~Your hugs leave lasting impressions that I can feel hours after we touch~

To be a shining star,
is to be the 'echo of love' that caresses
a weeping heart with two hugs and one smile.

To be a shining star,
is to dress your soul in the eternal
garment of kindness and render service to others.

To be a shining star,
is to have every fiber of your being glow with so much
humanity, lighting up the darkness of the entire universe.

Hussein Dekmak

Copyright

Memories of him
All over my mind
Almost drowning me
The first time
We held hands
The first time
We hugged
The first time
We said I love you
I didn't feel it then
But after he left
I knew
It was real

Some people
Make you feel like home
In their arms
You can pretend you don't have
Those feelings
For that person
With that eyes
And that face
And that voice
That feels good

Even if you barely know them
It doesn't matter what they do
They are safe
They are every good feeling in this world
They are love
In their arms
You can escape
Escape reality
For a few seconds
Because you are
Comfortable
Safe
Home
Even if you can't
Can't love them
If you aren't supposed to

But it's something about
That one person
Those eyes
Hiding everything i want
Like nothing else
Those lips
Have that thing that just
Makes me want to kiss them
Like nobody else
That hair
And the way it flicks around her pretty face
In a messy ponytail

You can act like it isn't there
And make everyone believe it
Yoú can believe it, convince yourself
But still
I just want
Her
Those eyes staring in mine
Those lips making out with me
That hair to be played with by my fingers
That i was the one to touch her cheekbones
To be the one to speak her name as mine

Just for
Her
All i ever wanted
You have felt the same
Haven't you

But
You
Can't
Feel
Like
home
There

The more I live
The more I am compelled to admit
That the happiest moments are those
I lived with you by my side.

The more I travel
The more I realize
That the most beautiful place in this entire universe
Is right in between your arms.

Oh, the sweetest of the sweet devils
Break me into pieces
Coz I am best when I am at my worst.

I watch my breath closely, as it clouds before me
as if it is a film
My skin, it screams, i want to soothe it
I want to peel the layers away until I am warmed
Hug me, I am cold

It’s been 5 years to this day.
It’s been 5 years since I last heard you say, the best part of a surprise is the SURprise.
I loved you, you were my rock.
I looked up to you, you were my knight.
You left me.
You abandoned me when I most needed you.
You ruined the idea of hope for me.
You ruined the idea of trust.
You ruined the aspect of surprises.
Because no matter what you say, your actions no longer surprise me.
You should be the one I talk to.
I wish I could stop loving you.
You should be the one to hold me.
I wish I could hug you.

After all that has happened,
After all you have done,
I still love you.
But after all you have done, the thought of a surprise makes me want to cry.