Twenty-eighth is here
Cheers to our 3rd monthsary
One month stronger now

In my desperate search for true love;
I lost myself.

Your lips say that you love
Your eyes say that you hate
It’s written upon your face
All the lies how they cut so deeply

Everything you say to me
takes me one step closer to the edge
I’m holding on
Why is everything so heavy?

Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple
Sometimes goodbye is the only way
It’s so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

Set the silence free
to wash away the worst of me
‘cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
We’re building it up, to break it back down
We’re building it up, to burn it down

Take everything from the inside
and throw it all away
Remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go

So I let go watching you
turn your back like you always do
'Cause I’m only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
We said it was forever but then it slipped away
Standing at the end of the final masquerade

You say that I look at you like you're magic.
Perhaps, there is magic in you after all.
If you can cast a spell on a person's heart;
then you will be magic indeed.

- James M Vines

We're inadequate
and imperfect souls seeking
Love in a flawed world

It's amazing what
a Man can do using his
tongue and *******.

Your eyes, like mine; They
glisten in the sunlight, but
weep buckets at night.

I choose you.
And I will continue choosing you, over and over again.
With no hesitation, without a pause;
No doubts, nor second thoughts.
I will keep choosing you.
Even in a heartbeat, it will always be you whom I choose.
❤

His mouth was poison,
His eyes spelled deceit and lies;
Touch of betrayal

Everytime we meet and spend time together,
And you leave my company,
I want you to go away happy, with a smile on your face.

Everytime you talk about me or say my name to your family or friends,
And you leave their company,
I want you to go away happy, with a smile on your face.

Hence, each time we part ways, my dear,
Please go away happy,
With a smile on your face.

Yes, on that adorable face,
Go ahead and put on a smile on that face,
'Cause I'll know that I was the one who placed it there.

"She's always smiling!"
they said. But they know nothing
behind those closed doors.

Honey, forget him.

Forget his smile,
Forget his deep voice, and the color of his eyes
Forget his name, his laughs
Forget his sweet words that masked his lies
Forget him he chucked you aside
when you need him at your lowest he didn’t come by
Forget him he said all the words that broke you
Forget all his “I love you too”
Forget him.

The taste of your lips
Sweet, and intoxicating
Let me savor you

The way your tongue moves
brought me to another realm
of burning passion

Explosive pleasures,
Your body in sync with mine
Lost in satin sheets

The early sun dawns
a soft whisper in my ear
"Morning, beautiful."

Delicate flowers
blossom in the summer Sun;
A breathtaking sight.

Too much sexiness
in a man dressed so simple,
You must be a dream.

Today,
I don't feel at ease.
What was anticipated, extinguished.

Here comes the 'Rush Hour';
Commuters in a hurry
just to get a seat.

In my gloomy days and despair,
I reached out for you
and you were always there.
Never failing to console me,
you dried my tears
and always assured me, “Don’t worry, I’m here.”

Let me take you back
to the time we both first met,
Still fresh in my mind

Carefully planned out
My birthday celebration;
A lovely surprise

Taken to Wine U,
The Big Bosses' "Paradise";
That's where I found you

Little did I know
The place housed my Ma'am's secret;
Ulterior motive

Arrived at seven,
Hand-kissed by a neat waiter;
Not my cup of tea

Settled on Merlot
A Cabernet Sauvignon;
Heaven in a glass

Air filled with laughter,
Music and the smell of beer,
I still felt empty

Tipsy on red wine
Whispered the waiter, "Let's smoke!"
Sighing, I followed

That's when I saw You
The one engrossed in his phone,
I wondered, "Who's that?"

"Oh, this is our Chef!"
Introduced the waiter, who
Spoke highly of You

Small, little, quick chat
What You do, and where You're at
I ditched the waiter

The following week
I returned; for wine and You,
Excitement ruled me

This time, Jager bomb
was my partner for the night;
My sanctuary

Clock struck Eleven,
The corner of my eye caught
a familiar form

Too much sexiness
in a man dressed so simple,
You must be a dream

My heart pulsated,
butterflies in my stomach,
No words came to me

A polite offer
made by my Ma'am - "Join us, Dean!"
That wasn't my plan

You stood next to me
My heart was pounding madly
"Just one drink", You said

"Why don't You sit down?"
I eyed the stool beside me
"Nah, I love to stand."

Another round came
Still, You didn't budge from your spot
I knew You're staying

We chat, joked and laughed
Amidst others' loud chatters;
I was Your focus

Minutes went by, and
alas, we found comfort in
each other's presence

My mind went astray
in between sips and Your stare;
Pictured us kissing

What a great vision;
If it was only US there,
I'd have made my move

Clock struck Four-Thirty
I didn't want the night to end;
Yellow cab waiting

With a heavy heart,
I left the wonderful place;
I'll see you again

Tell me that your love for me was a lie

Tell me that you see Her
every time you look into my eyes,
and you wish you could just turn away
'cause you loathe the sight of me

Tell me that your skin burns
each time I hold your hands,
or run my fingers across your face,
and you wish I would just stop touching you
'cause you despise these palms,
that go sweaty around you

Tell me that you had to picture Her in your vision
every time I pull you into an embrace,
and you wish that my waist was smaller,
just like Her perfect figure;
'cause these baby fats that I have,
disgust you even more
than my sweaty palms

Tell me that you suffocate
each time I kiss you,
and you wish you could just push me away,
or pull yourself away from me,
'cause you hate the aftertaste of me
lingering on your lips

Tell me that you have always been putting up an act
all these times while you're with me,
and you wish you could quit
and that I would finally come to realize
that you have never loved me once before,
that whatever you have been doing
was only out of pity,
'cause you couldn't bear to break my heart.

But honey, you did.

"I have someone else, but I love you."
     ---
            "I love you, but I have someone else."

I notice everything,
All of them.
All of the details of you,
I love every single one of them.
I really want you.

I want to love all of you.
Your smile, your tears, your laughter,
Your flaws, your scars, your tempers;
And I still want you.

“When you share hidden parts of yourself
with someone else,” one said,
“You’re trusting that person to hold the
secret sections of your heart,
and to love the bits you thought
were unlovable.”

I want to be needed.
I want him to need me to be there for him.
I want to be someone he could depend on.
I’d like to feel like I have contributed somehow.
I want to mean something and everything,
but not nothing,
to him.
I like the feeling like I’m worth something.
I want to feel needed.

I need to believe that I’m worth it.

Do not hurt me so much, and then be nice to me.
Keep your words, don’t bother about me.
Don’t listen to me. Don’t ask me anything.
My heart is in ruins.
My mind is in a mess.
Just keep on walking, like how you’ve always been doing.
Don’t even, for a second, try to show concern towards me again.
I don’t need it anymore;
'Cause I didn’t get any when I expected it the most.
And if you think you can’t handle all these,
Back off.
Stay away from me.

From the time we met
I knew you were not trouble
You're the missing piece.

Seems like just yesterday,
You begged me for another chance yet you waste it away.

I shouldn’t put my trust in you,
Knowing that you'd never cherish everything that we’ve been through.

How could I be so blind?
Oh you played me;
Like a fool, I had been falling for your lies.

Not gonna be your toy no more
I’m done playing with your games, now I’m walking out that door.

Boy, I don’t need your love no more because it was never once true
And now, I’m already over you.

I’ve had enough this time, I’m walking away.

If you ever meet someone
who tries so hard
to stick by you
through your difficult moments,
do me a favor, please...
Keep them.
I beg you, please,
no matter what happens
you've gotta keep them;
because it ain't easy to find someone
who cares enough
to look past your flaws
and accept you for who you actually are.

It’s sad that
I remembered everything you once told me;
You’ve been hurt,
been lied to, been cheated,
been abused and neglected.

It’s sad that
I remembered everything you once told me;
I came into your life,
made it better, made you happy,
made it meaningful, made you complete.

It’s sad that
I remembered everything you once told me;
You wouldn’t ever break my heart,
wouldn’t lie, wouldn’t cheat,
wouldn’t abuse me, wouldn’t leave.

It’s sad that
I held on to every word you once told me;

You left me in the end.
You left me in the end.

He turned to me and winked.
I went "Oh ****."

Blood of the innocents spilled, can’t we live in peace?

Any choice you make,
They will judge you in the end.
Don't let that stop you.

One tear shed in silence, as her eyes scream defeat.

This feeling of missing you isn’t helping me;
knowing that I can’t see your face even for just a little bit.

Mother,
Oh, Mother.

You have always been there,
when I needed a hug or laugh,
or a shoulder to cry on.

You have always been there,
never once failed to support me,
never giving up.

You have always been there,
through my joys, my sadness,
through my successes, and failures.

You've never abandoned me,
for what the Society can’t accept me for;
for all of my flaws.

Thank you, Mother.

You've hurt me
And you've caused me
A great deal of
Suffering
But that does not mean
That I will never
Be able to
Heal
Completely
From this pain
You've put me through
I'll show you what I'm made of
Alone,
I will assemble
All the
Broken pieces
Of me
That you've shattered
I will stand back up
Stronger than ever
Leaving you questioning yourself
If hurting me
Was actually the best thing
You have ever done
In order to destroy me

Love is a game that two can play
and both win;
That’s what they said.
But these days...
Love is a game that everyone often plays
and tries to cheat at,
because nobody knows
how to win it.

Brown eyes, gorgeous smile
You should be a fantasy,
but He made you real.

I'm only human
I might make the same mistakes
Nobody's perfect.