i have not written a word of him-
since that moment i finally (reluctantly) let you cloud my mind over what i thought was my sunshine.
i thought you were the clouds ruining my day,
however, he was the clouds, blocking the blinding light that you knew i needed most.
i realize now that you are the brightest sunlight i have ever seen.
that your constant warmth and radiance enveloping me is the most powerful illuminator i will ever have.
i used to think that tall halogen lamp added a nice touch to my living room, until i found a more modern stainless steel one to replace it with instead. and even then, i allowed a crystal chandelier to hang from my ceiling. but none of them compare to the light i found hidden behind those clouds.
occasionally, i will have a rainy day where the old clouds form again and block my view of your sunshine. on those days, i feel like drowning in a puddle of my own tears and i tend to drown you too. i form imaginary clouds to try and block you out.
yet somehow, even when the thunderstorms roll in, you manage to clear them away and give me a rainbow.
you are God's Promise to me that the sun will always shine, and no matter how hard i try to cover you up, you always will be there waiting for me.
and i will bask in the sunlight forever <3
for my sunshine, sam