i do not know if you remember me.
maybe i'm only a shadow in your past.
a forgotten face, a handful of significant sentences, an online footprint that has yet to wash away.
but i have not forgotten you.
i have not forgotten how we slept in the same twin size bed for nights on end, squeezing our souls under thin sheets, feeling close but being distant.
i have not forgotten how you laughed with me over silly throwaways, cried four ways about a boy, lied four ways about a girl.
i have not forgotten how your hair looked extra gold in the spring sun, and how your smile made me feel like i had won, and how your dry eyes made me want to cry because you loved everyone,
i have not forgotten how my scratches soaked into my skin, and i let only you in because you were the only one who treated me like more than a joke.
you made me choke on unwritten words and unsent love letters. i drowned in the tines between friends, fear, and falling, listening for you calling, and you tried hard to cast me a line.
but i never called you mine.
i laughed with you about silly throwaways, cried in a craze over your loss in my life, lied four ways about loving you.
and now, it's true. i have my own world where all of my friends love me like you, and a ******* the brink of womanhood who smiles more than you and loves me for all of who i am.
and i am happy. more happy than i ever was around you.
i do not know if you remember me,
but i never forgot all of you.
this one is a modified version of an older poem i wrote. it isn't really my current style but i felt like it was still decent enough to be on my page.