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overthinking
Jaxey Jan 2022
overthinking is seeing
rainbows in the dark
you're fast asleep
and I still think you're judging me
988 · Jul 2019
speck
Jaxey Jul 2019
I feel like a star
so small from afar
yearning for someone to come closer
and see that I'm more
than just another speck in the sky
come closer please
966 · Jun 2019
Sun
Jaxey Jun 2019
Sun
Black and white
Dark and bright
It's lonely
Without a shadow
In all this light
If only the sun had a shadow
958 · Sep 2019
Sin
Jaxey Sep 2019
Sin
"I love you"
You say
As you lift up my chin
But you're eyes shine with metaphors
And your hand feels like sin
Stop lying to me
Jaxey Mar 2019
A
    f
a    
    l
l  
so sudden
it left me dizzy
            and     in    bliss

            a    landing    so
sudden it left me
broken in
p
  i              
                          e              
c ­       
e                
               s
949 · Nov 2018
Sad
Jaxey Nov 2018
Sad
I haven't been able to write today
And I think it's because everything is okay
There is nothing to do and nothing to say
And it makes me miss being sad

There are flowers blooming inside of my mind
A rainbow just fell across the sky
Everything is warm and I don't know why
But it makes me miss being sad

The warmth of happiness inside of me
Is everything that I've wanted to be
But now that it's here it's unfamiliar to me
And it makes me miss being sad

The warmth in my mind is beautiful and bold
And I once hated the feeling of feeling so cold
But now that I'm somewhere else I miss home
I just think I was made to be sad
I found a home in my own darkness
948 · Nov 2020
River
Jaxey Nov 2020
I was a storm
But you made me want to be a river
the way you kept trying
to hold me
as if I wasn't an ocean
that could slip through your fingers
as if I wasn't a tsunami
that crashed into you
every time you tried to swim
as if I wasn't washing you back to shore
in warning
before you dove back in
you had to keep your head above water
just to hug me
but hugging you back
meant you drowning in my arms
I was a storm
But you made me want to be a river
I can't hug you back
936 · Feb 2019
My Diary
Jaxey Feb 2019
The weight of only a pound
And yet at the same time
Holding the secrets
My back couldn't handle carrying
Tell me your secrets and I'll tell you mine
886 · Jan 2019
Loss
Jaxey Jan 2019
The most painful experience
Isn't losing someone
It's the moment you realize
You've lost yourself
- Elena Gilbert
One of my favorite quotes of all time. If you haven't watched The Vampire Diaries do it now.
861 · May 2019
Broken
Jaxey May 2019
I always believed
That you had destroyed me
But then I realized
The only person
Who had the power
To destroy me
Was myself
Destruction of the brain
844 · Feb 2019
Stargazing
Jaxey Feb 2019
because loving you
is like trying to stargaze
on a cloudy night
I'm sorry
815 · Jan 2019
Rose
Jaxey Jan 2019
You are the rose
that managed to grow
In my field of darkness
idk here's a poem
810 · Oct 2019
concrete
Jaxey Oct 2019
If love is a two way street
I'm the person on the sidewalk
the third wheel
809 · May 2019
drawing
Jaxey May 2019
I showed you my art
expecting an "ew"
But then you rolled up your sleeve
and said "I draw too"
do you have unwanted art?
783 · Dec 2020
Standing
Jaxey Dec 2020
I'm on fire
I'm burning
I'm dying
I'm bleeding
I was careful
I was cautious
and yet
I'm still weeping
I'm tripping
I'm falling
I'm desperate
for something
to catch me
to hold me
to help me
to fix me
I'm gasping
I'm breathing
I'm drowning
I'm fighting
I'm six feet under
and yet
I'm still standing
It's not over yet
758 · Dec 2020
Burning
Jaxey Dec 2020
You didn't love me
I was a burning building
And you were just looking
For something
To light your cigarette
749 · Feb 2019
Monsters
Jaxey Feb 2019
She was scared of the monsters
Hiding under her bed
But the scariest of them all
Were the ones in her head
Can you get rid of these monsters
714 · Jun 2019
proximity
Jaxey Jun 2019
space is my addiction
proximity is key
get a little closer
and i'll never
let you leave
don't leave, stay in this proximity with me
710 · Nov 2018
I Feel Gross
Jaxey Nov 2018
I know that I'm not
But is it okay
If I just let myself
Feel disgusting today?
I just feel gross today
710 · Nov 2019
beautiful things
Jaxey Nov 2019
you always know
when to point out
the beautiful things
you just always seem
to forget about yourself
remember
707 · May 2022
funeral
Jaxey May 2022
I was at your funeral
before you had given me a reason
to cry
695 · Oct 2018
Stars
Jaxey Oct 2018
"look at the stars!"
You said smiling beside me
And I just shook my head
As I starred into the pitch black darkness of the sky
Wondering why I couldn't see them too
Can you help me see the light in all of this darkness?
682 · Mar 2019
Oxygen
Jaxey Mar 2019
i inhaled sharply
as if our fingers sliding together
was the breath of fresh air
i never knew i needed
i don't think i breath when im not with you
677 · Apr 2021
forgive me
Jaxey Apr 2021
you said "I'm sorry"
but were you really?
when I didn't give you
what you wanted to hear
you just left me
with more things
to forgive
"I'm sorry"
"ok"
"wait, that's illegal"
667 · Oct 2019
perspective (reverse poem)
Jaxey Oct 2019
Your harmful words
Pass through me as I bath in
My own compliments
reverse poem; it's all based on perspective
656 · Oct 2019
Drown
Jaxey Oct 2019
Loving you
Is like drowning
Reaching for the brim
Waiting for you to help me
Instead of learning how to swim
Why did you let me drown
652 · Mar 2019
Light bulbs
Jaxey Mar 2019
The
spark between us
just kept going out but
i kept fixing the bulb every
time desperate to not
be left alone in
the



d a r k
don't go out again
651 · Sep 2019
Tea
Jaxey Sep 2019
Tea
You told me I wasn't you cup of tea
So I tried adding some sugar and cream
But by the time I was to your liking

I had gotten cold
Sorry
636 · Apr 2019
Hugs (neck or waist)
Jaxey Apr 2019
I'm torn between
The comfort
Of your waist
And the warmth
Of your cheek
always the neck
631 · Nov 2018
Beautiful
Jaxey Nov 2018
"Isn't it beautiful"
She smiled
Gazing up
At the stars

"Yes, beautiful"
He whispered
Staring up
At her
You're so beautiful
622 · May 2019
I'm fine
Jaxey May 2019
You ask
If I'm okay
But not because
You really care
But because you're trying
To convince yourself
That you do
Stop
618 · Feb 2021
renaissance
Jaxey Feb 2021
take me back
to the renaissance period
body painted
in black and blue
but just because
i was the mona lisa
doesn't mean
i was posing for you
612 · Dec 2020
sleep
Jaxey Dec 2020
warm until I wake
I know I am conscious
with a sudden chill
but my eyes stay closed
and my body is stone
I whisper take me back
and I suppose
I shall pretend
until my pillow
answers
can pillows talk
578 · Dec 2018
Lie
Jaxey Dec 2018
Lie
I hated my exes
Because they were always lying
When they said they loved me
But then again
So was I
I would say that I loved myself, but that would be a lie
577 · Aug 2019
Rain
Jaxey Aug 2019
I try to tiptoe across the pain
but you caught my tears hidden by the rain
you try to tell me everything will be okay
But all I hear is that I will always love you

And that you will never feel the same
why can't you just love me. why do you not love me. why cant you just let me love you and let yourself love me. i dont understand. i dont know if i ever will. why do you do this to me. do you want me to hurt? why am I not good enough? why can't you just love me. why cant anyone just ******* love me.
573 · Dec 2020
oxygen
Jaxey Dec 2020
you gave me hugs
when you could have
given me kisses
you gave me comfort
when you could have
given me oxygen
now I'm here
gasping your name
while you ponder
on why I can't breathe
rip
569 · Dec 2020
secret
Jaxey Dec 2020
I didn't know what her eyes
usually told others
but right then
they were whispering a secret
she leaned in to give it away
and I leaned in to say "I know"
don't you love it when women
564 · Nov 2018
Healing
Jaxey Nov 2018
I don't think it's possible to un-love someone
But I do believe that a broken heart
Is sometimes necessary
To learn how to re-love yourself
You taught me how to love myself
564 · Mar 2019
Universe
Jaxey Mar 2019
I'm not surprised
I got lost in your eyes
The practically held
The entire universe
stars dont shine like you
536 · Jan 2019
Distance
Jaxey Jan 2019
don't tell me
that long distance relationships don't work
when even stuck a million miles apart
the sun still finds a way
to make the moon shine
The sun and the moon
528 · Sep 2019
what hurts the most
Jaxey Sep 2019
and I think the part
that gives me the most pain
is the fact that i will always love you
and you will never feel the same
Oh well
496 · Sep 2019
Not
Jaxey Sep 2019
Not
Plucking the sun from the sky
Is not a sunset

Pulling a leaf from a tree
Is not autumn

Pushing me off a cliff
Doesn't mean I'm falling for you

And kissing me
Doesn't mean I love you
You can't force it
492 · Dec 2018
Tears
Jaxey Dec 2018
The only thing worse
Than the broken feeling
That you will never be able to stop crying

Is the undeniable pain
Trapped inside you
When you can't even seem to start
Why can't I cry?
487 · May 2019
Crush
Jaxey May 2019
I never expected you
To live up to your name
why did you have to crush me?
485 · Sep 2019
Final destination
Jaxey Sep 2019
Loving you
Is like a moving train
I could jump off
But it would be painful
And I just
Don't
Want
To
I don't wanna get off
485 · Feb 2019
a letter to no one
Jaxey Feb 2019
I hate you for making it impossible to hate you
- j

P.S. Why am writing this again?
god why do i need you so much
482 · Dec 2020
warmth in the winter
Jaxey Dec 2020
like a warm breath
on a winters day
giving shelter
just to fade away
you were inviting
and something new
and inevitably
too good to be true
468 · Oct 2018
She
Jaxey Oct 2018
She
She
She was everything
She was cool nights and sweaters
Mint leaves and tea
She was the softest shade of a morning flower
And when she laughed
The leaves shuddered against the simple chime
Her long soft hair was the color of maple pancakes and coffee in the morning
And also smelled like so
The wind would twirl it around its fingers
And sing against her peach skin
Her lashes, so long, would shine against the stars
And when she looked down
They seemed to reach to her toes
Lady bugs would crawl along the soft hairs and daze off into sleep
She never seemed to mind
Her full pink lips
Were soft and pure
Her tongue never spoke a trick
Even though she could
Her smile could freeze the entire world
And turn it to winter in a second
Though she preferred the flowers
Her eyes were so big with wonder
They were the color of water and sky
And seemed to flow like a running stream
Her body was so light and delicate
That the trees held her against their branches
Afraid that if they let go she would evaporate like the dew on a cherry blossom
She was so beautiful and pure that she seemed too good to be true
She could cure the world’s problems with a single sentence
And turn hate into a blissful state
She was everything
She was the crisp air on an April morning
The soft fuzz on a lavender stem
She was lace bras and chapped lips
And she was a sight to see
I'm not a lesbian i swear lol
466 · Dec 2020
the broken and the damned
Jaxey Dec 2020
sometimes
hearing
that someone else
is broken
heals us
and that's just
sad
messed up **** right there
456 · Aug 2019
Stolen
Jaxey Aug 2019
I'm sorry I stole your sweatshirt
I was aiming for your heart
This was the closest I could get
Without completely falling apart
I'm sorry
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