you can see the forward in my eyes skin lined with the people to so far thank for the ride if you delve into the chapters there's a need to sit down this is no fiction nobody's clown the story will end right in front of your eyes where I am standing without my disguise
Not specifically about me, I just feel there is so much more to people, never judge a book by it's cover.
my pathetic desperacy all epic with a naturalistic misery angels hailed my numbers now my calculations fumble the rest the equation unsettled on an aimless quest everything has changed but the undeserved trust is an ultimate unattained my state in dooms orbiting faces behind moons a wreckage when asleep like the neptunes called me she said hit the lights but the blinds blinded my sights wonderful a little optimism whisks me hopeful forget forever the features that lulled me once to my breather now something broken don't worry nothing stolen for me to stick for me to piece neat queen the rusted diamonds under my seat follow the heart's revolution undercover not a solution alone even if disappointing even when betraying let my allusions surf the six temples shadows bathing my past resembles to come clean find the place beyond the cold mean like the twirl of the system no one else wanted to resist him took me there to the middle of no where my dilemma is that frightened half no good to steal no good to laugh but with a wake up to them dreams such a slap a wisdom's muse would eventually snap stars dance her sky tortures her glance crimson red and she realizes that the once for all so be it would summarize this would the potion grant a pain? the poison of them affairs regard my chained name let go just say yes to saying no stay awake don't sleep take a break ------ravenfeels
I woke up one day, filled with fierce eyes. Checked the time & didn't want to get out-of- bed.
Another hour Another day, Time flashes by through hearts dismay.
Planted my feet on the hard wood crevices feeling my cold morning flesh touch the floor feeling alive.
Glanced into the mirror and here i' am again a female beast in disguise.
Tryin to do my best live day by day to be treated like an angry animal through the day
Breathing & living tired of the pain I want to get away somewhere far far...far away.
Sip my cold drink sometimes i may not want to eat so I slip my shoes on and take a deeper breath in then walk my way out the front door.
Seems to me, the morning is pretty quiet, with a fresh dew and sunrise groom. When I look around there's no one in site until the day goes by and their back in life.
Take me away from this ugly place this is not my home but a temporary warmth filled with childhood memories within good and bad filling me in like a hawk searching for roadkill in the distance of a backroad smothered in a raw delight.
Holding scars on shallow soul! Struck in dark loopholes!! Faking smiles! Behaving the way i am supposed to.. Towards all those adversities I am exposed to. Waking up with tender eyes, Loosing myself in disguise!! Dodging my own self! Hiding all my emotions in deep shelves!! Blaming every possible reason for this void, It's always there, even if I try to avoid.
Becoming something I an not.. Being happy by heart feels too hard than I've ever thought!!
With this poem I've tried to define the way I feel.. everyone wants to be with cheerful souls, many times we have to pretend happy even when we are not.. especially when we don't know the reasons making us feel depressed.
The bust of colour I see coming from your smile Your happiness radiates for a whole mile The laughter in your eyes The perfect disguise I know what's behind that mask of love Concealing the hate with a velvet glove What you do when no one else can see When there's only me The way you make me beg and plea How you cause me so much pain Keeping me on a chain How could a father cause so much pain The pain that will drive me insane That look of disdain It's no longer humane ~24/4/21