses in the bouquet you bought yesterday Two things that can pierce And in between Two things that bleed Heart shaped cardboard boxes Filled with chocolate And caramel Walking through target Commercialised, consumerisim And everyone likes talking about how This holiday is what it is for more sales Than romance And its true Sugar hearts do not equal ancient love But we love to spend Money and time On someone we love Or someone we are saying sorry to Maybe its the same one Humans are so cute Making cards Red and pink And surprising with favorited Chocolate things But today is take out The girl your 'one true' doesn't know about Or maybe they do But choose not to mention it Because maybe they Really
Lacy black things Long receipts Long nights Not at the office Where you claim to be Let me ask you Were the flowers for her
As large, and as beautiful,
As the flowers for me?
Things I hear about in wine tainted conversations between the wives
You can't join, What's a man to do to get his own peace? Mind in a place with no granders, Living day by day with no say and no law and no purpose, Hope it's worth it, Still don't wanna create a life in world that displays its okay to cheat on your wife and lie, Good thing I'm one of the good ones, Pretending not to be the hood ones.
If I thought yesterday I would lose you, I would’ve kissed you longer, I would’ve taken in every single detail of you. I thought we would be together forever. That’s what you said when you gave me the ring. Ten years we were together, I guess that means nothing to you. I fall asleep thinking of you, while you fall asleep thinking about someone else. I should be happy for you, but I’m not. No matter what you wanted to do I always said “If you’re happy, I’m happy” but that’s not the case. I guess that’s selfish, but I should’ve been the one walking down that aisle. I should’ve been the one that said ‘I do’. I should’ve been the one that you would kiss under the mistletoe at Christmas. I should've been the one that your family would hate, but you wouldn’t care because you love me anyway. But now… that’s all happening with the person I told you I didn’t like. I told you not to trust them, that they would take you away. You didn’t listen. And NOW look what happened. You left me there. You left me at the snap of a finger. You loved me. You said you loved me every day, and that the only person that you could ever love is me. You obviously didn’t mean that. But I’m over it. You’re happy and that means if i’m not happy I’ll act like I’m happy. For you.
You want to hear about heart break I spent two whole years making mistakes Letting you walk over me Making me believe that there was something Wrong with me I gave my all And you let me fall I wish I could take it back I would tell myself drop him It'll never last Thought I was so lucky How ****** to think you were the one This was all supposed to be fun I helped you in ways no young girl would think to Stuck my neck out for you And you smashed my heart Like it was nothing new Played me like your games Knew exactly what buttons to press And then you got bored and left me a mess I tried so hard to pick up my pieces For awhile I refused to believe it How in the **** could I just leave this This thing I thought was love But love doesn't break you Or play you like a game Love doesn't cheat and lie By saying it wont happen again Love does not just stop in the middle of the sentence You were not love You were **** in every sense of the word And I'm glad that were done cause I'm a survivor
A mask with a face that no one knew But you I let you see me Be with me ***** and scared I lie awake now Your selfish words still robbing me How? And now you say that I am guilty But I shared with you my reality Everything I knew about myself at that time But after time You began slipping Tripping Falling into the cracks of your own mask So I gotta ask Was it the pressure of your own fears that broke you? Because I was nothing but kind to you There for you When the rest of the world refused to be And now that we are nothing but strangers *were nothing but strangers Somehow your walls = my mask? Your fears for my innocence? I should no longer have to suffer From your hesitance
Being cheated is the worst ain't it? It truly is so invasive and it robs you of everything you gave to that person. In my case....it was everything.