Look at everything I've done
There is no forgiving this
Even still, all I did was run
I ran from it all
I'm gone
I departed to a new place
Where no one could know
This dreaded face
I spent my time on the train
Afraid

Time has come to Fall
The color red was all around
Each leaf is a memory hiding
Things that shouldn't be found

The wait comes to an end
Where I will take
The first step
Towards a new life
And right away
"Welcome to our town!"
"There's no need to frown!"
"Come on, let's be friends!"
Rushed by all the villagers
"Hey, I'll show you around."
The young miss
Said to me.
So then she went off, guiding me.
This was the next step
In this life

No
Is this forgiveness?
The world has given me a
Second chance
This is a new life
A new Me
I'll turn over a new leaf
I can make the change

Past, present, future
Past doesn't matter
And we live in the present
Fighting for our future

"Hey, miss,
Let's strive forward in this town...
Together."
This is now my town
Our town
Something far greater
Than even destiny.

I've heard it all before. Worthless.
I tried to run from it. Worthless.
Then I found new strength. Worthless.
I stood and faced it down. Worthless.
I moved on now. Worthless.
Yet here I am again. Worthless.
I'm standing here alone. Worthless.
The voices had stopped.
I was finally happy.
I was getting sleep.
I made friends. WORTHLESS.
Why is it here again? WORTHLESS.
I was better. WORTHLESS.
Why is this happening? WORTHLESS.
Is that you mom? WORTHLESS.
Father, you too? WORTHLESS.
Why is his voice here? WORTHLESS.
Why? WORTHLESS
Why why why why?! WORTHLESS.
I did my best! WORTHLESS.
The echoes are right. WORTHLESS.
I'm worthless.

I am the one
Who is never seen
The one who walked away
And who locked the door
The one who couldn't even scream
Within his own room
You all assume
That my birth
Held no worth
But now I realize
That I'm the one confused
I could only see one sky
When you all can see multiple skies
I can't understand why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
It was never fun
To end up so far
Now I remain inside
This tightly locked room
But it was that night
When I was with my friend
Even if we were the abused
There was no need to fight
On that day
Where he didn't choose
For his life to end
Now I'm the one that falls
I was the one
Who controlled fate
I hurt much more
Than any time before
I was left feeling unsure
I cried
In that room
For a long time
I needed a cure
That I knew could never be found
Because everyone that was around
Couldn't get into the locked room
I've looked at the same walls
All this time
While carrying this crime
I've dealt with all their views
And I still don't comprehend
I know I will never be alright
But now I have some clarity
To stand up in that room
There is light
Flowing from the open doorway
Where with sincerity
I can finally show them the walls
And I can see all of their skies
I will proudly bear this scar
And join everyone in this life
Even if I can't bear all this strife
I know I will eventually find my way

What if I told you
I was going to **** myself?
Would you think it true
Or leave it on the shelf?
You always say you care
But what did you mean?
You are never there
When I start to lean
To begin my collapse
Without your stabilizing kindess
While she saps
Away my happiness

No matter what's wrong and what's right
The pouring heavenly light
Will continue to rain
She shows not a drop of refrain
We know you live for the thrill
So go on and drink your fill
Enter the field of doom
As it enters full bloom

Let our final moments be told
As everything begins to unfold
We stand and make amends
As everything around us ends
This is where we let go of our names
As everything is engulfed in flames
The seconds where we learn to care
As everything remains in despair
We all begin to repent
As everything leads to this moment
Where we lose all hope
As everything hangs on a rope
When it all crumbles on this fight
As everything is burned alight
In our final moments that night

Blissful and wistful
Fleeting hearts poured in a cup
Where her lips greet mine

A wise old sage
Once asked me
When you leave the cage
Are you truly free?

You Won't Hear Me Say This
But yoU Aren't Ready Yet
I wilL neveR See You As One Of Us
Unlike You, I Had To earN This
So Stay Out Of mY Way
And I Will respecT Yours
But Know This...

Keep in mind
That it is at the center
Of the rain
Is where you will find
Her
Mixed in with the pain
And every tear
And fight
And even more
She
Remains untouched
There is no fear
Just joy
All is great
He
Is blessed in corruption
Sewn with despair
Drenched in the same rain
That is where you will find
Him
There is nothing to compare
From within the disruption
Yet out there is a place to be touched
Just like a dream or nightmare
You
Are what decides this fate
He who is locked in the dark
Looking for her light
The choice is ready to embark

We aren't quite done.
We still have to do this one.
Aw, look at those eyes.
They just saw their demise.
Don't be terrified my child.
We are just releasing you into the wild.

He once recieved someone's disapproval
He wasn't fit for the cause
He made a terrible mistake
But then someone left
Now he acts to earn others approval
To make up for his flaws
When really he just wants to make
His own self stay

One day, a hand stretched out to me
Like the naive fool I was, I took it
I knew full well that it would hurt
That it was some joke or prank
Just so they can watch me bleed again
Yet I desperately wanted the hope

After that day, he was always there
Studying with me in the classroom
Sitting with me at the lunch table
Playing soccer with me during recess
I was waiting for the sting of a needle
Yet each day went on with no sting

There were changes from that point
I wasn't alone when they attacked
He defended me from them
Or he bleed on the ground with me
He didn't have to do any of this
He was accepted and loved by them

They always made fun of him now
That he was wasting his time with me
The things they said had to hurt
Yet he stood there courageously
Telling them the same thing each time
That he saw a Hero inside of me

My Hero helped me with many things
He showed me how to study better
How to kick the ball properly
A whole world of ideals to pursue
My Hero helped me find who I am
Yet he wanted me to believe in people

We both wanted to prove our worth
Too many told us we were worthless
He had manifested a fruit tree in him
Fruits that would show them the truth
I had manifested a fire instead
One that wanted to make them burn

I think about that day we met still
It's been 14 years since I knew him
I'm struggling as a Junior in college
I'm trying to do what I love to do
I'm working to show them my worth
Yet I still haven't found the truth

There haven't been any hands now
I fought my way here on my own
Yet they still call me worthless
My family, classmates, co-workers...
Not a one wants me around
What am I even fighting for again?

I look back towards that last day
Where I had that fight with him
My Hero acted strangely that day
And for the first time he snapped
And that was when I felt it sting
The needle going through my knee

My fire grew far too large for him
He stood there and watched
As his Hero's fire consumed him
I realize that I never let that tree grow
I guess he was wrong about me
Wrong about that Hero he saw in me

I was never able to comprehend
Why it was she had to send
Me down to fulfill the end
She didn't even try to defend
Her people or me, her friend
Even while I met my end
For my one and only friend
But I guess some things never mend

I wonder what is in those eyes
They have never given me lies
But they do hide behind a pair of glasses
It's like she is wearing a mask
To persuade others off her task
But she is finished with her experiment
Now it is time to reveal
What she had to conceal
The feelings she found in the results

Whirling around us
The colors are all present
Where do you align?

Blue Awakening
To cry out in a new day
Everlasting Hope

Red Star Up Above
Sing out in the sins of old
Tears Fall in Dark Lust

Or stand in silence
Greet and enjoy defiance
No more reliance

There is no such thing
Wrong nor right, Truth and Peace is
Why we still fight on

Why is this tragic?
"We reap what we sew"
Even if it ended in failure
Did you not see your face glow?
As you held that fabric
And then started to weave....
You made that suit
Not only that, it's cute
That's why you became a Tailor
You must believe in your own sleeve

There was always this girl
She would sit across the room
It's not like she would twirl
Or give off this swirl
But I always found myself
Looking over at her
People would talk to her
Commonly, but she would keep to herself
For the most part
And she was indeed pretty
But that in itself
Wasn't what drew my gaze
She had this...air
About her, you see
I never was able to define
Quite what it was
I saw it in the way she walked
Her voice in the way she talked
I was how she carried herself
It's that air...that grace
That's what drew in my stare
She was just simply divine
But that air carried something else
I could feel...loneliness
She walked everywhere alone
Commonly on her phone
In class she always acted on her own
I just felt that there was something more
She seemed like an abandoned cat
No.... She was more like a kitty
She wasn't that violent or standoffish
And she's more calm than an acrobat
She seemed to strive towards independence
That's what drew in my stare
It reminded me of...myself
Maybe that's why I saw loneliness
We both stood our ground
And helped others around
And I too act on my own
Unlike her, however, I don't shine
I'm too much of a rusted robot
I never was able to understand
What others feel
I only look at necessity
What I currently need
Nothing else mattered
My stare was by chance
Then grew to curiosity
Now I can no longer conceal
My newfound confusion
That girl across the room
I can see her dance
Only in my head
She still din't twirl
Nor did she give off a swirl
She's just an ordinary person
Nothing special nothing else
Certainly superior to myself
We rarely walked with each other
We rarely talked with each other
Where did this come from?
What was mere chance
Turned into a feeling I knew nothing of
I now feel love
And I want to move this plot
I need to rise above
Anything to have her look at this robot
For my gaze has turned into a daze
Please I want you to take my hand
And let me stand by your side
I don't want to be outside
And no I don't want to be inside
By Your Side
For you have filled my my heart
And have given me a new start
But you are still that girl across the room
The girl who is pretty
The girl who isn't awkward
The girl who seems lonely
The girl who only dances in my eye
You still haven't returned my stare
I know why
You are a kitty
We remain independent
I'm just staring at my doom
I don't care
I won't leave you abandoned
I will find a way
I will rise above that lie
I will eventually get you to see me
My newfound wish
For this Kitty and this robot
To meet under the light
To prove love's might

Islands, Mountains, Forests, Swamps, Plains
We all have trekked through the lands
With our very own hands
Spending away the clock
We can't escape the fate
No point in trying to Negate
Which may come as a Shock
But let things Nourish
And everything will flourish
After all you don't want to miss
The sky's Last Kiss
For each verse
Is our curse
Because they are Always Watching
For you to make the wrong tap
So they can spring out their trap

You wish to
Drip and Drop
Then to Splish and Splash
But when you get there
It is nothing but
Zip and Zap
When they all enter
The room
And Lub and Dub
Appear out of nowhere
And we hear
Nothing but
Swish and Splat
And we embrace
Every star
That was once
So far
And you have found
A brand new
Drip and Drop
For with no scream
You Splished and Splashed
Your last

An endocrine and digestive disease
That has filled my life with needles
A skin disease that has a long name
Reveals my blood and bone causing more pain
A damaged ankle for years
Preventing me from running away
The health in a decline
Causing so many nights of throwing up
I am forever unsure
But I can say that I am a failure
I never had a chance
As I laid in the hospital trance

Come and join the parade
Make no mistake
We march for heartache
For when it all comes down to fade
So take each step in the state
Where there is no fate
To follow along
So come and join our song
Trust me this is what you need
As long as you stay here
You'll never disappear
That is certainly garunteed
On this march tonight
Trust me your host
As our song burns each face alight
So come on down
Let's make a toast
To the town
Of no faith
Where we will bless
Them out of this mess
Trust me the wraith
Who marches with no shame
In the parade
That made
No name
But try to stay
Alive
Before it hits five
On this very day
Trust me
And trust in what you can see

I must put on that cloak
That ever so familiar disguise
Veiled only in lies
That has only ever made me choke

They each have a duty
But this girl named Angel is different
She does not ascend
For she has something to amend
To sin was never her intent
Will she ever reclaim that beauty?

To stand against the flow
Only grants them the chance
To flood you down
For one final blow
Fear not, you won't drown
The waves grant you a dance
Allow yourself their embrace
From the Lady of the Lake's face
That is taking away your fate

Once again I have this dream
Over and over it continues to scream
But when everything has been said
The only thing that remains is the dead
Who raid the insides of my head

Looking up above to see the sky
A yearning that will never cease
Press start and feel the release
Now watch me jump and fly
To feel the wind blow past my face
Casting a tornado from my spirit
From deep within the pit
The stones I summon shall crash like a mace
Washing over all the past mistakes
The water I create will protect us all
Trees will grow and stand tall
My power will bring leaves for all our sakes
I descend in my creation
Food and warmth is what I desire
So I shall create this fire
To bring joy and defeat isolation
The prey stands there and with a flash
My lightning appears, I succeed in my ****
Alas, I will find no thrill
For the bolts will destroy with each crash
I can lift the strongest rocks
For my strength is endless
If I can't open the door to get out of this mess
My speed shall carry me through all the locks
Bestowed with all this magic
My dreams can all come true
But it is just that-a dream where I can't see you
Now isn't this nostalgic
The word is neat
That I will admit
However, it is time to submit
I will awake in reality and claim my seat

Awaken o' youth of legend
It is time to bring evil the end
On your own accord
you will raise your sword
-Oh, wait is that a rapier?
I'm sorry things got hazier
over on the scri-what? It's a claymore
now? This is getting really sore
Excuse me? It's apparently an estoc
Those aren't very easy to block
with but-wait nevermind, I think it's a katana?
Ok, whatever, do you just wanna
"cut" to the chase?
Woah wait it's not a mace
Dont expect me to rhyme
every line... all the time
Sorry this has gotten out of hand
But, I hope you understand
That it doesn't matter what it is
You are our hero who will finish this

To light the fuse
Is to amuse your delight
In the fight for abuse
But you use what is not right

It all comes down
The tall empty tower
Like the cold shower
Of each drop
That falls on top
Of her crown

I carry this lance
To carry on the fame
Of the forgotten name
To show the weak
What they seek
To cast out fear
And end every tear
So come what may
I'll bring about a new day
With the chance
Provided to me by his lance

We each all fly
Just like a dove
To come together and sing
This special song
For our dear mother
For you are like no other
You always stand strong
You always guide those with your voice
And you always bring
Us Joy
Now it is your day
And we want to say
Enjoy
And thank you
For you choice
In doing what you do
Because this love
Will never die

There was no such thing
Of a chance of surviving
The world's blazing hope

I'm sorry I didn't give you a say
But this is where I'll stay
I'm not going to run
I can't fail everyone
With this plan
I'll end this where it all began

Do you know what it's like to be worthless?
To constantly be the unproved?
I can't begin to tell you how remorseless
They are when they see the disapproved
Yet, I will hold no spite
Because I have this dream
That will win my fight
To prove myself in this grand scheme

Loneliness
A word I was given
People
The provider to isolation
Worth
The basis of frustration
Friend
It was the one thing
World
How Death likes to sing
Life
Friend lost but gave
Revenge
All that I crave
Worthless
I am afraid
Truth
What People said
Promise
Friend's scar I bear
Change
I must go there
Mistake
Can it be forgiven?

A Wise Old Sage carries a cane
And those will feel shame
For calling him insane
With or without, it's the same

I'll take the blame
And everything will stay the same
In this household name
Where I once came
I'll stand in the fire
Looking at every liar
I am not a crier
And I will rise higher
Without no need for a spell
They can't tell
But what they truly sell
Are invitations to Hell

Lend me your tear
For there is nothing to fear
Leave it on the shelf
Never doubt yourself
I shall lend you my brave
To you who can save
Now, use that mind
Lend them your kind

We have already defined
That his life is unaligned
Where all his fears and tears
Will create all the gears
To turn together the rest of his years
Filled with right and wrong,
Weak and strong, light and dark
Where we seek to embark
In the tomorrow with unavoidable sorrow

Please never go away
From our little paradise
Where you and I can stay
I don't want to be cold
Laying here all alone
Our story will go untold
So, come back and hold me
So I can melt away my struggle
In our little paradise where we can be

Out of our love's reach
Away she will stand untouched
By the war we wage

And that's the third strike.
I'm out.
I never knew about
What it is like
To scream and shout
By standing in dislike
In my heart's strikeout
But now everything had rearranged
Even though nothing has changed

Here I am once again
Picking up this dainty pen
To write about that pain
That crawls within the muddy rain
The day where I picked up that rose
The moment where I  froze
Eternally at every social strife
Because I realized, I stole its life

Once its in motion
I can't escape it's grip
Human Emotion
A quivering lip
Falling tears
Drenched in anxiety
Swallowed by fears
There is no variety
In this plan
Fogged in a cloud
Set by man
Nothing else makes them more proud