here goes another sleepless night with an uneasy heart,
the girl still wishes for the love she believes she deserves.
she longed, and longed, longed for much too long.
she knows her knife is never sharp enough to ****** her fear.
her mind is always heavy, running ragged with the worst-case scenario.
looping round and round, she couldn't find the emergency exit.
how does it feel like to be loved, by you?
to feel the love i had when i first met you
maybe i made a mistake that he turned away, maybe i pushed the wrong button.
i'm sorry—if it's the truth—can we start over?
fill my hollow gap, live in the void where you left.
you said you'd grow old with me, that i've never heard since the last time i thought you'd madly fallen in love with me.
i ask god, "how much does it take to have you back, like you used to? i'd go broke just to have it once more."
i made many sacrifices, but nothing ever seemed to fall into place; how long should I wait?
sometimes i wish i could beg for forgiveness to myself,
for putting her to an endless torture with no answer to its questions.
i love him too much; i should've thought twice.
written at 01:32 am, with pain stabbing on her chest.